2009 NEw Year Resolutions...

Ooh. It’s dreary wet gloomy Monday morning.. after resting almost an entire week, the feel-so-almost-impossible work week is back. I so feel like sleeping in today, and I did, for a while, that’s why I’m late for work for 10 mins today. It’s still a pretty eventful Christmas met a bunch of new people, which let’s just say…there are other nicer folks around.. But that aside.

I feel it’s also a good time to do the age old resolution planning.. feel like reviewing the 2008 resolution again.. let’s see from http://melancholicjoy-mood.blogspot.com/2008/01/new-year-resolution.html

I made 1) get green belt 2) Driving license 3) Keep fit and lose weight. 4) Grow closer to God

Hmm.. I’ve achieved (1) , still getting (2) with my driving test in March, well, I havent’ lost much weight except probably go fitter cos I run a longer distance now. .. (4) I’ve not grown closer though, although frankly I think I ‘ve drifted sorta further from Him in fact.

I just realized the problem with them is that they are not measurable, so this year while making the 2009 resolutions I’m going to make them more measurable

1) For taekwondo, the difficulty is getting higher so I’ll not rush as fast as while I was a lower belt.. Santos says there’s a few junctures which ppl drop off.. one, while belt cos no interest, two at green cos it’s getting difficult, 3) red belt cos moving to black is getting very challenging and lastly of cos once they hit first dan or other dan. So my next milestone for 2009 is Red Tip by end of 2009 and remain consistent in my training….

2) Get my darn driving license!! $ concerns says it all! I might fail the first time though at the rate I’m still stalling the car and stuff…sigh

3) Run 18 Km ! I didn’t’ meet my 10 Km by 2008..Cos so far I only hit 8 KM.. still have like 2 days left?!!

4) Lose 5KG and 2 to 3 inches!

5) Have a consistent prayer life and QT session

6) Cover more of OT (Major and Minor Prophets books) or church history in detail / Planning or preparing for Cell materials.

7) Get more sleep! 7 hours on weekdays and 8 on Sundays.. too much health repercussions this year.. weight gain la, eye bags (which I never have in my life!) and goodness know wat else…

8) Bring down my cholesterol to below 250!else I ‘ll end up in hospital sooner or later siah..

9) Spend more time with family cos everyone’s getting married and will be leaving the house sooner or later…

Wah that’s almost like a never ending list.. still about my interests, spiritual life, physical health .. been neglecting many important things except tkd hehe.. May this year be a wonderful year!!!

christmas hols.. passed in a flash

christmas is over! hmm wat was i busy with siah...eve after noon lunch and shopping with aija who was helping me shop clubbing clothes, then night time go st james, wat started off well and interesting became super sucky.. but that aside.ended reach home by 3 liao. after waiting for hair to dry, slept almost 5 am.

then christmas day.. supposed to wake up for christmas service can't wake up.. then join candy and gang at fish and co for lunch.. then en en suggested ktv, so we went sing k together with kevin, james and lisheng.. damn they are all pretty good singers, i say christians area really blessed with good voices hahha. and ihave still yet to go over aijia's to pick up present and i was supposed to go over for vcd session =p

christmas eve!

Finally!! The holiday season is here! Even though no major plans for this season but it’s the holiday season baby! So excited cos took leave on Friday, the rest of the week no need come to work wahhaha..

Think I stil screwing up my moves in tkd or something. Besides the old injury on my right toe I pick up a new one on the left toe last week .. then yesterday sparring drill kena whack near the right knee. Big bruise there and it swell up siah. Then forget to warm up properly now my 2 calfs very “suan” what a way to have my Christmas eve.. but very happy cos yest stayed back to train on my own, then since not many ppl, I got personal attention from a lot of instructors hehe..
was talking to one of my colleague amongst all the things that we were chatting about, one of it is his take on how you choose a life partner. I've heard many theories, point of views and why they decided to settle down with someone. i have to say this is something intriguing. Instead of asking is he good enough, he said there's no such thing as a good man, but the question one should be asking is, how far can you accept or tolerate his flaws? which is a more practical point of view, you look at the person, you know all this flaws, to what extent can you accept them to see them as a life long partner?hmm..

Anyway, I totally got all my plans for this Christmas eve mixed up siah.. supposed to go maple pub and chalet with pipong I totally forget then agreed to go st james.. but I think all things can work out de hor haha.. think I meet aijia in the afternoon then say ah..
Tomm then is stay at home recuperate read books watch vcd day hehehhe

Nat Geo issue this month n tkd

Really love the Nat Geo mag issue this month.. about king herod and another article on how a health systemm educateds the untouchable caste women in india to become health workers.

The latter issue is so touching i almost cried in the train.. the pure fact that really women are treated worse than rats, after all the pain they bear.. how humans are treated in such a sub standard manner is disgusting. the leader of the women health worker, babi Sathe, how she was beaten by her husband, endure the birth pains, leprosy and being chased out of the house treated less than a rat in her life and having only a sari as her possession, to now having a second chance in life in being educated about medicine and health care. She is one of the richer women in the village now owning 2 houses, jeep etc. Quoting her one sentence she truly says it all: " I was like a stone with no soul. When i came here they gave me shape, life. I learned courage and boldness. I became human being. "It's not about being powerful or rich or famous, but the one main happiness , is to become a human being... gosh...

Anyway, just so happen i've just finished class.. and i was telling God.. Frankly i don't know what His perception of Tkd is, but i really thank God i took up taekwondo.. to be able to have an avenue to vent out your frustrations, emotions and unnecessary concerns, to know you can have a goal in life, something you are passionate about, that is one of the best feeling i have. That during the times when i'm emo, i can let it out at the target and heavy bags and lose myself in the lessons. In the class there's no such thing as you are rich or poor or popular or not, Ceo or just a admin staff, there's only a difference in belt level. I don't like to know that i can worry about useless things like relationships or upset about how some ppl treat me, but i like it that i can bash it all up in class. thank God for letting me have the chance to take tkd up.

company year end dinner

i originally wanted to take leave.. but figured.. aye.. better go for this dinner...we went to The Bistro at NUSS Guild house at suntec... french food is the theme and most of us were worried we won't be full hahaha.. but i love the candle lights though heheheh..very nice siah..

but pretty stress cos got 2 table.. one are the division heads, MD and Chairman.. the other table our respective managers and the rest of us side kicks hahah.. think it's the first time MD saw myface.. he only remember there's one girl doing bpm/ODC ah but dunno who.. hahha..
the food i have to say is not bad..


before the dishes they had peanuts, chips and garlic bread to fill us up though.. and our div heads brought their own wine .. which i have to say taste better than ones i usually have. Together with the constant refilling of water, im half full before they serve the dished though hehehe
this is the appetiser.. some salmon thing.. with olives..(marinated norwegian salmon with mirepoix vegetables, fresh herbs and pink peppercorn)
then come the pumpkin soup (harvest pumpkin soup topped with sour cream and nutmeg)

main course.. turkey cordon bleu .. im the only one that ordered this.. but i love it though.. turkey is pretty tender, then there's melted cheese and ham inside.. y um yum.. the potatoes albiet small taste great also wahhahah


the dessert.. we didn't think much about it.. but it turned out surprisingly good.. would be very gelard if it's too much... (chocolate royaltine drizzled with berry coulis)

pretty worth bearing my flu bound nose there though..

Holiday weekends

The extended Hols fly by just like that manz... actually it flew by so fast i can't remmeber what went on wahhahah..

Most of the friday nights was celebrating ashley's and LF's december birthdays.. went terra cafe.. not bad.. pretty oky considering its cheaper price...=) finally get to meet my successor bum soo who has an easier job portfolio! wahahah.. then ashley me and LF went to this german place in vivo which unfortunately had their kitchen closed! boo hoo no more german sausages.. the table beside her practically had us drooling away manz..

Sat ahhh.. prayer meeting in the morning with my cell, which was a good session... then spent the day with Pipong.. we had so many warehouse sale to check out, in the end we just went book sale .. and walk around the rest of the day.. queued half an hour for the fossil sale then the fellow say they are closing th queue and not much stock left so it's up to us.. we gathered we might not have budget anyway so we just left hehe..

Jack'splace dinner fantastic service at bras basah.. and after that pipong so funny.. we saw this huge ad of Jay for some watch then wanted to pose with it. but cos it's mrt.. we both very paiseh.. quickly stand there i quickly take with an auntie staring at us wierdly hehehhehe.. ah.. wat it takes to take pic with our idol hehehe

Sunday! nearly 4got where I go.. we had a girls night out for our cell but only candy and jadie cn make it.. but it's a good session we talk veyr long , girls mah. odn't need plan activities just talk can liao wahahah.. went villa bali for dinner.. makes me remind me of HP days.. then jade drove to dempsey. forgot the plc, but it's the one beside harry's.. actually not bad.. buddha head pic try to be zen and all.. oh well. but gd place to chill out. photos with jade .

Monday teh HAJI hols! wnted to bring my mum out.. but the weather was so cold we ended up holeing up at home.. my bro in law suggested steamboat so my mum 3 of us tgether with my bro in law and future bro in law had steamboat.. shiok to do it on a cold day.. but massive cleaning up after that hahahha

But it's so cold i ended up falling sick =( =( =(

night in labrador

not sure wat's going on today.. feel like breaking down so many times.. broke down in cell this morning.. on the verge of breaking down in labrador just now and again in the car... maybe it's pms or oms (on menstrual stress)

i realised i really cannot go into the forest at night... simply CANNOT.. sister's bf excitedly wanted to bring us into labrador forest happily sharing abt the war going on.. and i was so scared i almost broke down, i had to insist we don't go up.. and i was pai seh because i had very abruptly and apparently shattered his excitement, like a little boy sharing about exciting things in school only to be squashed halfway by a wet blanket parent.. but i really cannot.. my fear of darkness is too overwhelming.. thankfully he didn't pursue..

Feel l ike Travelling to mongolia!

Suddenly I feel like travelling again.. this is when I was listening to Kissing a Fool by my ultimate fave singer, George Michael. I bought the CD when I was in Perth and I still remembered it was a cool winter and I was listening to this exact track while I was enjoying the weather, the people and everything at the open space chill out area at my hotel. GM and his beautiful soothing voice together with the weather and atmosphere, hmmm.. perfect combination. Makes you feel as though you are floating along, carefree and peaceful.

OH well.. back to reality, was reading wo bao and they are feature Maldives and Siberia , looks super nice and I still wanna fullfil my dream of going Mongolia, riding the horses on open plains and mountains in the backdrop and eagles flying above my heads.. my ultimate dream..….. I’m don’t’ feel like going to the typical places like Bangkok, japan, korea etc… I wanna go somewhere that’s worth me spending what’s left of my money.. my time to plan etc… ahhhh.. the traveling bug has caught up with me once again.. but after my driving probably.. now still ttight with this stupid class of learning something I’ll never be buying anything soon.. ahhh when can i fullfill my dream?!

emo

feeling super emo today, think i losing my friends...sometimes i think if i totally dont' contact my friends or just simply totally disappear , nobody would remember or notice at all....

Haz and my liberal views

finallY! haz my dear friend is back.. suddenly wished she could be here more permanently... so glad to see she is enjoying her pregnancy and nope she don't waddle like a duck like she keep saying she does.. there we were in JC talking about kids and how it feels to be pregnant and here we are talkinga bout her pregnancy and feeling her stomach looking at her ultra sound... all those catching up... 4 hours fly by easily manz and i could have stayed even longer if not for the fact it's 11:30pm at night with work tomorrow heheh.. i'll definitely pop by more often happy shopping for baby clothes!

A colleague made a comment today.. i forget what triggered this conversation but i only remmebered the dumbfounding jaw dropping statement:"not like you (me alice) right, always F*** around" my jaw literally dropped and half of me just stared at him and half of me wanted to push him off the stairs.. and yes, true to lawrence's expectations i'm putting it on the blog. actualy to say i was insulted was an understatement..

i have to admit, i'm pretty open to the topic of sex and everything to do with one's sexuality and temptations and blah blah.. Friends who know me welll know i don't shy away from topics like that.. it's something that In the strictest opinion is a beautiful gift that God had given to worship Him in marriage. but i also know ppl are mis using them outside marriages.

I talk to ex colleagues, friends, gfs, guy friends, buddies about their own sexual life, one night stands, sexual experience, preference blah blah and i don't usually blink an eye about it, in fact this is not the first time i'm blogging about it, i've blogged about this topic last year on my opinions about premaritial sex also http://melancholicjoy-mood.blogspot.com/2007/09/premaritial-sex.html

I am open to the fact that ppl are doing it outside marriages, i m liberal about things ppl do, am aware what goes on in the world behind closed doors, but doesn't mean i myself am liberal enough to do it myself because i know God says it's wrong and I have no intention to go against God on it. I have decided to stand firm on this for God, but i talk about it because i know it's part of who my friends are and im not and dont' intend to be an ignorance fool.

now have i for a matter of fact become too liberal and too open to talk about it in casual conversations that i'm mistaken to have done it myself and is F***ing around? probably tat's something i need to think about.

wedding!

too many things happening too little time.. weekend major event.. my sister's wedding..of which i was a bit nervous for the dinner.. cos many things to coordinate.. music, march in, march in song, bridal montage, own montage.. will definitely post more pictures after getting the more pro shots from the camera man... but my own theme was indian style for the night!

never got a chance to properly sit down and eat though.. and boy so much clearing to do, before during and after... at the end of the night i was clearing so many ants i was seeing ants in my sleep

Stupid survey please send me back

okay .. this can be dumb.. but hey ! send me back so i can know more bout u =)

· 1. What time did you get up this morning? 8 plus supposed to be 7 plus.. :p snooze too much
2. Diamonds or pearls? Erm. Neither!!! Need and don’t like both hahaha
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema ? Quantum of solace! Company event.. free de hehe.
4. What is your favorite TV show? CSI New york!! Without a doubt.
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Bread and mIlk?? Bee hoon if I go office to have breakfast. ..
6. What is your middle name? Wah liew.. surname have.. to heck with middle name.. unless Lin Hui Yan, middle name Hui wahaha..
7. What food do you dislike? A lot! Erm french food? hehehe
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Metallica and James Blunt. heheh
9. What kind of car do you drive? Suzuki, I wish! Alamak still learning how to drive lah.
10. Favorite sandwich? Erm.. can I say I don’t like sandwich, fullstop. Something that doesn’t fill u up hehe
11. What characteristic do you despise? Social inconsiderate fools and rude customer service…
12: Favorite item of clothing? Jeans!!
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, you´d go to hmm.. this is difficult.. anywhere different from Singapore!
14. Are you an organized person? Once in a blue moon…
15: Where would you retire to? Doesn’t matter, as long as you can afford your own retirement heheh
16: What was your most recent memorable birthday? Last year’s… a lot of celebrations, and surprises from folks who I didn’t expect would celebrate…

17. What are you going to do when you finish this? Clear up the house!
18. Furthest place you are sending this? Just here in my blog.
19. Person you expect to send it back first? Tak tahu siah!
20. When is your birthday? Virgoan baby …
21. What is your shoe size? Erm dunno manz.. I usually take the display and tell them plus or minus.. hehehe
22. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My mum.
23. How many Pets? How about Virtual Pets?
24 Any new and exciting news? I’m getting married!
25. What did you want to be when you were little? Psychologist!
26. How are you today? Is the author running out of questions?????!!!!!
27: Favorite flower? Tulips, lilies, daisies, roses, carnations, any flower is usually nice!
28. What are you listening to right now? In the ayer..
29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? HOliday

30. What was the last thing you ate? Egg porridge…
31. Do you wish on stars? For wat?? Pray to God la.
32. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Hmm.. Turqoise! Cos sometimes you see me I might be green, another time I’ll be blue.
35. Favorite soft drink? Nope, nope soft drink..
36. Favorite restaurant? Eh nope. How about fave pub ;)
37. Hair color? Copper Red.
38. What was your favorite toy as a child? Some old bear…
39. Summer or Winter? Winter
41. Chocolate or Vanilla? Choc!
42. Coffee or tea ? Definitely coffee.. I’m an addict manz..
43. Do you want your friends answer? Sure! It’ll be interesting..
44. When was the last time you cried? I can’t bloody remember siah…
45. What is under your bed? Bags!
46. What did you do last night? Went for a drink at timbre…
47. What are you afraid of? Flying insects!
48. Salty or sweet? Sweet..
49. How many keys on your key ring? 3
50. How many years at your current job? 1 and half?
51. Favorite day of the week? Friday
52. Do you make friends easily? Yip .

53. Do you like finding out all this stuff about your friends? Of Cos!

Time at Timbre

Impromptu nite with my cell folks after finally finishing clearing my stupid room.. wah the layers of dust.. omg..


3 beautiful girls =) so sweet rightt.. owww..


hey.. whose hand is that??



this is after finally countless shots which mike is tired hahah .. have to reeducate the guys.. sometimes zi pai is more fun that ppl take for you heheh

Looks greedy yeah? hehe

ramblings

忽然间，有一股冲动想于华文来写我的部落阁。

我学tkd 已将近一年了，可笑的事，我老妈还在问我，为设么学啦， 女孩子家那么粗鲁不好设么的。咳， 真是不了解，这是我从小的梦想， 反正不学也是粗鲁了 有设么关系. =D

在报章读到，有人在考虑把白老虎灭掉，嗨！可怕的不是老虎， 它们只是做出他们本性的动作。 一个人去惹那只老虎，难道它们会置之不理吗？人类才是最可怕的。明明是我们闯进了动物的地盘， 我们还说它们倾入了我们的范围， 把它们干警杀绝，真是感到遗憾。

okie. enuf of writing inmandarin.. super tiring and slow to type in mandarin.. 3 hours of lesson straight siah.. tiring...i like the new korean coach.. veyr friendly and you can really tell he is trying his best despite his lousy english. and the way his eyes light up with passion when he teach, that's super inspiring.. like watching him perform the moves, today look at him do the black belt poomsae watch until i didnt' even know santos crept up to me, actually nope he didn't creep up, he openly walk up, wahahha give me ashock manz hehehe. And stupid sherie hahaha so funny. she look so young even though she is 24 the korean coach ask her how old is she, she still have the wits to say "24, am i older than you still?" hehhehe.. and poor guy he didn't even know he kena suan hahah

Had a new girl in tkd class yest.. was introducing around and santos was telling her who the other fellow germans are.. etc.. then i suddenly realise.. singaporeans are really minority there liao! watever population of chinese there are, majority are malaysians.. where are the singaporeans???

Shiok session at tkd

for a moment in time, i 've forgotten how good it feels to have a good session at tkd... how physically releasing... to know you have tried to push yrself further... to release the stress building up throughout the day, and most of all, it relieves my mind of all the whirlwind bothersome thoughts swirling through my mind..

sometimes i really think too much, oh God, help me to focus just on you, keep my mind on the things of God... "in all things, pray , and the peace of God that transcends all understanding will be upon you." Phi 4

old outdated birthday pic and ecp

Was flipping through my dismal pictures folder when i came across the pictures for my birthday with my cell and when i was updating my blog, i said will put up just too sleepy.. wah kauz.. i really damn slow.. really Thank God for this bunch of folks where i can be who i am without having to put a front.. =)

really have a great weekend.. cycling and KTV with mel, yannie and the ever so cute denise. ... Yak yak yak it's too early but everyone surprisingly woke up in time hehe. esp for mel and yannie.. who both slept at 2 plus or 3 am.. and have to reach east side by 8 plus.. bravo guys! and the best thing is they didn't complain a wee bit and have to sleep standing up on the bus.

And denise really sing not bad but keep saying very lousy.wahahah. she and mel, my chinese songs dictionary hehee... things are always fun with denise around wahhaa... and somehow singing the emo songs is the only time i see her emo hehehhe..

Emo

Emo.
thinking
disturbed
turbulence
whirlwind of thoughts

struggling
wondering
can i stop
need to stop
need to put a brake

need to get ashore
fighting against the waves
trying not to be swept away by the rushing currents

Finally Fun Time!!

Ahh enough about work, looking fwd to sat for our ecp cum ktv session. Had a great time last Fri with watching Quantum with denise, yan and charlene, Lawrence (who has more a weida look than lawrence look wahaha) and benne and after that short drink at alley bar. All of them so wonderful and cute in their own right, thank God for having nice colleagues in the companies I work in so far, definitely make life more interesting when you need it. Ah back to the ecp.. haven’t seen the sun for so long! But I so scared of being tanned.. I dunnnnwannnnt.. my freckles is going to fill up my cheeks soon manz..

Train train train.. better train more to improve my skills, wanna be a good green belt person the way a green belt holder should be!! New class schedule from 24th nov. … starts at 6:30.. so must leave on the dot at 6.. which means must come on the dot by 8:35 wah.. this is sooooo difficult =’( =’( …..nowadays my life surrounds tkd, at night b4 I sleep I also think about it, and whatever exercise I do should serve to benefit my tkd… never felt so purposeful in my workouts before hehehe…

Work…. Miss God

So bored at work… sometimes it’s not that I don’t have anything to do, it’s just sometimes you don’t get the satisfaction of doing something u know technically, by right is worthwhile doing. BPR, by right is an exciting and interesting project to do. There is not a single day that should be the same, you get to meet people from all divisions, get to learn a lot of things without directly being held responsible for the work. If it’s geared in the right direction, it can definitely help the company save money, improve process and more transparency and consistency in everyone’s work. But this company is definitely not ready for any BPR or BPM or related projects, not only did they can’t see beyond their direct job scope, BPM/BPR is lowest on their priority.

I Miss God.

I Miss God, one message from pastor calvin b4, think I really miss talking to Him, listening to Him, being close to Him. In an analogy that Jade had given, sometimes we put God in the passenger seat, or worse still in the boot, and bring Him out only when we need Him. But we should all be letting him in the driver seat of our life. Really need to review this aspect with Him more often and put aside all other miscellaneous thoughts in my head….

"extended weekend"

been trying to learn how to cook.. at 26 then u learn?! oh well better late than never hehe.. it's a skill eveyrone should know to me.. u can go anywhere (i mean in a decent city not in the jungle) and u can pretty much survive...... learning just the basics.. fried rice, fried bee hoon, cabbage, normal vege, gong bao ji ding.. mui fan.. my sis was saying.. wah nov23 u are the one getting married or pipong (my second sis) hehe.. in the words of my sis, well i cannot wait for the shit to be at the hole before i go find toilet.. wahaha..

Finally managed to hit 8 K again.. wanted to jog more and train more.. but alas.. fell sick.. too much fondue.. which reminds me... the cell pot luck was fabulous.. loads of food.. good time together.. pretty good sharing and good time of prayers... but i think i whacked the fondue a bit too much.. dont' waste mah.. nobody seems to be eating despite the anticipation of it! hehe.. cell mates say bee hooon not bad. my family proud of my virgin product.. but my dad say no wonder got left over.. too bland.. hehehe oh well....

can't wait to recover so i can get back to training!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!! 2 days w/o exercise.. my muscles are calling for help reaching out and trying to stay afloat... pushing the layers of fats aside trying to breathe..

my blog proverbs and cheeky quote of the day

looking at the proverbs of the day and cheeky quote of the day in my own blog.. ha such wisdoms!

Proverbs words of solomon say do not mix with ppl who drink too much wine can make u poor or something.. wah liew.. i really need to think through my lifestyle.. drink lover leh..

cheeky quote of the day: women are meant to be loved not understood.. wah so true!! but then hor some women will complain the men in their life don't understand them.. so 矛盾hor....

down and then up!

wah. dunno wat's wrong today. got off the wrong side of the bed.. so grumpy the whole day.. but then.. i have only one side to get off from the other was the wall... so i'm perpetually grumpy heheh.. ok very lame hehe.. but poor denise has to tolerate my di di niam di di niam moments hehe.. till i told her if i di di niam again have to stop me hahha..

but !! hehe.. nothing can save a sucky day more than a good tkd session! hehe.. 3 hours non stop .. 1 hour learning the patterns.. anther hour of all levels of target and kicking punching.. another super strenous hour of running jumping.. pushups ( GUY STYLE!!) i think my instructor has more faith in me than i think i am hehhee.. ah dui .. push up guy style .. he say alice u are a tough woman.. maybe i'm tougher than average woman.. but damn can't beat the guys(that's for sure!) i can only manage 3 before i have to stop.. think he give me leeway also heheh

but damn i feel super shiok now !

lousy skills i have!

was looking through some of the pics i taken.. and i realised i need some photography lessons!!!! omg!! the fireworks i taken randomly look like wriggly worms in the sky lor! then compare to the very professional shots by tze kai.. swee!!

Pant pant :p

sunday! a time of rest and dread usually and a time to exercise heheh.. =)

So so happy that there's no work tom.. wah actually the whole of weekend not much plans. but it's quite shiok cos no need to rush.. only rush up to wake up to exercise ...

today driving lesson again.. ask the instructor, finally he say i can start to get the exams date le.. else that time he keep saying better don't take test date first.. at the rate he keep saying 靠一边一点，要撞死人了要撞死人了。 hehehe

aye! miss my target! that time run 8K.. today want to hit the same.. but then end up only run 6Km alamak... i think i got lazy body leh... never mind still got 2 months to go.. hehe meanwhile.. i'll still be panting like a tired dog!

Roses

Came across a beautiful poetry...... sweet

ROSES You love the roses - so do I. I wish They sky would rain down roses, as they rain From off the shaken bush. Why will it not? Then all the valley would be pink and white And soft to tread on. They would fall as light As feathers, smelling sweet; and it would be Like sleeping and like waking, all at once!

greenny green green

yippie!! green belt le! one resolution fullfilled ! somehow after chnging colour, got that feeling like cannot pray pray liao.. msut be even more serious in class.. cannot anyhow kick le hehe.. cannot sia sway myself wahaha.. today instructor say my stamina not very good.. ask me go do skipping on top of my jogging.. maybe i should skip eveyr morning before i go to work.. hehee...

exceed my limit! hehe

so happy!!! okay .. it started off quite sucky because i lost my unifrom and i can't go to class today even though i was so super prepared to go ...so bo bian come home for a run...

dunno why found my momentum... and usually i run 4K i already tired.. but today i exceed my limit and run 8 K instead.. so happY!!!! o my! hehehe..

still not fantastic compared to ppl who can run half marathon and shit .. but for myself it's something worth a pat on the back.. looks like achieving my new year resolution of running 10Km is quite feasible le! hehe

birthday time of the year

it's the time of the year.. where it's your birhday season..

Really happy that some old friends remembred.. shouldn't take old friends for gratned for remmebering..

Ex colleauges from HP celebrated. ashley, kean & charmanye, carol lingfang, pei zu, remi yas. ..and star bucks coffee from yas..

Cell mates had seafood steamboat buffet on sat.. wil prob post some pictures.. more celebrations next week to come..

Meanwhile.. eyes and fingers falling asleep.. ciaos.

upcoming birthday.

Birthday iscoming.. but dunno why there isn't this excitement in me? Last year's was fun.. good to have blogged about it.. at least it gives me good memories.. but this year is boring.. for some reason..

yeah there are celebrations.. but ....

Foreign workers in Singapore

Okay, long time no blog and i'm infuriated enough to need to release my anger.

I really can't take it that singaporeans keep asssociating the foreign workers as criminals. omg! that's so ancient thinking. we are supposed to be first world countries but have behaviours like that.

Okay my friends would know me that i have a particular strong dislike for people from a particular country because of their typical general rude, super kiasu and no social courtesy manners. But for the foreign workers from India and Bangladesh.. except the fact that they always hover at mrt or bus exit without moving in (but that behaviour come from local also), genearlly i find them super polite nice and well behaved.

When is the last time do you hear a crime by them against a local. If there's any crime at all comign from them, that's usually between themselves. I remmeber in my old neighbourhood, at one point of time, there was a lot of construction going on for the then-upcoming condos. My area being hawker centre and hdb area, becomes an attraction for them. The thing is, they are hardly rowdy at all. And now and then as u walk near them, and they accidentally bump into you on your shoulder or something, they immediately go "sorry sorry" in a super apologetic sincere humble manner, something locals hardly do at all.

And days when i go home very late at night, i find their prescense reassuring that at least there are other living souls around. Basically the only thing they do is gather together and talk.. which is fine especially they are living in a foreign land.. all they do is turn aroudn together and stare/look. What harm is that? what nonsense about women being unsafe! bull shit! never a day have i felt unsafe. In fact i rather have them around then some leary old man.

Stop looking at these folks with coloured eyes. A lot of them are really well behaved people whom like the straits times article on 9th sept say, they are more afraid of us than we of them.

Sun Burnt!

National day.. spent a whole day at ECP and a whole day cycling.. boy o boy i become so sun burnt manz

started at 945. . ended at 1145.. then lunch.. then continue cycling from 1plus till 5plus.. oh my God. my hands are as hot as burning fire till night time..

but it's really fun.. for once i cycle all the way to the airport and beyond.. shiok.. super nice that side...

Play pool after that.. wah.. lousy like shit.. it's time i go practise hahha

I ve always realised one thing.. if you are fat.. there are lot of things u can't do ..



1) You can't wear bikini (well obvious. unless you don't mind drawing negative comments)

2) You can't be seen eating while walking (oh gosh, look at her. no wonder she is so fat!)

3) Cant wear anything too revealing or tight (oh manz.. showing more than necessary is Not sexy)

4) You cant sit down and hunch your back.. (unless you want to have an extra big handle to grab hold of at your waist)

5) can't drag yr feet as you walk no matter how tired you are.. You look even more sloppy

6) You can't slide down your seat else either you look super sloppy and lazy or you risk showing layers of fats bulding out

7) Flowery nice dress are out.. unless you don't mind looking like a big pumpkin dressed up in flowers all round

don't tell me you never think about these hehe..

The list stops here.. .. for now hehe

Fun Fun Fun!

Never had so much fun in one weekened hehe!

Had blading class early in the morning on sat at ECP, could never get the A frame turn.. but oh well it was till fun.. when we had lunch it started raining and im like oh shit.. we gotta go cycling after taht.. it really rained after that, but for some reason we decided to sit out the rain.a fter all we made the whole way there to the east! the Cycling part with my colleagues after that was fun.. almost 2 full hours of cycling hehe.. after that my legs hurt abit from blading and cycling..

Went home and bathe then head out again for dinner with michelle . was a bit apprehensive since i didnt' know the rest of the friends.. but it turned out great.. really enjoyed my time and they are really nice to talk to..! Dinner at some super ATAS place that cost 34 bucks for one pasta! hahah.. then on to PS Cafe where they gave my number to the cute waiter.. oh gosh.. i need a hole in the ground there and there! but he IS cute haha.. by then it's almost midnight le hehe. head on to turkish place for some sheesha.. tried once.. but doesnt' taste anything but makes my throat damn itchy... alamak.. reach home at 4 am.. gosh been awake for 22 hours!

Wake up early sunday morning 3 hours later at 7 plus to iron my clothes cos i have a lot day ahead and need to do my weekly routine.. on to church and after that picnic with the other cell.. hehe.. got to know more friends! ooh i love it when i can know more new friends that i can click with.. ahhhh.. hehe... all the way to night.. ooh sun tan.. the sea, the sea breezee.. shiok then after that an ice cold beer with the group.. so nice.. wyatt brought the gp to geylang and i no need to take my own transport to geylang.. even gave me a lift there.

Onz to tau huay and durian too bad ramesh dunno how to eat it.. aiyo wasted.. but good for me get to eat durian hehe.! by the time reach home 12 plus tok to grace online 1 plus.. wahhaa.. nearly died on monday siah..

But super happy! thanks to all who made my weekend so wonderful!

looong time...

it's been a while since i last updated my blog. too caught up with life that there's basically no time to ponder..

Nov is not far away die.. have nto slimmed down enough hehe..now is only becoming acceptable.. having a bikni ready bod is still a long way down manz..

Positive attitude

we had our teambuilding yesterday.. compared to the one i had in HP this is definitely more positive.. that time, it was a team buidling where the atmostphere became really negative and more tensed.. and everybody took the chance to air what they were not happy with...

This time round.. it was more fun, the ppl were more polite and accomodating. prob cos they don't work with each other that's why there's nothing to be unhappy about hehe..

One thing i realise.. actually nobody started off liking team buildings and games.. but as long as you are optmistic and carry a positive attitude, things can look good and fun too.. if you start something with a sucky attitude then watever u are doing will be sucky and can affect eveyrone around u also.. but if you carry a positive and good attitude, then watever u are doing isn't that bad either. =D

roller blading here i come!

so much has been learnt in the retreat.. Touch of God is unmistakable and so sweet.. to hear from God. that's really the most amazing thing.. only pray i can maintain the momentum with him..

wah.. but 1 week in retreat.. i gain 1 inch.. all that i've done in 2 months gone haha..

i am so looking fwd to roller blading with my friends.. taking up the course that's subsidised under my company hehe... jia you! slim down have fun!!

Finally it's over

The very week that i've been dreading is so over!! yippie!!! I was so nervous the week before, wishing and hoping that the week wouldn't come, and now before i know it, it's over! wahahah

The whole week tuesday was my final theory test.. alamak, everyone was saying don't worry it's going to be easy sure pass one.. for some reason that made me even more nervous, what if i fail? aiyo.. if everyone say it's going to be difficult, i not so nervours leh.. but what the heck, i passed hehe.. but i was so slow and when i saw i passed i was heaving with a relief so hard the insturctor had to ask me, 'cannot make it ah?' hehe..Now it's time to start planning my driving practical. *freaked out*

then immediately that night tuesday i had to pack up cos flying for India for biz trip on Wed.. okay.. even though its not my first biz trip, but this time round, it was my first time alone. It's not the discussion nor the plane part that i was worried, but i was worried about the hotel stay, cos i never like and never really dare to sleep alone, and i got this child hood phobia about hotel rooms.. so the weeks before got my cell to pray for me, my sis pray for me and i was asking God to be with me throughout..

But whee, thank God it's not that bad :) the first night i reach past midnight.. although didnt' sleep much but it's still fun.. next morn wake up i was beginning to enjoy myself.. and second day and night i was thoroughly enjoying having the hotel room myself. hehe. can do whatever i want..

but everytime i go India i will fall sick last time i got food poisoning this time got diahoreea flu body ache and all. .. *faint*

so now need to recuperate.. cos monday leaving for malacca siah.. aye..

busy busy busy

i wonder how i can ever get busier than i already am

Mon, tues , wed i got tkd.. Thurs... jogging or appointments.. Friday, either appoitnments or TKD. Sat I have gym then cell group. Sunday would be church, housework and my sports class... Then i was surfing the 2tim2:2 group and they have the torah class on sat afternoon... i so want to take it up..... but dunno got time or not.. plus i havent even slot in driving.. ahhhh

this week .. mon got tkd, tues i have driving test.. wed i'm flying off to India. sat come back.. monday go off to Malacca... wah kauz.. but at least. malacca is to relax. which i badly need.. both physically and spritually..

i need 36 hours perday..

Tatalising, charged up. Pricked my senses, exciting!

That aside, manz.. reading like a week's worth of Calvin n Hobbes @ one shot.. so cute!!! can't take it!watched accuracy of death with aijia yesterday, good to see takeshi in a jap show. i prefer him speaking in Jap manz....Really funny so comedic his acting in this show..

been trying to seek high n low for Lifehouse's latest album, and no one seems t sell it!! i trying to buy original now and thy dont' sell! don't force me to dl!! search for Music junction dont have, sembawang music centre don't have also. Even HMV CITILINK N ORCHARD DUN HAVE!! oh my!! how is that possible

Taiwan charity show for sichuan Earthquake

I was watching the taiwan telecast of their charity program for the earthquake victims..Was totally mind boggling that it's so different from our own. We have dozens of these call in charity and sometimes our own artistes fight their light out or even had those foriegn artistes came and perform. Sometimes still.. the calls only trickled in or not met their target..

The TW version though.. they don't had all these performances.. veyr minimal.. and the funny thing is they have all these ppl at the back of the stage and when they call in, there are actually humans picking up their call.. not some automated voice messages.. wow... they have mayors, famous singers.. actors and even President Ma Ying Jiu and his wife or even Jay chou picking up the calls manz.. So many corproate or individual donations poure din also, by the millions and tonnes of millions NT.. and even when artistes sings, it's only if someone promise to donate like a huge amount of money.. not the other way round..

This keeps me wondering why..

Probably the fact that Taiwan has their fair share of earthquakes and their own Earthquake disaster like 921? that's why they can understand better? or the fact that they dont have much chartiy shows lkike that which is once in a blue moon.. so ppl tend to donate more as compared to have dozens per year.. Or that they have bigger population to gather donations from? or simply that the ppl there are more generous when it comes to helping others in need like that. Or their Hosts are so talented that they are able to speak words that touch the heart of the ppl and make the show a success?

Or is it simply that singaporeans don't have enough disasters to truly understand the impact that an earthquake disaster can bring? or singaporeans and companies in SG are too stingy to donate.. why bother so much when there are so many things to take care of within ourselves?

Umm..

trust

sometimes i wonder what's wrong with my eyes or my heart.. i can never seem to trust the right person.. those i thought i can trust actually i can't.. those act end up quite good i don't trust them in the beginning..

really need to be careful of my environment and the ppl around me.. Have wierd or narrow minded ppl around me.. i wish the ppl here can be more open minded.. gosh.. wat century is this already.. and some still can't be more frank, open minded or they keep behaving like some secondary school lkid.. gosh

Gotta try not to leave or stay cos of ppl..

east coast day.

Realised it's been a damn long time since i last updated my blog.. been busy and too lazy to type.. begin to wonder type for wat anyway..

Took a last minute leave to go East Coast last fri with my mum and my second sis.. it's been a damn long time since i went.. not since i quit hp and clearing my leave anyway.. and my mum hasn't been there so my sis brought her there.. quite fun.. my family are always a fun crowd to hang out with anyway.. super smiley face hoh my mum and sis hehe.. .. and my that stupid shades are worth every piece of cent i paid for! wahaha... up my glam factor my 100% siah hehe..

My dad very sweet.. suddenly appear.. mum says he scared my sis got lost... .. he very funny.. say 30 years never cyle le.. the moment he got on the bike, he transform into a kid heh.

sunday = pampering day

Finally i get doing my pampering and all that...

couldn't stand my long nails... did a full set of aroma manicure & pedicure which the lady did a good scrubbing of my dry foot. hate my nail colour but at least my hands and feet are neat now hehe..

then Sunday .. i bought body scrub, the gloves for body scrub. So i did a body scrub, hair mask, face mask & good workout .. felt good enough for another hectic week.. :)

Other than that, i think i'm slipping into depression..

yellow belt le

Yeah.... Passed my grading... actually unless u screw up big time.. but should pass de bah... umm.. now yellow belt.. no more double promotion though.. oh well.. slow and steady take it as get my foundations right first bah.. :) nontheless finally not white belt anymore... =D

finally... the day that i've been dreading is over.. finish my internal grading last week and my STF grading today..... i dont' think i made any seruios mistakes.. but really i always get so nervour esp with the coash and the judge standing so seriosly there.. usually it's a mental block what i did there.. i'll leave the hall clearly forgetting what i hd just done inside..

Oh well.. hope it's fine better still get a double promotion hehe.. But like what Santos says.. better dont' too have too high an expectations else u fall harder ..

wish i internalise that advice for my work also.... i had put in so much effort for the whole project... end up other managers recognise my efforts more.. and i got an increment that was lower than my expected.. or was my expectations too high.. well oh well like what li hia was saying, considering the fact taht i got complains by other managers before, i already have a higher than average increment is already not bad le.. so ...

But don't know why i feel so bloody negative about my whole envionrment.. suddenly i can't stand sitting in that stupid room and everything that everyone does irks me to the core. There are colleauges or friends who ask me not to think so much be more positive.. but i simply cant find the thoughts to be positive about....

My internal emotional turmoil is playing within me again.. and it's during these days i wonder where all my friends are...No wonder God says it's not the healthy that needs the doc but the sick... Thank God i have him.. without Christ i might have gone seriously in depression or over-anxiety...

Michael jackson!

MJ just released the 25 yrs anniversary of Thriller. And MSN video control room has the 1992 concert in Romania on the website. Supposedly when HBo played it that year, it chalked up the highest ratings ever.

My god! He is so addictive! No wonder they say he is just a talent! He makes singing so easy, so much stage charisma, his dancing is so damn smooth. And his vocals is powerful manz.. he can jump and dance around with out affecting his singing a damn bit.

And no wonder his moonwalk has inspired so many artistes and like a comment left on the MJ website, Imitated but never duplicated. And his concert is really worth watching manz ... I wonder where he is now! Just a waste if he stopped just like that...

Check it out.

http://msninconcert.msn.com/music/MichaelJackson/en-sg/artist.aspx

Grading again

The time of the year has come again.. it's time for Grading :P Getting a bit nervous.. now has more time to practise my chong ji, taegyu & my techniques.. don't know why ppl keep rising up while i keep getting stuck.... aiyo.. still @ yellow tip...

Hope can pass and move on to Yellow belt.. or better still get a double promotion to Green tip hehe.. a bit impossible.. sigh...

But oh well.. i took up for the interest of it, let me build my foundation and try to pick up to be a bit more all rounded =D

Pretty happy i've pretty much got over what has been troubling me. Thank God. This case it's really through HIm Alone i got over and no one else. Thank God He traded my sorrows for His Joy.

freedom from bondage

Freedom from bondage is the best feeling in the world... Thank God for being with me. Whether or not anything come to past or it did not, God has a reason. And I'm grateful He is in control and not me.

Nightmare.

woke up in cold sweat. Dragged back into reality from a world of dreams; a dense cloud of expectation enveloped me. My heart constricted & my limbs froze for the moment. Suddenly i was shaken wide awake. There is almost this air of anticipation that something is going to happen there & then. As wide awake as day time, I was fearful of what might happen. I broke into a string of fervent prayers, praying for safety & protection & that if anything might happen, God will stop it. Prayed that God will help me get back to sleep. Finally, having battled & Struggled for long, against the baisc instinct that sprang from within to be alert & flee, exhausted, I succumbed to exhaustion back into blissful sleep.

Weekend FUn

Finally my weekend is filled.. nowadays mondays to fridays is packed like siao..reach home almost 11 pm every day.. and i havent' even take up driving. .. so by the time i hit Saturday all i wanna do is stay at home and rest..... but beginning to think i nuaing at home too much...

Anyway.. last sat finally got KTV.. aiyo... been thinkng very long le.. me Lf and Tj.. we usually would go for a drink or two.. but figured, let 's change for once ;D go drink tea instead. hehe.. so we went back to tea chapter.. and drank almost 4 hours tea until we tak boleh tahan siah.

after dinner we had the mood to sing K. so pop by party world... not bad.. except now and then my mind isn't concentrating much.. but it was fun.. good to catch up with old friends once again =)

And sunday! the day i was waiting for. The Earth Wind Fire Experince concert! Damn it was good! in Fact, it is the most wonderful concert i ever attended ( considering i didnt' attend a lot:p)

They were excellent.. now only were the vocals, their musicicians fantastic... but it was almost 2 hours non stop of music... no intervals, no commericals, no change of clothes haha... they started with a couple of fast tracks.. can see ppl are enjoying but no one stood up to dance except one crazy girl :) then the continued on with a couple of slow tracks..

I tell you after the slow tracks.. it's not even half way the concert, they went " come on ppl, get up on yr feet" bamm the whole crowd stood up. Probably it's due to the fact that a significant number of the audience are 'ang moh' or probably 80% of the ppl stood because they wanna dance and let loose. But i gurantee there's a % of them that stood because the people in front are blocking them when they stand hehe.. i was unstoppable manz.... i can't imagine not dancing to these fantastic music.. the shout for encore was thunderous.. and i couldnt cheer any louder, nor could anyone else.. throat were sore from shouting.. hands were perpetually in the air.. standing ovation happens quite often also..

sad

it's been a long time since i felt so depressed. .... it's been very long.

哎， 受伤了

哎，在我做这么多运动的当儿，从来还未受过设么伤。 昨天却中标。

If i get hurt while in the midst of doing some glamourous kick i can still proclaim yeah i got hurt while sparring haha... but stupid thing is i sprained while falling down doing an unsucessful flying kick. Bent my toe while landing. dang. it hurt so much i can't even scream.. but i tot it's fine and i went on to the Strengthening and Conditioning class. I thought it'll be pure stretching like the previous class.. Oh no, running jumping hopping practically throughout the class. wat a coincidence.

Anyway, walked around with a limp the whole day. Never failed to be a good conversation starter i guarantee. next time anyone wants to talk to a dream person orif u want to see if someone cares for you, should get their legs bandage and walk around with a limp infront of them and see what reaction you get hehehe...


But my family was nice.. my sis drove me down to the sinseh, my dad followed along to give instructions and mum came to show where the sinseh.. cos of my leg the whole family went along hehehhe.. my eldest sis say wah so honoured leg whoel family go hahhaa..

HOpe it really recovers soon!! I got grading on April 13 n 20 !!!!!!!!

Hottest guy in the news

Okay, hands up to those who know the answer to this question!

" who's the hottest guy in the news recently? WHose press conference garnered more reporters than when Mr tung resign from HK parliament?"

haha! no prizes for that.

Thing is, why does edison need to resign when there's a scandal like that? Not like it's his fault anyway. Yes, it's because of his pictures in the pc and carelessness that it happened. But who's to blame when both the females and him took those pictures willingly in their own privacy?

Does your personal life matters if it doesn't affect yr job performance? Reminds me of the Clinton and a recent US politiican recently.

Personally, as long as the artistes is good at what they do, I don't really care how many explicit photos he took with his gf in their own privacy.

Anyway, i bet to alot of his fans or some females, his sex factor and sexiness just shot up like a rocket after this.

passed by first gradin!

okay , in my anguish and disturbance forgot that i had actually moved on.

But yes! passed my first STF grading and now i'm yellow tip! yeah!! Gotta work hard, next grading in april.. trying to aim for yellow belt wahaha.. !

really don't need think much and my mind don't worry so much when i do my tkd.. it's really a stress and emotions relieving (not to mention can lose weight) activity hehe..

Scrweed it.

Think i screwed it this time round. Spoiled the only form of relationship we have. If a good working relationship is all we have, then i really had burnt the only bridge. No need to even consider anythign else liao.

Seems i never learnt my lesson. Always let my emotions get the better of me...

What would you say?

In the stillness and silence, God spoke.

It was the altar call for Rev Rick Howard's messsage about the judgement seat of God. All of us have to stand before HIm one day. And if he were to ask us to account for our lives, what would you answer? How are we living our lives? everyone when saved is saved by the righteousness of Christ, but do we have anything to tell God about when we see Him @ the throne?

the message really got me thinking what i'm doing with my life? I've accepted as my God & Saviour, but am i living my life like He is my Lord? the words really touched something within my heart as Rev Rick preach.

However, it was @ the altar call when Ps Calvin asked for moment of silence to contemplate & Evaluate our lives before God that it hit me. In the silence without the music and words, God Spoke. If you were to account, what would you say? Suddenly I felt very ashamed, & I've never been so desperate for God's presence and His strength, not even when i first accepted Christ. My tears started gushing like the dam just opened, only God can touch my heart this way. And all i can think about is " it should be all about you Jesus" And i pray that God don't let me forget that moment. It's not the end but it's just the beginning. Am i going to walk out the service hall forgetting what hadjust happened, or it's just the beginning of a change. I just pray that God has mercy in me for my weakness, & that He'll do what He can, renew my mind and strengthen my walk as I strive to be more like Him.

Jesus did not die on the cross, redeem us from our sins, reconcile us, just so we feel happy & that we are going to heaven and that's all bout all. He called us to go into the nations, making disciples, sharing His Word. What am i doing with the life that he had given and blessed me with?

Emptiness only He can Fill

This Chinese New year is no different from other CNY celebrations. It's sill the same routine, same places, same people. There are times when i enjoyed it, enjoyed the fact that our traditions still keepus in contact with our extended family. there are horror stories on relatives from hell. But generally mine are fine, there are nice ones and there are sucky ones. But overall, the idea of keeping in contact, visiting one other, saying words of well wishes to one another, can be pretty heart warming if sincere.

Besides them, i've also played to the max, I went my friend's place and watch movie till late at night on the first day, continued whole night and morning of majong, went chionging the second night, pubbing on the third night but still it doesn't take away that overwhelming feeling of restlessness and enveloping claustrophobic emotions constricting my heart. The moment I'm free and my mind has time to roam, i busied myself with a full 3hour workout to occupy my mind.

But Oh Lord, You know these won't help nor does it soothe anything. I've yet to set my problems at Your feet. You have said You can lead me to greener pastures and take Yr yolk for Yours is lighter. Lord You have said Take heart You have over come the world and Your Joy is my Strength. Lord, You have said Be Strong for You are with me and let the Lord take the throne of my heart . but Lord, forgive me for I've heard but not listened. I listen but i did not obey. I let the things of the world cloud my heart, like the weeds that overwhelm the seeds and cant' grow. Lord at the end of the day, this emptiness of my heart, can only be filled by You. Nothing else can take this place nor soothe this emotions except You. Take me into yr presence Lord.

docile or not?

My sis keeps telling me, i should not try to be rough.. play down my fascination for my taekwondo, try to be more gentle, actions softer a bit.. say i shoudl try tactic..

boy. that's going to be tiring. the truth as i've faced it, is that i can never be gentle or soft or whiney like the typical taiwanese girls. and i have a male friend who tell me i'm a bit too strong for my own good.

Now, should i just be myself? or is there reason that I should change ?

fantastic solo night

kena fly kite by my friend on Thurs.. puts me in the mood.. but too last minute so cannot jio anyone.. so decided wat the heck, i shall go for a drink myself.. at the back of my mind, reminds me of what li hia says, when she reach a particular stage in life she dun mind and dare going to some lounge for a drink then go back de. I wanna be like that also. ..

but Indochine@ club street is a nice and non-threatening place.. very relaxing.. and soothing. Nothnglike Clarke Quay or dempsey or those atas place where ppl need to put on a front.. nope this is where u can be yr self and sit there and relax.. lounge music, koi fish pond, dim lights.. waterfall at the wall etc.. wahh i love this place.

真可惜他不喜欢做这些事， 要不然我的那一晚一定更完美。他不了解的事，想要的不是那一杯酒，想要的是那个可以与朋友聚一聚的机会。那可是喝可乐还是汽水都无所谓。唉！在前一个公司，我与同事都是这样bond的。

weakness

Today Pastor George Westlake, "the walking bible", came and preach at our church today.... Reminded again that we are called to be a witness for him. We should walk the talk, talk and walk like Jesus, such that people would want to know who Jesus is.

I've to say, i'm guilty of not being a good enough witness. My temper is still bad, and i don't reflect a lot of the fruit of the spirit like love joy peace patience, kindness, goodness self control etc. sigh. Thank God for his mercy and patience, pray that God can help me overcome tis weakness of mine but it's a raging tempest only He can still.

Giving Up

I'm giving up le.. getting tired.. i've taken a step forward but hit a brick wall. So be it then.

Nice Walk

was supposed to go city hall today from my work plc in tanjong pagar. Suddenly felt like taking a long walk. It feels good sometimes to just get on yr feet and walk aimlessly or whenever whereever u want. all right i'm supposed to go somewhere but doesn't matter. The wind was quite strong today and I know i'm not in a hurry. Walk along boat quay and then to funan centre then to city hall. man, it feels good. somehow 35 mins seems like a short time when u feel like walking. Feel like i can go like 42 km ... i'm still waiting for the chance to walk in the rain.....

Grading!!

Yippie!! I'm having grading le!

Today was fun.. white belt separated from teh rest of the belts. which is good.. cos now the instructor gotta focus on us! Great! 1 hour of all levels with dedicated teaching.. wahahha.. else i feell like a lost sheep manz.. Then after that 9pm i can't get enuf yet i continued on to Forms.. where he taught me Pattern. then he say okya actually u are ready for grading.. woah.. my jaw drop and i stared at him and didn't know wat to say. Anyhow the grading is once every 3 months.. might as well otherwise have to wait till april! Hope i pass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then on to Yellow tip!!

weekend here i come!

弄巧成拙？

只要你觉得你不尝试你会后悔的话， 你就尽管采取第一步。

这是他给的个人意见。 说到容易做到难。

我猜其实他知道我不知是随口问。 其实太烦，积极， 和友善 的差别到底在哪里。我到底应该采取这么样的行动才不会弄巧成拙。

my taekwondo lessons!

Finally attended my second Taekwondo lessons ! thing is i can never get my punches right.. i think the instrucutor is going to puke blood. It was quite terrifying actually cos there wasn't another female with me nor did i know anybody there... . The first lesson i reached, there were a couple of senior students but no junior students. Then i saw a fellow white belt guy, but he was the bulky gym person kind, obviously of certain deg of ability and strength. i was quite lonely and nervous actually. Thankfully for the All Level class , there were only like 4 or 5 person there. less terrifying. The white belt person was actually quite friendly, initially looked quite 'dao' after i broke the ice, he was acutallly quite nice. And the instuctors were all very nice nd friendly =D

second lesson was a killer. This time round was the senior instructor himself. my god.. side kick, turning kick, front kick, jumping kick, jumping flying kick.. alamak! it was fun actually. 1 hour fly by like that siah! Everybody had a partner and they took turn.. and i'm the odd one out again.. so pair me with a black belt apprenctice instructor. But sice he dun need to do it, i was kicking continuously for one hour.. and my oh my! my legs are hurting like hell now.. all the way the back of calf to back of my thighs and the side of my waists..

I dun no if i can make it for my lesson tom.. ooh.. i dun want to waste manz! ..

I'm so lookng forward to my next lesson!

New Year Resolution

It's the beginning of the year! Time for New Year Resolution! Some say it's useless to make them cos u never achieve them.. but to me, at leat it sets some direction on where u are going in this year ahead so u dun regret them.. =)

my first resoltion is to get a green belt. At least i'll be somewhere by end of the year =)

Second up! get a driving license! well due to money contraints, might stretch to 2009... hehe..

Third! Continue to lose weight and keep fit! Mon swim, tue, wed thurs, Taekwondo, sat gym sun ABT. continue my diet of mee sua and vermicelle.. wahahah!! sis getting married! cannot be lazy!

Until this point, i dun really have any other resolution then after church today i realise I've missed out the most important one.

Continue to walk closely with my Lord Jesus christ! Not get complacent, but to want to reach higher ground with him.. serving HIm more and become more like Christ!

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are
And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cause I know that You've called meI know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promiseI won't hide itI won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go to the ends of the earthTo the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will seeThat You are God
You are God.

Partying, holidays !

so fast! it's back to work! not that i have too much of rest anyway.. only the standard hols, but nontheless the atmostphere and mood is different lah =) Christ mas lah, new year's day lah wah i love december!

Christmas was quiet! Spend the whole day at the salon doing my hair.. i love the result though, must go back n thank the guy. Sat down, occupy myself all way, thick book, mp3 players, psp wahaha. 7 hrs siah piang..

New year's eve, was actually a bit upset why i don't ahve any thing planned, and how come nobody jio me wahahah.. getting emo and insecure manz... anyhow, jerry called to say he wanted to party and lo and behold Yasmin called to say she dunhave plans i figured they would click on fine nontheless. which is true, heng, else i damn akward. But it was fun, strong nice drinks they mix at Alley bar. ordered a couple of drinks then met zl for second round.. came back and was suprised to see a whle lot of ppl online wahah at 4 am! Too bad dint manage to grab someone to go out wahaha.