Resolutions!

Ahh.. it's that time of the year again.. Time for New year resolutions!

some people don't believe in NYR, but no matter whether you achieve them at all, it at least sets some direction for the new year ahead so at least you don't go through the year drifting around and regretting them at the end of the year...

http://www.melancholicjoy-mood.blogspot.com/search/label/New%20Year%20Resolutions

That was my resolutions set last year.. but looks like the only thing that I've achieved is my black belt.. which i was really ecstatic about. something good happened in 2010 which wasn't expected, so that was a sweet ending to 2010 =) in my previous blog which i listed down the list of blessings, at the end of 2010, i have tonnes to thank God for.

Now for the new year,
1) Do a bible study of 3 minor prophets or 2 major books.
2) have a more consistent prayer time, talk to Him more.
3) Putting in more effort for cell ministry
4) Get training or certified in PM
5) spend more time at home / spread out my appointments so i don't end up going out every day...
6) try to lose 3 kg & maintain my TKD (improve my full range)
7) build up r/s

Whew.. that will do, walk with God, personal life, ministry, work and sports.. =)

hope i can hit some of them =)=)

A^E

finlly..over.... happy to see ray and sylvia married.. good for both of them :) hope they enjoy nz for their honeymoon :)though damn shag for rest of us.. but its fun, this batch of bros are fun and nice.. but then.. if they are good friends of ray, i'm sure they are nice ppl

second time in 2 years i gotta check into A&E myself... thurs overwhelmed with chest pain.call my insurance agent to check on payout (my friend suan me say u aregoing A^E n the first person u call is regardng payout *faint* )but he send me to hospital instead..by then i was squirming in pain and rolling around n they push me immediately to critical care.. although i was feeling better after medicine,but since i high risk n family history so had to stay in thruout the day for further observations..doc duno stupid or funny when he see me hesistate he still say "don'tworry , lunch and dinner provided" i'm like liew, like it's the first thing i'm worrying about like that... but thankfully discharged with possibility of heart attack ruledout.this week gotta go to SHC to see the cardiologist for further follow up..

guess the pain is on nd off.. yesterday night eat the painkillers, today feelbetter.. so chiong gym. but i gotta take it easy, just in case.but i miss working out.. 2whole weeks siah... tak boleh tahan liao..

aiyo..today,somebody comment, wah your shoulder like wearing shoulder pads hor...*slaps forehead*.... though the person meant it as "compliment",dunno whether to laugh or cry.. hahahha

busy busy

can't wait for final week of
December to come.. 4th dec - xmas movie event
preparation
5th Dec - Sylvia's hen night
6th Dec - prep for mission trip
7th dec - company event
8th dec - Tkd training 9th Dec - cell group
10th dec- ? prep for mission trip
11 - 12th - Bintan trip
13th - Tkd training
14th - movie with sis?
15th - Company event 16th - cell group
17th - X mas celebration with
Denise n gang
18th - Ray n Sylvia wedding
19th - lunch with en en ?

OMG....

super off

Finally it's over. Dont need to keep thinking about the event Liao . Thank god for the many good things that had happened. But I got a feeling I screwed up, n I ended with a sinking feeling in my stomach.....n ended d night feeling I screwed big time in other areas...

or maybe it's really nt a good timing since i barely recovered from the drain of the event, and looking ahead in december, there absolutely is not much time for rest.....

Best weekend I have in a long time . :) :)

week

my keyboard sux.. so i'm also not inclined to do anything on my pc anything that requires me to type a lot.

whole week fly by.. finally go back tkd training.. although only free to go down on monday ... holiday was spent at home being a maid..

watch harry porter on friday, even i'm not a fan and have not watched a single HP show.. but company was good and the night was enjoyable =), so it was a good start to weekend. then it was tkd night event and dinner... then crashed marc's friend's birthday..got a chance to check out suite at ritz carlton.. maybe i should do something like dat too..

another week ahead.. think i'm falling sick..looking forward to my leave on dec2 and the compulsory christmas week leave. i need a break manz.. (but wat's new?)

=)

it was a good weekend last week... good one.. looking forward to the coming weekend =)

CAB driver

it feels so good to work out and push myself at the gym..w/o having to restrain myself.. easy to run since i'm watching Hulk and EMA on tv at the same time.. time flies like that...CANT WAIT TO GET BACK TO MY BAGS!

i love taking cabs..u find one of the most interesting folks there..some of cos are shitty.. but a huge majority are really nice to talk to. like this one today .. punjab pretty young for taxi driver.. 35.. but speaks fluent malay (his second language),speaks wonderful mandarin and hokkien. His hokkien is definitely better than mine.. very entertaining, funny and can really have TWO way conversation (notice some drivers are expert at carrying one way conversation :p),and he is a 2nd Dan tkd black belt.... hahahha....cool manz...this definitely left an impression.. plus he give 40 cents discount hoho.. possibly by entertaining him back.. hahah

it was a long weekend of church and family time. shiok that didn't do much, including gym(unfortunately-maybe that 's why monday blue so bad!)

super monday blue. poor philip gotta tahan me during lunch :p

thank god for the people that made me smile last week though..=)

It's an interesting month, it's a catching up of old friends. First it was with sakae mates whom we've not met for 6-8 years. Then with daliya which was a couple of yrs. Then with another bunch of hp colleagues which was at least 3 yrs.

and i've gained weight! Nov & till before christmas will be fight the fats month!! N i'll stop my pole cos it doesn't burn as much calories (though it's quite fun hanging upside down inside out horizontally vertically whatever like a monkey :p ) + it's impeding my tkd and PT training .. and i'm getting back to tracking food intake on myhealth.sg cos it's a bit out of control.. battle time! kacha!

Rwanda

news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/newsnight/8593734.stm

Cool! Rwanda has become the least corrupt country in east africa. In fact it's ranking has surpassed italy...!

Well e critics are always harping on lack in human rights but also kudos to Paul kagame for managing life after e genocide so well. Corruption decrease, prosperity and education improve. sure sure, there are reports of human rights abuse, exile and imprisonment without trial.. but i feel in a country with a past like that,you can view the way they run the country with a western country's perspective. well... if the west ignored them and refused help but just sit and watch while people are massacred in the genocide, why should they listen to them judge the way they run the country now?

I like one sentence mentioned , "There is no hutu, no tutsi, only Rwandan".

alamak..

alamak..before i got time to update on bali i haveKL trip..








eugene was really nice.. fetch us froM KL sentral to hotel.. and brought us arond whole day..and even though he was tired, he didn't say it and brought us to luna bar near KL towers till 1 plus am..cool..and daliya was sweet enough to come up still even though she is back to back with work.. and good that she brought fara cos i miss her too..i'll definitely be bck for longan drinkin petaling street and KLzouk haha ..and shopping with lingfang was cool.. she is a great shopper siah.

but gonna be busy liao.. got a list o fpending things for the christmas event.. things in tkd i've not touched... my pole class missed.. and i need to lose the weight i've gained..

can't spend liao next month.. should try to stop going YJ for whole of nov ... save some money and take a break from going watch JM and kreuger.

Piracy in Somalia

Yet another news in africa, this of cos is nothing new. The hijacking has been going on for a long time. & no matter how much naval ships e international community has sent in,they can nvr clamp down e piracy.

We all know some of e implications; insurance & petrol usage increase, shipping prices increase which get passed down e chain to shippers & consumers, less traffic to the area less $ etc etc

There are no sufficient reasons that could justify violence like this. Ignoring e perpetual piracy off indo -south china sea (which is at least manageable) & e situation in nigeria which is more political, here's an interesting insight for e somalia situation that's to me less commonly reported.

news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/8010061.stm

It's because of e lawlessness that piracy is so rampant in e area. However it's also because of this lawlessness that the international mega fishing community takes advantage of by fishing in excess in the area. With no proper control, e poor fishermen's livelihood are wrecked. Coupled that with the perpetual strife & wars between e militants n government forces makes life a worse state back on land.

bbc.co.uk/news/world-africa-11216325
With 230 people killed + bodies are pilng up in the back alley n lives risked just to get necessities, contrast that to being a local hero with cars and business by being a pirate, I would choose being one 2.

Mass Rape in Congo

angry.. when i read this article on bbc regarding the mass rapes that the army and militants are carrying out..

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/8677637.stm

this lady has her husband leaving her after she was raped because he said she is dirty.. and this is after she had made the sacrifice to be raped instead of her husband being killed.

the researcher says, the husbands can't deal with the fact that they can't protect their wives and they feel like failures, so the only way is to leave them and start over.

another soldier said: "I felt that if I didn't have sex then I would get sick" so what if they are living n the forest and they felt like that when they come out? does it give them the right to force upon the women then?

the soldiers felt it's their right to rape the women, the husbands felt the women have "dirtied" themselves.. who can stand up for these women then???

Thanksgiving =)

Thank God she got a placement in NIE, and for a pretty good school. Any earlier she might not have gathered enough experience. God’s timing is always perfect ^_^

I like what Pastor Lim shared in his email blast to the members..

[Satan tells you it is not worthwhile to do what you are doing for your family. The truth is God sees all your efforts. Be faithful, even if others are not responsive!....
Satan tells you that you are incompetent and inadequate. The truth is God can and will work through your weakness to perfect His will!
Satan tells you to give up. The truth is when Christ is Lord, we are more than conquerors….]

My mind is a battlefield all the time.. God says, continue to renew our mind in Him and place our hopes in Him. My sis reminded me that I already have a lot of blessings in Him, so it’s a good thing to remember His blessings for me then..

1. I have an awesome family. One of best parents in the world with awesome values and characters. Awesome sisters who are my sane voices and mind, buddies and best friends. And awesome brother in laws with great values in life and also dote on me.
2. I have a job and allows me to have more than sufficient
3. I relatively have colleagues that I can click with
4. I don’t have any major sickness and illness
5. I have friends in my life and friends who accept me for who I am and I know will be there for me if I ask them.
6. Church mates who are understanding and wonderful to me.
7. I’m given the opportunity to attain my black belt
8. I’m healthy enough to do Acropolates which I love now.
9. I have an honest and awesome gym trainer.
10. I’m happy with the way I look (well except the many inches I could lose, which well thank god for point 9 then )
11. I’m not in need and not in debt.
12. And most of all, I have Jesus with me and in me. Peace that only He can give if I remain in Him and Him in me. Apart from Him, I can do nothing and Thank God for His amazing grace and love that He loves me for who I am and no matter what I did right or wrong can make Him love me more or less.

Shall update my bali trip in another post.

Random week

Loads of random thoughts.

REMEMBER YOUR REDEEMeR.

Ppl are usually stuck in the past, like what ps meng cham is preaching abt today, whereas im more stuck in e hope that things will be better in e future + 2 caught up in e present. Im thankful for my past cos it has brought me to where I am, it's e future im worried abt. But e moment we worry too much, it's also a sign that we do not trust God enough, which is something He told me b4...

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Need to figure out a way to sort out my life. Maybe it's really too busy for my own good, but I love every single thing that im doing now, hobbies, work & ministry

Read on a train ad, "There is a calmness to life lived in gratitude, a quiet joy."
pretty true.. except that we are living in gratitude of what God has done for us..

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Going bali nxt week w rach & nicky . Shld be fun:) then kl with lingfang. With eugene & daliya showing us around.

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the topic of buying a car cropped up again after my BIL bought one, or rather replaced his current one which survives on water not petrol :p hahhah.. keep scouting at sgcarmart.com, calculating my budget and all.. and really on the verge of going down.. but contemplated for a while, I'm enjoying the spare cash and doing and buying whatever I want and need, which wont' be the case if i buy a car.. so decided to scrap the idea.. I have better things to do with it :)

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Some time ago.. our family mid autumn fesitval celebration =)



Sheri's malay wedding is fantastic .. and great time with Fiza, hooi li and jackie :)

Had a great catch up with haz also, yeah girl.. let's go for a cruise trip manz :) and probably NZ =)

when things don't turn out as you would want

Something that our pastor shared in our church email blast.. i need to do these

When things don’t turn out as you would want:
First, place yourself in His hands. His hands are big enough to hold you, embrace you, and give peace to your soul.

Second, let Scripture speak to you. God’s Words and promises will build and strengthen you. Let him give you a rhema word (a personal word) of comfort, of assurance, of love, of forgiveness, and of hope.

Third, let this process develop your soul. One of my favorite hymns is, “It is well with my soul.” The writer saw a ship sink which had on board his wife and children. Through the grief and turmoil, he met God anew. Corrie Ten Boom, who risked her life saving Jews from the Nazis, and thus landed in a Nazi concentration camp, said, “There is no pit so deep, that His love is not deeper still.”

Fourth, don’t focus on what “others may think.” It is important for you to come into the presence of God and hear His words of love and strength and forgiveness.

Fifth, count your blessings. This is a key weapon of spiritual warfare. Name those blessings one by one. It will surprise you what God has done.

Sixth, get adequate rest, eat properly, and exercise to work off the stress. Remember, you are a total person, body, soul and spirit.

Seventh, find someone you can get wise counsel from. We are not meant to bear our burdens alone. Let your Grace group pray with you.

Eighth, declare God’s will shall be done! That is your faith statement. You may not know how, but God will even make the evil that men do to praise him!

birthday weekend!

it's a blast!! thanks to all my friends who have sent me birthday wished on FB and sms. you know i appreciate each and everyone who does that so i'll try to reply every single one of them :)

thanks to my family (who are the best family, parents and best sisters and bro-inlaws anyone could ever ever have in this world! my greatest blessing is to have them as my family and my best friends. And even though i might not behave like it, but i would give up everything else just to have this family again)thanks to my BIL who cook the chicken and bought the cake for me.



Thanks to aijia for her gift and the place she suggested. my friend for 13 years (and the culprit who got me started on JM ;p ) and we try to celebrate eveyr year :) she had a wonderful gift for me which i love a lot.. :)



Thanks also guys for the lunch :)

Thanks grace for the gift and the tiramisu cake which you baked!! :)

Thannks to those who went down to YJ for my party also.. Edmin, malik and cherri, you guys are fantastic manz.. risk getting grounded by all your partners :p thnks edmin and cherri for the bag. malik for the cake and the drinks .. thanks to whitney , shipra (for your gift too) and hans for making it down.. also to dieter and teresa.. also to of cos my sis and aijia! :) and of cos ivan who made a suprise drop by =) you guys made that night a blast for me =)












and of cos the icing on the cake (thanks to malik who dragged me up to stage) me able to dance with JM. (hopefully not to his unwilingness since i'm already on stage :p hahaha but sweet enough to nontheless accomodate me :p )

although there was another lady up on stage with me cos it's her birthday also..


thanks to hans and the rest who are like paparazi hehehe (and edmin who took a video of the entire song but too embarssing for me to post :p) as unreal as it is, it's a damn nice shot that i wanna indulge in for a short while hahah (thanks john for accomodating me! haha)

My pole class

I have no idea how the weeks pass by.. 2 weeks fly by just like that..

Training, pole prac and class, cell, church event, church retreat.. no time to breathe..

Love my pole classes manz.. before i know it.. this sat is the last class of level 1 already.. and there's a 1 min show case.. so exciting.. it's been a fun journey.. i can't stop thinking abt my pole lessons.. but i seem to have a knack for picking up hobbies that can give injuries here and there.. kena 2 blue black on my knees.. but at least it's just blue black.. i've got worse.. but i'm definitely going on to level 2... so much fun techniques to learn now it's just the basics!



My sis says, first i pick up something to behave like a man, then i pick up something to behave like a woman.. that's what i am, oxymoron and confused..

Finally have my gym sessions.. i m going throttle Arik if he flies my kite again this sat..

And yes.. sat.. celebrating my birthday at YJ.. would love all my friends to be there.. but the place a bit small.. and i'm not sure how ppl can interact with one another.. so mainly colleagues.. and with aijia.. if john is not there i'm going to ham tam myself manz..

know in cell today Alvin propose to amanda.. so happy for them :) always feel damn shiok to hear a long time couple tie the knots.. Congrats amanda! lucky Alvin!! Hope they get a flat soon :)

Possibly need to blog more about work related stuff.. should be interesting to dig more about =)

swollen hand

think can't see.. wth.. punch the bag and got the hand rly swollen and blue black.. this is what happen when you happen to be thinking about someone that pisses you off as you vent on the bags and not concentrating on yr techniques..

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Realise i'm such a creature of habit.. i use the same body foam for last 11 years.. would only buy 1 type of tibit, eat the same bao from the same stall before training (until the guy say for me "一个叉烧包对吗?"), drink the same drink from the same stall (the guy also say for me "milo 冷的，加珍珠? ") and follow the same band for the last 10 years..

no wonder my sisters say i'm like an open book..

weekend..

thoroughly enjoyed pastor rick howard's session on friday.. i was v sleepy and i pushed 2 dinners appointment to listen to him teach on book of Haggai and it was definitely worth it..

What was yr priority in life? and you could be toiling for Him but it will still be for naught.. You focus on the wrong things in life and there are issues in your life that you haven't iron out with God and whatever you brought home to Him, He might blow it away.. What is the one area in your life that God will say " you might have done a lot of wonderful things.. but that one area..."

Anyway on a separate nota .already did wat i can. put forth e qn. put no expectations.. if it actually does happen.. it's a bonus...

Thanks to Arik for his effort.. running around to help me with my pc.. it's the thought and effort that counts.. patient enough to i think spend 1 hour just to let me make up my mind about the casing.. can't wait for it.. =)

Candida...

I never knew I could and would miss someone so much.. even though 2 years would fly by.. but I still can't help it.

Without realising it, it's been 10 years at least.. you have always been my sane voice.. the one that is objective and shook me back away when my emotional state went heywire.. the one that always dare to say what needs to be said, even if it might not be the nicest to hear sometimes.

You touch ppl's lives and made an impact on others without you realising it. You always say it's hard for you to socialise and that you are quite an introvert.. but you, most often than not, are our life and soul of the party. Your feminist movement, your love for environment, animals (esp sharks and cats) definitely let us think about you everytime we see a shark or a cat.

You never try to do what's popular, but you try to do what's right. Most often than not, you follow what the Spirit leads you to say and do and the passion that arises really influences ppl to follow likewise.

2 years I'm sure will pass soon if we busy ourselves in our lives. My friend, don't stop walking with the Lord, even as i try to let Him handle my insanity, Look to Him often, for He is our Sovereign Lord, our Friend, Abba Father and all that will ever Be.

We'll definitely be praying for you here..

it's time.

okay.. time to move on manz...

Kelvin Soh / Suzanne and Weekend

Psalms 27:4-6 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. 5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. 6 Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD.”

Stir it up in our hearts lord, a passion for Your Name.

I should dedicate my prayer and devotional this week to just praising God.. and for once stop talking about my issues and how I feel.. or maybe because I’ve been living my weeks too much for myself and a motivation that I have. Lord, let me seek Your face daily and gaze at Your beauty...

park here a good devotional to remind myself of: http://www.crosswalk.com/devotionals/daily%20disciples%20devotional/11580402/


Good to hear new testimonies from Kelvin Soh and his wife Suzanna... God bless them in their work that they can reach out to the non Christians easily with his music that bridge the gap easily. It's not easy to share that you have owed so much and that you have dabbled in mediums etc to a general public.. but it's a good testimony which kelvin soh has very nicely supported his wife with his side of the story in her whole issue.. He was sharing about how they met and got together too.. one funny part.. he went " there is a very important thing i want you all to listen to.. *pause for effect* that is if you follow God, suitors will follow you" *faint* ..anyway it kinda brings to a reminder the stark contrast what I’m doing (or not doing ) to share the good news?

Pole class was kinda painful esp when i knock my knee and was balancing with like one arm... I miss going for tkd classes in the weekdays :( can’t wait for week of 23rd to come when I resume training. And Arik on reservist so no PT in the weekend also... *groan*

But otherwise, Great weekend! Finally caught up with Nicky and Rach. Bali here we come, Rachel!

Lady Antebellum - Need you now

this song is really stuck in my head since sat night/sun morning..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4


Need You Now Lyrics

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Assembled PC

Even though it has not even been bought.. but I'm already excited about my new PC.. okay I'm not getting laptop liao.. getting PC.. My PT has kindly helped me assemble. He really helpful to his clients siah.. his other client need to rent a room he also went down with him to fix agent, another client hangover he went his house pull him up.. alamak.. really one kind. no wonder his life always so busy hahaha.. but thankfully he is there.. he worm in and out of the sim lim confusing maze of IT shops i also blur.. i only know i go pick the casing i like, the rest its up to him :p but finally I can play GTA and NFS on my pc liao! YEAH!

Fish n Co

today is fun.. my sentiments echo yvonne's.. we hardly meet up after cell.. but it's a good time.. we talk very long.. amazing women can occupy their time with just their mouth.. (hmm sounds a bit wrong) .. anyway.. it was really fun and great with her..time really flies and the live band there was pretty good.. end up her(well ours) conclusion.. band start early (like 7:30pm), no need drink alcohol and not too loud (they are an acoustic band) .. and the voice not bad, additional point for me is near my office.... think the band name is occular.. funny i never knew fish & co got live band.. omg.. so many birthday parties.. like 8 of them, and it's not even weekend lor.. alamak.. anyway. Yvonne give me a good idea.. since my mindkeep drifting when i pray, maybe i should pray out loud.. good since I sleep alone nowadays..

Resting from Tkd next two weeks.. party to heal my leg partly to spend more time at home.. last month has been busy training for most of my weekdays and weekends are spent celebrating at Y.J.. pausing for 2 weeks to stay at home during weekdays more..

Self Discipline and Meaning of Black Belt to me

Todya's cell.. go back and think about something that you need help to maintain the discipline in.. Mine has got to be self control of the mind.. not to let me be in control.. but God to be in Control.. if i'm in control , i'll be dead.. like jade's analogy that i always remember.. who is driving the car of your life and mind? or is God in the back seat?

Took an extract of my essay on what black belt meant to me.. it's an essay that by right we have to hand in to my instructor but I never got round.. think to be fair to those who are not in the quest.. it's hard to appreciate and understand the journey.. and I should and have been thankful for those in class who train and sweat with me.. for my close friends and family who see me put in the hours, sacrifice the time with them, and understand and give me space...

".... On a personal level, it brings to mind the hours of training that is being put in. It brings to mind the effort sacrificed in coming for training and the other constant reason that I have to give in missing up appointments with friends and loved ones. It brings to mind all the bafflement that is shown by the people around me why one is willing to spend so much money and effort in getting myself injured and “beaten up” in class.
It’s about showing that you had gone all out for the passion, to preserve in reaching the first milestone of this passion, knowing that it does not come to pass from just an ad-hoc training.

Attaining the black belt also definitely does not mean that I’ve developed to be one of the best fighter or martial artist around. On the contrary, it meant discovering myself and my abilities and developing the best of them. Different people have different abilities and talents. For me, it signifies a journey of self discovery and developing a unique passion in a way that matches my own pace and ability. There are those who would want to hurry along their pace of training in order to attain the black belt in the fastest time, but there are those who want to develop slowly so that they can really experience and go ahead when they are fully ready. For myself, the discovery of myself via the black belt is also really about knowing myself and focusing on what is best for me.

.....The black belt in Taekwondo meant that childhood dreams can be fulfilled. It gives one the self confidence in life because of the assurance that I can actually fulfill the goals that I had set out for myself.

As the saying goes, attaining a black belt does not mean the end of the journey; on the contrary, it just meant that the journey has just started. And my fun has just started. "

Black belt baby!

Finally ! Today is e last morn! 4 days in a row I ve 8am meeting, & doesn't mean my day can end early. Still go off 7 or 6 plus & I still reach home 11plus. Reason? so we can b productive & continue working from 10 onwards. Wrong. I am struggling so hard not to die e rest of day & I can't concentrate at all I think I wasted e rest of day. Ok enough complaining.*breathe* or maybe *Sleep*

I love my new black belt uniform. =) I might take some pictures and post it here soon..

Should plan a Bali trip with Rachel  should be fun.. heheh.. Want to get a laptop also.. my current pc sux siah... So wanna go for Slash (happen to like coheed and Cambria) / SingFest Day 3.. lazy / difficult to jio ppl to go watch rock concert siah... sat like run ge-tai again... morning PT, afternoon my pole class, then go back put down gym stuff wash up then 6:30 got company event fireworks, then leave earlier for cell Jul/Aug Birthday cum farewell cum Yvonne house warming cum cell update at yvonne’s place.. then after that join colleagues at Y.J.

Keep thinking about the old lady that’s beside grandma in hospital. 90 year ex-Ma Jie.. she’s a history legend on her own manz. If only we could talk to her and ask her about her life... Grandma’s visit quota of 4 ppl keep getting full (which is good!) but she only has 1 person visiting her and obviously the visitor couldn’t come all the time.. so my aunt was asking permission her quota to come up visit grandma. I wonder how it feels to reach the end of your life, single with no other relatives and family alone in the hospital bed... watching your neighbour has so many visitors...

Thank God Benson took up role of ACL =) =D I know God will do a lot through him and he definitely has the heart to serve God...=) -) nowadays thinking again whether I’ actually am fit to be cell leader after a conversation on Monday.

1 Peter

1 Peter 1: 13,15-16: Therefore , prepare your minds for action; be self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. Bust just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written "be holy becuase i am holy"

1Peter 4: 7 : The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self controlled so that you can pray.

1Peter 5: 8 : Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith..."

week...

where did the last 10 days fly to? I'm not sure. My days seems extra long and my nights seems to fly by super fast.

it was twilight with aijia, jiashi and ah mei on sun. we watched Eclipse and New moon on dvd together, so it's good to continue =) unfortunately it was sun so everyone had to rush home soon after.. Weekdays was busy training .. so most of weekdays are at tkd. which makes my night zoom by.. then it was looking forward to weekends at Y.J which last fri went with sheri and her mum.. damn funny and happening siah her mom, lurve hanging out with her :) act she got a strong voice when she sings :) Sat went with pong till the third set. even better night then the last time i went with her. Crowd was amazing, J.M was amazing, great and friendly and even had fun with a gp of decent strangers behind me. Sun went with pong to FF and she signed up with me. so had kakhi now on sundays.

Crazy and fantastic weekend which i'm still reeling from, unfortunately it was marred by someone who sent me something negative. *breathe*

Grading this friday. it's the last 100meters of the marathon.. jia you! *breathe* *Breathe* *breathe*..

and yes!! i passed my STF GRADING!!! +D =D =D =D =D !!!

taekwondo, JM, Cell.

life sometimes is like yr hair, before you noe it, it has crept up on you. (lame! but true!)

in last week's cell lesson, e pastor speaking tru e instructional video mentioned that one should not have a spirit of entitlement.. that you feel that actually you deserve quite a few things in life .. but problem comes when actually you don't actually get it.. like for example, you feel you deserve a better boss, work enviroment, affection from friends, that pay rise, or that good service in the restaurant..then naturally we'll get upset when we don't get it.. We'll definitely be happier in life if we don't come to expect anything or feel we should deserve something and thank God for whatever that He has blessed us with..I say that's spot on manz...I guess i should have carried this mentality.. then probably I won't have felt so down then..


I can't believe I didn't touch my computer AT ALL the entire weekend from Friday night onwards!! what a record for me.. oh welll doubt i have time.. Friday was at training and YJ, then early sat morning i had PT, went visit ah ma with iris, eunice and peter (very far!) and then met benson and jade at CQ for dinner and drinks at YJ again.

P.T was shiok.. but i was late for like almost half an hour :( so bad siah.. He say my training has reached a plateau and body getting used to my tkd training, so that's why I can't lose any more wt easily, sugggested I wake up and run before i go to work..that's like asking for the moon =( he asked me to do 100 situps every day , i have done it. but ask me to wake up early..tak boleh lah :p

i can't wait for 23rd to come that's when i'm done for grading.. I'm so lethargic recently i can't get my interest up to go for training.. i also dunno why..

Fantastic sat.

Had a fantastic sat manz..!!

Finally done with my Grading.. not sure if i pass.. but i felt i should be able to since i didnt make any major mistakes.. =) see how ah.. but it felt darn gd to be done with it and feel that you are inching closer to your goal... then waited a surpisingly few minutes for my bus with eunice (which is a miracle for me) then germany won 4-0.. and of cos the highlight of it all is i finally manage to catch J M

things i (still).dont understand:

things i (still).dont understand:

don't understand why i shld bother to answer "i'm fine" to someone's "how r u " greeting when i noe they r nt expecting otherwise

don't understand what some girls r trying to show when they wear low cut but when i look down, all i see are e number of bones on their ribs*roll eyes*

don't understand why people r willing to be squashed up for 30 mins at the mrt door just so they can get out easily for 3 secs.

don't understand why people r so scared to look at a couple pda-ing when they r not afraid of pp looking @ them.

thanks 2 my colleague, e opera browser i loaded makes surfing on my mobile so much nicer.

sigh. 2 days of normal training is enough to kill my leg. 3 more days to stf, 23 to internal grading. 31 to my new class. 1 more to twilight. (yeah yeah i know i noe it's a teen drama. but it's nice yea?:> )

July 3rd

July 3rd!!! *Sweat* *Sweat*

Train hard.. take a break.. and aim for December..

*Panic*

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signed up for my new hobby liao.. so exciting!! i feel as excited as i did when i first sign up for tkd! damn expsv though 8 lessons for 200.. need to pause when my PT sessions finish.. so i can continue with Arik. anyway. July 31st.. yippie!

battlefield..

one of the points that ps zane talked about is guarding your mind..analogy is you gotta stand at the front of your mind with an AK47 and shoot down anything incoming thoughts that are hostile..

it's not even 1 week from the retreat and there already is a battlefield warzone within my mind.. in the devo this week as i read nehemiah the author says... we are fighting against the forces of the darkness... put on your armour and arm yourself with the sword of the word...

meanwhile.. i feel like detaching myself from my mind...

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One of my fave C & H issue..

Tkd, Retreat, Cruise

It's been a long time.. so many things.. anyway i write as my thoughts flow.. :p not in any chronological order..
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picked up book of John today to read again and was the one on Jesus converting water to wine.. it's amaazing God can still show me something on a familar passage.. It was the first miracle.. but by then Jesus's mum had already the confidence to tell the servants to go ahead and do whateve Jesus said.. so b4 He reveal himself or do any miracles, the way He lived his life already made ppl have confidence and see the truth in Him.. and the host after that said, you saved the best wine for the last.. sometimes, you can be in a situation that puts u in a panicky mode.. and u don't understand the ways that Christ had led u to do.. but know in faith that at the end of it all.. Christ saved the best for us as long as we do it His way...
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Retreat 7th June to 11th June:

Just came back for church camp in msia.. good thing about being near is when u are dead tired.. u reach home early instead of near midnight.. I told God i wanted to take this time to rest.. recharge and make it a turning point .. and He did answer.. God spoke thorugh pastor zan and he said the exact stuff in his first night sermon the stuff i prayed and told God about.. that night is the most memorable.. it was any specific words excact the common verse come to me all those who are weary and burden.. Matt 11;28.. but knowing God touched you and heard u is memorable.. specific issues like feeling of rejection.. All in all.. he touched on our past: our past rejections.. our Present: Resting in God, Faith in God (and something else i cna't remmeber) and the Future: our to activate the power within us that the Holy Spirit had given us.. every retreat there's a punch line.. last year it was growing the pearl within us.. this year.. definitely has to be activating the power within us..
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23rd june! My free trial for the new hobby i'm picking up.. see how it goes maybe i'll take up the beginner class..=)

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spent 3 hours on sat and sun each in the gym.. need to lose back the weight i had gained, but it was fun my alone time :) continued my PT session... great the shoes i had invested heavily on helps and i can do more with Arik and it doesn't hurt as much. really kind of him to extend beyond the official time... all the best for his dragon boat competition in sabah this weekend. meanwhile.. i've been a good girl doing 100 situps a day like what he asked me to.

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TKd Training today..

Crashed one traditional form today. and Mr rivas double confirmed for me to go july grading.. so i shall work hard for the next 2 weeks.. oh no my sparring =( but anyway, went for full range today.. it was fun!! i still cannot make it ! but i learn a lot.. we did some grappling and stuff... but second half we tried full range.. where u can kick , punch anywhere, grab, trounce anything rules.. my partner today was this youth (who happen to be in the competition team *sweat* *sweat*) and she is quick and fast.. me being the stupid and slow one sure cannot make it.. but she is really nice and cool, really enjoyed my moments sparring her =) but when she pounced me on the ground i hit the back of my head, it hurts still though :p *prays hard nothing happen*

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Review with my boss's boss today..reminded me of what professional goals i need to set.. really time i check out that PM certification course and need to set aside time to build up my knowledge on other aspects like balanced scorecard.. other BPM technology, Process and EA.. it's an exciting field and i really need to find time to read up..

what else.. yah!!

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Cruise! It was LiTMUS day on tuesday.. had a overall strategy session with the company management.. and after that was a cruise on a yacht .. rly cool! i enjoyed myself.. *ooh and of cos the "Free flow alcohol" hehehe* some pics..

Break..

packed back to back the whole day... got my training early morn 8 plus am.. then need to rush to retrieve my medical report.. thankfully my trainer kindly gave me a lift down... else i think i'll be late for the wedding..

I'm so tired.. i need a break... break from cell .. break from work.. break from everything.. God I need the break in the retreat.. let me set aside all things and seek rest in you this week at the retreat.. I need guidance and directions God, i need Your Spirit and Your strength..

For now.. I've decided to take a break from cell, break from everything, step down from CL for a while.. and let Arthur hold the fort for a while..

this and that

think i m getting used to having my own room.. can't get over that liberty and control that i have though =) bought a new LCD tv (which is paid by my BIL first) for the spare room, going to go shopping for curtains this sat also..

love my nail colour which i did for my sis's wedding..

Tired and disappointed.

Completed... my room-mate married..

finally it's completed! frankly, i think we still haven't fully digest the fact that iris has gotten married and has moved out.. the day that we've been planning and getting stressed on was over and it felt so surreal.. well.. partly also she still has tonnes of things at our home.. ha.. this week will be the week we will all try to adjust..

lost yet another room mate.. no one to yak to after work.. feels abit wierd .. anyway.. gotta try and adjust.. and on the up side. i can start to plan to decorate my room.. and expand my cupboard territory..

All the best for both my sister's marriage..

Faith and Grading

God told sarah that she ll be pregnant & she laughed..she didn t believe God 4 e impossible . Frankly if I were her, I would think e same way. In fact I might tell God r u kidding me? ..this story was spoken to me twice last week. & it dawned on me dat I AM like sarah. I did lack faith in God in a lot of things & God is telling me to trust him in them.

In an analogy given in e book Run with Horses, a person was dining with a close friend & attention was mainly one another except e waiter whom ey would converse with to place their orders. In an ideal scenario, God shld be e one whom we are engaging most often with. However most often than not, e close friend is actually ourselves & God is simply e waiter with whom we talk to now & then to give orders thank him abit or even remember his name. Who actually is in e driving seat of our car?

I need to trust God more in what he can do & stop treating Him as e waiter of my life. Start talking to him more than simply about him.

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on a side note... helping my sister's wedding this week.. trying to squeeze time in to train more esp since Mr rivas drop a bombshell say ask me try for july grading period... Will try my best to make it these two weeks or so..

Health Check

i realised... i don't have much pictures in my blog.. maybe i really should take more pictures hor.. but then.. alot of pics i have are those that my frens tag me on FB de.. which if ppl who are reading this have my FB, then no point right? but anyway what the heck right, my blog mah haha.. but these 2 shots are reawlly nice.. they are my fave.. taken at jade's wedding..




went for health screening. spent 3 and half hours there siah.. waste time.. sitting there from 7 to 1030 siah.. woke up at 5.. felt the day has gone by beforei even reach office...

Before anyone continue, make sure you've finished whatever food that you happen to be eating... :p :p :p LOL

Now, what's worse than doing a secretion examination? Doing a secretion examination on someone who just had diahorrea.. :p

Anyway. one of the things to check was a pelvic ultrasound.. which requires your damn bladder to be full.. So i happily drank like 10 cups of water at one shot.. waiting for it to reach the bladder.. then.... diaster strike.. stomachache.. so i have let evryeone out and back to square one.. sian!!

then gotta drink another 10 cups of water.. but still not full enough.. so i gotta sit outside the room... and .. waiiiitttttt.. wait for the magic feeling to come way down there..1 freaking hour siah.. bigest waste of time.. although heading to work is not the best exciting altnerative.... but still .. oh well..

finally resuming my personal training this sat.. gosh. it's been 1 month since i saw Arik.. damn! see if i can go back training next week.. yeah! resuming my exercise! with or without the pain!

weekend...

Did something i've not done in years.... swimming.. come to think of it, i've done lasik for ayear and i've not swam since then.. damn.. time flies! and i've not gone since i taken up tkd...wanted to get used to deep pool..but still scared of water.. the way i was holding to the wall had the lifeguards staring at me most of the time.. oh well. guess that's better right, knowing someone is looking out for me hehe

yvonne's wedding over! can't believe yvonne is now mrs tan.. she still so youngish and chirpy and childlike hehee.. she really pretty pretty that day.. and figure v good actually! hehhe.. benjamin was sweating furiously the whole day siah.. and kudos to him..! he played and sang .. not an easy feat!!! *applause* *applause* .. and i love the live jazz band at the dinner.. even though en en tot it was cd even after 2 hours into the dinner *faint* hahahha

was tiring.. but still fun.. =)

It's over!

Yeah!! finally grading is over!!! UP next! Black belt grading! damn there's going to be intensive training, it'll be nerve wrecking but yet tantalising and so full of excitement and anticipation!

Let my legs heal in time pls!

Things i don’t understand....

Things i don’t understand....
Why do ppl spend hundreds and thousands of dollars on an expensive bag when it doesn’t even have the basic function of a zip to give security to your belongings inside? It’s like building a nice fanciful bungalow in the heart of orchard road and not building a door for it....

Saw a man who’s derailed and off in his mind, shouting to no one in particular vulgarities and a chunk of incomprehensible sentences in Hokkien.. No doubt he had attracted a lot of curious stares... but as i look at him, I’m wondering what did he go through in life that he had become emotionally unstable and unable to let go all his burdens.. As I look at him.. I felt really sad for him...

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Punch the bags till my hand bleed.. but enjoy the adrenaline..

Tom grading!! Focus!! focus on grading this weekend! no time on anything else now, work is already distracting enough to say the least.. It'll be a good weekend.. mother's day weekend (even though not doing much), sauna, some workout, then celebrate friend birthday and meet some friends from overseas..

no exercise!

I'm getting very frustrated & repressed. so pent up abt e fact I can t work out much, I can only settle for boring crunch & ball-works.

I so wanna practise my 360, jumping & spinning kicks! I wanna be able to kick e target & bag so hard I bleed. I miss getting pushed to e ultimate limit by mr rivas in class! I wanna practise my sparring & do watever I wan! miss that adrenaline & feelgd thing.

I so miss working out 3 , 4 hrs non stop , miss pushing myself & sweating it all out..miss having my PT sessions, miss spending hours @ e gym. miss attending all the classes...

sigh. for now I can t sit,stand or walk too long w/0 feeling painful . :( :( :(

Lessons on Faith and from "Enchanted"

"it's not enough to just believe that God exists!" " You got to believe also in God's attributes that come along with it!" these are the words that were booming off pastor richard today at the sermon.. Which is right also, we believe He exists, but sometimes we don't believe enough of his power and ability, that's why we get upset for so long, we panic and we worry.. though that's human tendency to do just those, but to do it for extended period of time speaks of lack of faith on our part.

Ps Richard's simple explanation of heaven: "You don't believe in GOd thats why you dont believe in Heaven. I believe in God, and God must live somewhere right??" He said them in raised tones and raised eye brow, as though saying "Duh! It's so simple, didnt you get that b4?"

I believe God placed me here for a reason,and i know He loves me enough to hear my prayers and want the best for me.. just pray that if he wants me to be where i am, give me the strength and patience to tolerate and take whatever the situation is now..

And i shall now complain anymore about the issue i've been complaining about to the ppl around me, cos i know God has heard me, and is in control..

was watching Enchanted starring Patrick Dempsey and James Marsden on Channel 5 @ Pong's place. Though it's a brainless entertaining show about how this princess drop from fairy tale to modern world with his "Prince Charming" after her and realised that her price charming is not the True love but the modern world guy..

But admist this brainless show i have a takehome. 1) Sometimes r/s and love are better kept easy and less complicated. 2) The fairy tale characters have a damn good character we can learn from.. they don't really know negative emotions like angry and they move on with life with optimisim and cheer..

Guess that's a really good philosophy of life to pick up from..

Retreat

So lookig forward to june retreat..

Month of may!

Just came back from bintan trip, pretty good trip... good to see familiar faces and be able to minister to them...or at least let them know that we are not hit and run... It was a village and there are no street lights, so the sky are littered with stars..beautiful on its own already.. so happen there’s a blackout in the area. So the whole street was absolute darkness... i looked out from the house and wonder why it’s still bright outside... i went out and looked up.. it was actually the moon.. amazing how bright and beautiful the moon actually is, and it’s not even full moon... Too much of city lights have overcome its beauty...Like our body and soul, too much of artificial beauty can sometimes ruin the original beauty that God had created in us...

Anyway.. busy again(oh well.. what’s new, so folks, a little patience while i let it out).. Grandma in hospital with virus infection which is dangerous considering her heart is already only half the usual rate.. low blood pressure and weaklegs.. i hope it won’t be as serious as Ps David yeo’s... . And my g.ma is stubborn enough not to want a maid . My sis has very generously said she can stay with her at the new home, but was flatly rejected anyhow.. and i doubt she want to live with us

Training today and preparing for tom’s lesson, sub-ing Raymond tom.. fri drinks session (yeah!) sat noon meeting joy (which we’ve been trying to fix for ages), sat night is our church 60th anniversary at suntec (another yeah!), then watch iron man with cell mates possibly (*another yeah!*) sun church and then cell birthday lunch (after much hooha finally finalised *whew*)

Then there’s grading next weekend... i’ve paused my PT sessions liao told my trainer i need to retain whatever leg i have for my grading... so next week would mainly be trying to gear up for grading.. Sat is Yvonne’s hen night! (triple yeah! ) we still have a quarter whisky left. =) I’m still deciding whether to go aaron kwok’s concert....

Anyway, pausing tkd training after grading (to save $ to fix my leg + take a break before training for black belt (YEAHHH!!) Watching IP Man with Denise and gang (yeah!) and meeting LF and hp gang in may also.. (another yeah!) =) also meeting Pastor scott for catch up also.. and not forgetting the YAYP event in end may...

Ah.. and in the midst of all these..... top of priority for May, FINALISE AND HELP MY SIS’S WEDDING!

As much as may is exciting.. I’m looking fwd to retreat in June to take a break=( =)

New hairdo

Taking a break and taking my new hair style.:)

Frenz and Leg

On the way up from my lowest point. so although not fully up there yet, but still lots to thank God for nontheless. really need to run on God's spirit and strenght. God conforted me, so that i can in turn comfort others. thing is, time is very limited for me. i Like socialisng, making new friends. Thing is, making new friends are reaaallly easy, but maintaining a friendship is not. takes time, which i might not have..i would love to care so much for a lot of my friends both from church and out of church... but really limited of me and my time to get around..sorry my friends for those whom i have neglected..and at the current moment..i think i already neglected my family.. need to take more effort to keep connected to the family cos sisters are moving out/ have moved out.. not like b4, keepingin touch is really easy...so when u need to put extra priority on family in time to come, something / someone has got to be sacrificed...

As for myself, i've learnt to rely on God only for confort.. cos truth is, if u expect someone to be there for you, most likely u will be disappointed..even if you are married or attached, if u have to keep relying on yr partner, sooner or later, you'll wear the person out..

anyway, finally get round doing something about my heal injury...cos think i aggravated it during gym training.. can barely walk on saturday... plus old toe injury now my leg looks like that..

Twilight marathon

Had a great time at aijia s place on sat:) nt much into proclaiming stuff on fb. But girls, you guys were great.

Suprisingly I enjoyed Twilight (after our Twilight marathon :) )although New Moon was like huh? Wth? I can C why girls went crazy over robert pattison, although I find bella s dad attractive. Thing is I think stephanie meyers created 2 really great character in bella & edward cullen & I like r.pat s protrayal of edward.

Edward's fascination of bella is very classically egoistic. Save for e fragrance in e blood, she intrigued him cos he couldn t read her mind? & she looked really fragile that he feels protective of her? That is so egoistic act & it s e classic theory that people r always more fascinated with folks who seems mysterious & hard to grasp & e need to protect & pull out yr manliness to protect e weaker female sex. Urgh.

Anyway having said that, lll still look out for eclipse. :

On a side note, it's been so long since i eat a lot of really 'unhealthy" stuff like pizza.. the 2 slice of pizza with wings and chips as nice as it was, turned my stomach inside out.. skipped dinner, breakfast and lunch after that.. :P

qing ming

its qing ming morning. just so happen im on leave on this easter mon. so just accompany mum to go cemetery to pay respects.

I ve always found e columbarium & cemetery area very peaceful & beautiful. it's one of e area where you still see a lot of greenery & flat land everywhere.
your pace of walking slows down &-puts you in a pensive mowd.

even e building at e columbarium are named after flowers like Eugenia, Dafodil, peony. the thing though about the columbarium.. sometimes in the same slot, besides the deceased, there's an empty slot for the partner, i find it very sadistic, as though it beckoning to the living spouse to come join them soon..

going to cemetery also puts you to think about yr funeral . if I were still healthy when I die, I would donate all organs out to e living & donate e remaining for science research or whatever. I believe e living need it more than e ground that i'm to be buried in. my funeral wake should also be 2 days only. whoever wanna come would have come . anything longer would be 2 expensive & tiring on e living.. And the songs... no more soppy super sad ones.. it should be joyous rock songs or christian praise music, cos i'm going to see Jesus and my grandma =) it'll a time of celebrartion for me..


Anyway enough of this topic.. very popular and nice 唐诗(Tang Poems) to wrap things up..

<清明 > 杜 牧

清明时节雨纷纷，
路上行人欲断魂。
借问酒家何处有，
牧童遥指杏花村

Translation:
It drizzles endless during the rainy season on Mourning day
Travelers along the road look gloomy and miserable.
When I ask a shepherd boy where I can find a tavern,
He points at a distant hamlet nestling amidst apricot blossoms.

this and that

die, cant seem to stop eating these few days. might just gain back the weight i lost at FF. My trainer is so going to screw me. oh yah. i'm just banned from alcohol siah...

boo hoo.. ricky martin is gay , thankfully there's still enrique

beginning andn picking up devo time again. and God reminded to pray sometimes in the weirdest moment.anyhow.. TRust in HIm with ALL your HEart, and lean not on your understanding....

another shocking news, ris low join 987 as a radio dj siah. OMG! what is georgina thinking of? .just because she brings with her e controversy? people might tune in initially out of curiosity , but she is definitely painful to listen to. she 1) boring 2) not witty nor funny 3> she can't continue any conversation that e dj starts 4> and obvionsly, her command of language. what values is the 987 trying to inculcate especially since e main bulk of 987's listeners are youth & there already is a rising debate about e poor command of english amongst e youth.

bad choice even for a publicity stunt.

mobile broadband

enjoyed my new mobile broadband line, at least I can save time by surfing on my long journey home, then I can plonk straight tobed when I reach home.

looks my major decision is not going to come yet, until I have an ulternative. shucks

breathe siah breathe

finally found fellow fitness first pplaround me. 2 bad all go diff timg and branch!

jade n sherie! hurry up!

God has been good

Didn’t realise that’s it’s a week since my entry :p.. did time really fly by so fast??? Guess nowadays, my thoughts shuffles between being frustrated with e thing I get frustrated most, planning my tkd training , planning and looking forward to my gym sessions, shuffling between apppointments & church/cell, and thinking of how to lose max no. Of weight in least time

God has been good to me so far. Had a great time in worship last sun in church . Was reading jer29 after a verse benson shared and encouraged me on. (xie xie wor!) E ppl are being sent on exile after babylon (i think) invaded. God act told them to pray for their authority & he will place judgment on those who stay. But if I were e ppl, I won t want 2 go in , in fact I wld hate e new plc. Wonder what God wants me to do .:o pray for the place i really don’t feel like staying / leaving?

Made it only for full range today. Spent time looking at a system i had to demo on when i haven’t even seen the demo myself....But had fun with grappling. Suck at it though but had fun. Won t succeed but might give my aggressor a shock if im in a compromising position:) :)

Fri jade s hen party (yeah!) and, sat night out with rachel & nicky. :D:D not to say training & ABM still to come...

judgemental

sometimes one can be too quick to judge for our own good..

was at the lift at home the other day and there were 2 other Indians waiting for the lift also. My first instinct was "OMG, somany foreigners" what a bother. But lo and behold, the man was so gentleman enough to give way to me first and the elderly indian lady was so friendly she greeted me with a smile in the lift. what a shame.

went into the lift with this time 2 elderly malay. Again the lady was so friendly she said with ahuge smile, good morning and gave a big smile.. (while the chinese always go into the lift look at the floor count the ants, look at the ceiling count the lizard)

Need to find time to take a break, prob 2 weeks later, sit at home soak in the presence of God. Busy with trainings and meetings in the weekday, sat gym(though i enjoy it), appointments and somehow never ending appointments (though most are enjoyable). even had to put Home in my diary..

Need to ask God how to truly have fellowship with Him..

To add my take on the Jack Neo incident.. personally

1) He don’t owe anyone else an apology except to his own family. I don’t really care if an artiste is infidel, gay or alcoholic etc because the main thing is as long as he keep his day job and do it well, that’s my main thing.
2) I don’t agree what the media said that he is using his wife to shield away from his own guilt, i mean if he know that it’ll make him look bad, definitely he won’t try this tactic
3) I salute the wife for standing by the husband, that’s the difference between asian and western, that for the traditional family, once your husband, forever your husband, as long as he doesn’t take it as a sign that he can go on this way forever.
4) Well, and the most debatable point, in the article, there was an interview with an ex local actor now millionaire, he says for the ladies, don’t expect the man to be 100% loyal, because less likely it’ll happen, well probably 1 out of 1000 men. His fine line is, whatever you do outside, don’t take it home. And at the end of the day, the priority is still your wife and family... worth pondering upon...

yeah...

I need to congratulate myself.... it’s been 4 months since i went to see a doc for any flu or something.. “choi!” touchwood siah...

But still , for those who know me long enough, it’s an accomplishment.. hahahha...

=D =D

This and next week is hectic.. but what’s new.. Tkd Training, church classes, home food tasting, chiong my gym and fitness training, movie events (Dear John) and Alice in Wonderland (yeah!).. footcare appointment....

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I wonder what's going on......

Killer whale and Fitness First

I'm not sure whether to feel sad for the whale or the victim in the recent killer whale incident in US. On one hand, i have to say the trainer did die pretty tragically, but i really do pity the killer whales more. the beauty of the whale is really its size and its awesome power..

the truth is, it's a mammal that's used to having the huge ocean as its home and to behave as God created them to be. Not stuck in a tiny tub made to do stupid things that animals are not meant to do. It's the same issue over and over again, animals turning their backs and attacking their trainers. I have no doubt these trainers love the animals and know the habits, but leave the animals in their true beauty. If i really do want to appreciate the whale, i rather see their doing their natural dives, slamming the ocean floors with their massive tails in the ocean.. that's what i called appreciating nature.

on a side note, signed up Fitness First and had my first PT in the morning.. the trainer didnt follow the timing strictly which is nice of him, became 1 and half instead of 1 hour. then treadmill and gym for half an hour, followed by 1hr of aerobics and another hour of hiphop dance workout class. need to clock 16 sessions in 8 weeks hopefully see results by may!

tolerance going down

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Aniwe, surprise meetings on Sunday. First I saw my JC friend whom i’ve not seen for the last 10 years at my neighbourhood gym then after that i got a call from Mui Hoon and Pat whom i’ve not seen since i graduated 6 years ago.. Suprised to hear from Pat since she go back france then...

ahh.. first whole week of CNY over, work started, got a bit busy and life got a bit crazy still. huge pity didnt get to go mark class.. but had a good time at Broteiz and Queen & Mangosteens with colleagues. A pity didnt go sentosa at night for the pubs.. it'll be really nice. Next time! cos i feel like going too.. then went on to st james. been so long since i last club like NY's eve. reach home at 4 am and woke up at 1:30pm manz..

Sat night was shiok... "lao Yu sheng" with dad's relatives .. huge turn out.. all coiusins and their kids and everybody totalled almost 60 folks.. good to see all relatives gther together.. i pity those new partners.. super hard time rmemebering everyone.. and it's not even the full team.. :p but lao yu sheng was fun..had to split into 2 tables, 1st generation and 2nd generation: =)

found a nice explanation of lao yu sheng "http://infopedia.nl.sg/articles/SIP_177__2009-01-08.html"...

this is the calmaity

Before:


this is after, think 20% of it on the table and on the floor:


and this was wat happen, hehehe, it's upside down unfortunately:


then tonight, it's cell gp cny dinner , lao yu sheng again.. and then come back home to lao yu sheng again with family.. think i'll never get sick of this during cny =)

cny and resolution

its cny eve. preparation are still going on. think my hands are going rough . & e usual celebration & visiting will take place.

I actually do love cny. its a good custom to have but just too tiring.

I wish I can soothe. wish l can do or say something to make things better. but I really don't know how.

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Since it's CNY, it's still a new year.. good to review how things are coming along with the new year resolution. 2 months into the new year, think i need to remake mine..

In the beginning i set:

1) Spiritual Life.
2) TKD black belt!!
3) Hit a new target weight.. hehe..
4) Be PM Certified.
5) Buy a car

Now it is:

1) Make God number in my walk... in terms of my work, ministry, personal life and personal struggles, to seek and ask Him first before anything else.
2) Get sufficient rest every week.
3) Tkd Black belt
4) PM certified
5) Hit my tgt weight...

I guess sometimes in life, you got to do what you don't feel like doing but still have to do, simply cos you have to.

on e otherhand, you also can't do what you feel like doing.

I can't be a hindrance to anyone in them doing what they NEED to do.

His light

In His Presence, there shall be no darkness.

The 3 of us

Yeah. The 3sisters:)

Muse!

muse is absolutely awesome @ indoor stadium!! okay granted, i'm not a hard core fan, and i love their songs only recently and i didnt own a single album (YET! going to get them!) and frankly they only started at 10pm (yawns)..



but their singing is great and strong, the band is really neat n tight, oh and the lights were awesome and the laser lights that lit up the whole ceiling .... and the crowd was great, massive muse fans apparently.. understandly the whole place went crazy at the hits like super massive black hole, uprising, time is runing out, starlight etc.. sang along to the chorus jumping up and down at the fast tracks. manz. i thoroughly enjoy myself.. now.. i wonder if they have dvd..

Anyway, it's iris's photoshoot today so we had family shot.. this one was more fun. can't wait to see the results... =) the last time was my grad shots, which was more serious .. this time was more relaxed and cheeky.. and we had 2 more ppl (both bro in law) hehe. did my own make up (to save $) but figured i have enough kit to rival a make up artist anyway hehe (or so i think!).. and now looking forward to reunion dinner tomorrow!! have to have it earlier since pipong is leaving for ipoh before cny..

what's happiness

think i havent' been really happy for a long time..

muse!

i so can't wait. going to watch muse in concert! yeah!!

Rainy day

Rainy days has a unique way of putting you in a mood that you never have. It either gets you down and gloomy, or it’ll put you in a relaxing mood. Garbage has a song that goes “I’m only happy when it rains” sometimes that is really applicable.

Woke up to really dark skies and heavy rain, to top things off, it’s a Friday, end of the week. Decided that today will be a good day, to slow down my steps and enjoy the rain. Heck to the more crowded and crazier than usual trains, heck to the unhappy circumstances at work. I’m going to enjoy the day.

Life will affect you to as much as you let it to be. God be the central of my thoughts cos only God won’t disappoint anyone. Something or someone will make you emotional only if they hold a certain degree of importance in your life and I won’t let my job be one of them.

Was thinking back on some stuff when the song Baby by me comes on radio, what a coincidence.

this week

Week fly by just like that..maybe i've been busy..both at work and out of work, stayed till 830 in the office on tues, gotta miss my training dammit. okay i know some might roll their eyes now and go like "come on, it's only 830". but, to miss my training for work is something i dont like, at least if it's some major fantastic work, at least it's still worth it, but it's not. oh well.. tryng not to get sian with work and environment..

this week busy again, but then, nothing new about it. Mon training, tues went accupuncture for my heels, wed OT plus go for drinks with colleagues thurs had cell group, fri went for drinks with colleagues then after that benson. tom bring colleague around, sun birthday dinner. gosh.. i just want to stay at home and rest. ..... =(

massive reading quintine jardine on his bob skinner series, fantastic author..

really need to serve by His strength and not expect anything in return, else you might get disappointed.....