Emptiness only He can Fill

This Chinese New year is no different from other CNY celebrations. It's sill the same routine, same places, same people. There are times when i enjoyed it, enjoyed the fact that our traditions still keepus in contact with our extended family. there are horror stories on relatives from hell. But generally mine are fine, there are nice ones and there are sucky ones. But overall, the idea of keeping in contact, visiting one other, saying words of well wishes to one another, can be pretty heart warming if sincere.

Besides them, i've also played to the max, I went my friend's place and watch movie till late at night on the first day, continued whole night and morning of majong, went chionging the second night, pubbing on the third night but still it doesn't take away that overwhelming feeling of restlessness and enveloping claustrophobic emotions constricting my heart. The moment I'm free and my mind has time to roam, i busied myself with a full 3hour workout to occupy my mind.

But Oh Lord, You know these won't help nor does it soothe anything. I've yet to set my problems at Your feet. You have said You can lead me to greener pastures and take Yr yolk for Yours is lighter. Lord You have said Take heart You have over come the world and Your Joy is my Strength. Lord, You have said Be Strong for You are with me and let the Lord take the throne of my heart . but Lord, forgive me for I've heard but not listened. I listen but i did not obey. I let the things of the world cloud my heart, like the weeds that overwhelm the seeds and cant' grow. Lord at the end of the day, this emptiness of my heart, can only be filled by You. Nothing else can take this place nor soothe this emotions except You. Take me into yr presence Lord.