Cars cars and more cars

Hung out with Jerry and his secondary school buddies last friday at a place called yishun den. Actually there's a pretty nice view at the reservoir or water but amazingly nobody is interested in the view. Everybody is hanging by the railing looking at the road, ogling the cars go by.

I'm amazed @ how obsessed ppl can get with cars... scrutinising every car that drives by the way a guy stares at a pretty lady in mini skirt walking by.. and i'm amazed at the speeed they can recognise a particular brand of car and exact model... at the speed of light.. i'm like, was there a car that pass by?

@ the end of the day no matter ho wmuch i've convinced myself or recognised that buying a car is not worth it, at the end of the night, you would really feel the pressure to get one yrself siah... aiyo.

impressions from pastor Lim's msg

umm.. throughout service today, had quite a bit of impressions..

first when Pastor lim talk about Water baptism that those people are ready to show and determined that they want to live for God.. suddenly those words affected me quite a bit.. i do want to live for God and suddenly want to go through the baptism to signify all these. need to pray more about it.. need to get past my mum first though =(

then when they said the salvation's prayer with the girl, i suddenly felt very emotional also..i was so touched and i can really feel the excitement that can exude even there's only 1 salvation and of knowing God's Love and Grace.. hallelujiah!

God reminded me to learn of my past today.. get burnt once ..so really need to resist temptations and not have a second time happen again......

christmas weekend!

christmas weekend!!! Our caroling!! oh manz!! it was such an experience! okay, we, the ambitious non-professional 'youngsters' decided to go caroling for houses and for st luke's hospital and bukit batok home for the aged .. =D to say that i was apprehensive as an understatement! i half contemplated asking my cell leader to call off the thing and let''s just forget about it :p Thankfully we didn't.. we only had about 4 practices.. and i would say the practisces were well... rocky... so we didn't really end up perfrect even on the actual day.. 1st stop was at st lukes hospital.. my oh my.. we caroled till we nearly drop dead.. but at least we managed to connect with them and talk to them.. and i think our gifts did bring a cheer to some of them..

Some of them were really nice.. and u could see our meer prescence can bring joy to them, thanking us profusely.... =) there's one lady visitor that was sulking away angrily dunno why and when i happily wished her merry christmas, she retorted back angrily "what's there to be merry abbout".. ironically i was not angry at all, but i felt kinda sad for her that she is so not happy with life.. really hope she knows the love of Christ manz. at least there could be joy in her life.....

we moved on to bt batok home for the aged next.. we carolled and left all w/n like 15 or 20 mins.. and when we left they were all still sitting around as though waiting for something to happen still.. left me a bit regretful.. :p

All in all .. i hope we had brought some cheer to them, we didnt' preach directly but pray that God can use us to do something in someone's lives.. :)

Anway that's not the end of my day!! wanted to go for a drink but the rest are dead tired .. Jason very kindly send me and candida home. really nice of him. after i reach home.. Yas called to join her and my ex-colleague from KL to MOS.. and whoosh did she call at the right moment, i'm itching for a dance manz! Hip hop rnb room is packed!! music was not as good as the previous time though.. i thoroughly enjoyed my time in Retro room.. hehe. but too bad for the random pick up-ers as i call them.. trying to pick up any girl that walk in the room.. yikes!
Felt a bit old since i actually know the songs that playing in retro room hehhe...

But i'm so happy that i can still wake up for service in the morning even though i reach home at like 5 plus am :p thank God ! :p

伤脑精

不知这么的， 最近总是到了凌晨一点多了才开始写我的部落格。

我之前还说过真是喜欢那种没有压力的感觉。这么知道，那种似乎有一个石头压在我心头的感觉又出现了。在我不知不觉之下，它就间接的扩骟到我浑身透湿，使得我满脑子里头不能想着其他的事情。 真是伤脑精。

哎，该这么办好呢？

可是， 无论是这么样，我现在只期盼星期五的到来。 =D

渴望

当你在人生中渴望拥有一样东西，你会这么样？

从旁仰慕？或者敢于追求？我看，我还是耐性等待，看时机如何再说。哎！

been so long!!

it's been so long since i last updated this thing manz... I finally come back from my trip! and i think it's time to update my blog on thsi... but well.. since it's like 12:14 am.. probably another day.. ahhh.. procrastination at work heheh..

just attended a wedding rehearsal of my friend's.. so glad to see her getting married.. amusing to remember that just 2 years or so ago she was still asking how come she is still single and dunt think she will get married.. voila one of the first to get married heeh..

anyway.. Christmas is here, it's a season to be jolly and remember christ and not SANTA! umm suddenly realise santa is satan spelt incorrectly hahah .. sianz...hope i survive my caroling this sat =p.. can't sing properly still yikes!!

taekwondo

I'm so freaking excited!! im finally one step closer to fulfilling one of my dreams! to take up Taekwondo!! yes!! Just signed up the class but so expsv! 480 for first sign up.. faint*

but i like the environment, and i like the fact tha tthe instructor himself train one to one for the introductory class and there's reawlly no obligation to sign up cos the lady a tthe counter really didn't push and she's super nice about it..

Yippie.. Taekwondo here i come!!

Secret Garden

Recently dug out some old tracks from an album i had from my cousin. Songs from Secret Garden.

Two types of songs that can make one fall asleep: one super bad and boring. The other super fantastically smoothing that calms one down.

Secret Garden belongs to the Latter. So much emotions in just a few instruments that can be conveyed. No voices nor any singing, just violin and a couple of instruments but yet if you sit down and listen carefully, your tears would just flow. It's been some time since a song can do that. The last was Josh Groban and then George Michael. But this is absolutely beautiful.

Atlantia, Adagio, NOcturn are the first few tracks of the album.

best to listen on a rainy day or cold weather, if you want to ease into your bed and with a drink in hand.

vietnam!

happy i going on holiday soon!! dec i going vietnam on holidays with candida..heee... wonder what will come out of it...

umm.. thankful i have tried a bit but still hasn't gone to elusive europe! n Mongolia! let's see so far AU,Malaysia,Thailand,India, China, Taiwan, Indonesia, HK, Macau.... going bk taiwan nxt yr =) hope to go EU soon though! holland 2008 as agreed with Ling Fang wahaha. =)

exercise

I'm begining to love workout. Sundays ABT, Monday Aerboics /swimming, Wed aerobics, thurs swimming sat gym. And in case one gets the perception that i'm ultra fit, nope. In fact i'm still far from ideal.

Although my original motive and aim is to slim down, but now, i jsut love the feeling of sweating out in a good workout, the feeling after the workout. .. .. afterall, exercise is about feeling good about yrself.

actually recently i love the feeling of continuing on to torture and beat up my body through work outs, at end of the day I wanted to know that I have the discipline to continue on in a work out consistently.. Well, if the end prodcut is a slimmer body, why not, that's a bonus. though now the bonus still evades me like hell.

mine?

When is it going to be my turn? When can i have mine?

Couting my blessings

Today is the day i shall be happy and joyful to count my blessings. It's in times of stress that one needs to count their blessings =)

Thank God for

A pretty nice job
An awesome family
Ppl who care about me
being healthy still
for ppl that can understandme
Meeting my needs

And of cos, for having God with me. =)

Not look at the cons, but look at the pros.

Prayer.

God, You are my anchor and tower, that's what i always say. But Lord, I think I've grown too far and too caught up in the things of the world.

Make my life a prayer to you
I wanna do what you want me to
I want to shine the light You gave,
through Your Son, You Sent to Save us
from ourselves and our despair.
It comforts me
to know You're really there.

...
I want to tell the world out there,
You're not some fable or fairy tale
that I've made up, inside my head,
You're God the Son,
You've Risen from the Dead.

Let's get cosy in the train

Morning peak hour for some of us is a super common scene, seeing who is the first to 'chiong' in or chiong out. some stuck to the pole like as though they will freaking fall with out the pole. Some, in the sardine packed train, which you are already stuffing your face into the person's hair in front of you cos it's so packed, had to act 'chio' and fling her hair out into your face, machiam like she in MTV or something. Wah liew..

Now, there was a time when it's so packed i had my face plastered to the door already and inside everybody is sniffing somebody else's hair or back already and somebody who's trying to get in from outside, i dunno whether to laugh or cry or be angry, still say "excuse me". Imagine the scene, the train is throughly packed, you can't even squeeze a kid in and at the door, there are tonnes of ppl who think they are stick thin trying to squeeze their butt in stil say "pls move in" or"excuse me". I looked in, surveyed the sardines in the can and i wondered aloud, "to where??" thankfully the lady got it and decided not to pursue. whew...!

They must have thought i'm not made of solid matter but of air who can be compressed further in in a fixed space. Somebody give them some science lesson please.. hehe.

Dilemma again!

I love the feeling of being carefree!! And in case it's something like no worries in life.. nope that's not my point today =) it's about being in a state where I don't like anyone.. there's no stupid stone in your heart, it stresses me out more than a freaking meeting with my CEO or soemthing hahaha.. it feels so good not having to miss someone or wonder whtat they are doing etc..

but then here comes the dilemma, i miss having someone i can miss, someone i can tok to or simply snuggle up against or even someone i feel like kissing! haha.

But oh well haha.. i can be happy in the first state still =)

now which one do ppl prefer to be in? there are some who just die without a partner... thank God i'm nt like that.. hehe.. some too strong they feel they dun need one At all .. oh well =)

2week long birthday celebrations!!

Yesterday marked the last day of my almost 2 week long celebrations! yippie!

7th sept we had a cell birthday celebrations at Harry's@ dempsey. Alamak, the place is a pain to get to it's really unless your drive hehe... XB sabo me to stage but end up he kena saboed also!! hehe...


ahhhhh Fri @ iguana @ clarke quay!! With my ex-colleagues that i really enjoy hanging otu with. Li hia and LF. Li Hia is always damn funny and she always have stories to tell haha.. and most often than nt, she is my aunt agony hehe.. Superb knowing her.. oh some rice and chicken that i ate there was wonderful but we were damn full and can hardly finish our food. me and LF down one jug of margarita before even li hia came and another one when she come. ooh.. feel like ordering shots for their happy hours actually but save $$$ heheh..

Sat was with my secondayr school friends Jiashi and Ah mei! hehe.. long time no see them, good to catch up with folks you've not seen for a long long time manz. We wanted to check out Robertson quay, stupid that i am, actually forget to find out how to get there, so when we went to ask a security at clarke quay, after giving some general directions, he asked us a question " Clarke quay not happening enough?" hehehe.. that was pretty funny hahaa... dinner was @ waraku, nice food, wonderful service they have!! it's like super packed but the lady ushering in was still super friendly. Wonderful!! And dinner was a treat from them =) Oh anyway, we didn't want to find where Robertson is , so we headed down to Forbidden City anyway, but they were playing trance =( ..


Tues is a pleasant suprise haha. Michael my ex-colleagues rallied a birthday celebraton for a couple of us september babies . that's really awesome of him to inlcude me in the cellebrations also since i'm no longer in HP le. So it was a dinner at Kim Gary not bad, pretty suprising night i would say, ctching up with ex-colleagues.


Wednesday my actual day!! specially reserve for my family.. =) I've got like the best family in the world wide world... even a simple cake birthday song and ang bao is good enuf even if it's with them. I got wonderful parents who never give me pressure for school, super humourous father who is v sweet to my mum, super hilarious\, trendy, futuristic thinking and open minded mother, 2 wonderful sisters who have always dote on me one way or another, my best friends who i can share my woes to, grab make up, perfume, bags from (and they always wilingly lend me, now how many sisters do that!hehe). And arguments were shortlived and we are always having fun everyday at home. Love my family!

Ah anyway on next St James on Friday!!! Woo hoo!! i think the night was a blast anyway, i quite thoroughly enjoy my time except tht there wasn't much cute guys. Checked out Dragonfly since there was so much talk about it.. this slyvester looking guy was quite good actually, not sure if it's him haha. Most of the night is at boiler rm since they play my fav 2 genre, rock and HIP hop R&B.. =) not much dancing in the beginning, but after that once the songs picked up, it's partying time! i pretty much almost dance quite a bit, but not enough!! saw Mario the Power98DJ there too, he is wonderful and friendly, would talk a bit smile and say hi kind of thing. friendly guy no airs about him also. And i think the drinks are a bit diluted cos after half a jug of Whiskey, another glass whiskey dry, 3 shots and a magarita, i'm still not very high yet.. i dun think my alcohol limit DAT good loh. got to know a gp of strangers on the dance floor.. nto that i 'd see them again, but well.. for the fun of it at night hehe. But i guess one of the good part is i'm with friends that i can be myself, that's Candida, zl and jade hehe =)

Sat !! the last of my celebrations!! was with another bunch of ex-colleagues in HP.. my lunch kakis then!! Kean n his girl charmaine whom i also enjoy toking to, carol LF n ashley.. we were@ tea chapter drinking tea for like 5 hours!! hahha.. throughly de-toxify !! But miss those times at HP.. they are all wonderful colleagues!! It's also another gp of ppl whom i enjoy hanging out with , who know what i'm like and can accept me for who i am.. wonderful ppl!!

At night had dinner with aijia, my friend for like for ever... =) good to catch up with friends who is like forever

Oh, not forgetting my overseas colleagues and friends who remebered and msg ed me from overseas also, my Taiwanese colleague AMy, Indian Colleagues susmitha!! and lisheng churchmate in Czech, malaysian colleagues Daliya and Melor .. so wonderful o fthem =)
i'll forever remember these day because i think as ppl grow up and work, they have their own lives and it's hard to meet up de.. so really appreciate all my friends both overseas and here who remember.... =)

It's really wonderful cos as ppl grow up or get older, it's really hard to meet up cos they have thieir own lives.. so that's why now it's really all the more memorable hehe..

Thanks to all manz!

policemen in MRT

We trot in and out of the MRT stations blindly when we go to work or come home from work. There are just some things that you have come to ignore or fall out of your vision, like the MRT staff, the other passengers or the ice-cream seller sometimes. They become a blur and u just move on to your destination.

Today admist the huge mass of peak hour crowd ants i saw 2 men with 2 bright red caps. Policemen or armed force folks. aiyo.. 2 guys in big red caps holding 2 big rifles. and outside the gate, 2 policemen in uniform. Alamak they are not very discreet. And the thing is that, they are trying to look at though it's a normal routine or normal check.

Okay thing is, here where we are, if you see so many armed force peoples together whispering to each other, there's nothing discreet and routine about it. Their precesence really gives me the creep manz.. can't this ppl just wear plain clothes or something?? hehe.

But it's damn assuring to know our friendly armed forced folks are really near us. =)

cooling down

Every monday is the time i go for my weekly aerobics class. And because of the fact that if i cool down at home, i'd end up dreading my shower and shower at like 11 plus pm with my head wet. So i've tried a new tactic, I'd sit down at the void deck enjoying the natural wind to cool down.

Sometimes, I thoroughly enjoyed moments of these, when i'm all by myself, and i can be anyone i want, i can wear any expression i want and i see no need to entertain. The breeze is a relief and it's a good way to end the day.

Today, the air is thick and dead still. The occasional tickle of air serves nothing to cool off the ever rising heat of my face and body. My body is thristing for the cool wind that usually comes, but tonight, It has decided to take a break for the night. I begged from within but yet it refuses to budge and change its mind. I longed for it to relief me of this of bubbling heat and disquiet. Alas, today is not the day.

mind boggling n incoherent

今天就是那么一天，满脑子里掺渣这许多各种事情， 全都混成一片，能得我头昏脑胀。

想着我的社交圈子， 是不是有时候对人太好。想着为什么那么难找到知己。 到底是不是人们一旦长大， 就变得比较自私自利？ 还是要找到关心你的人，只能在教会找到？还是我真的想太多了。 有时候真的得感谢主。要不是我生命中有了主，早就变成一个自卑及depressed的人。

最不喜欢被人忽来换去， 对你好，就把握当作所以然。 必定在那帮着你的，对我一点也不客气。 真讨厌。

Beauty is a mind boggling affair. Who determines what is beauty and who decide if you are beautiful or not? The world has a set of measurement whether you are beautiful or not. Perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect features, perfect clothes n perfect body? Or are you beautiful cos of your inner beauty? I'll say that noone has the right to determine whether i am beautiful or not, but somehow sometimes i can' help but be led round by the nose by the society.

On one hand you will can say that i Refuse to be measured by the society. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I dont' have a need to be perfect, don't need to put on tonnes of makeup. be all natural. As lng as i'm happy who cares?

but the whole is a cruel place. and humans judge each other by their looks. 1st impression. It' all takes place in a split second. It takes only a few seconds for a person to look you up and down and make a judgement. Bull shit if they say looks are not important. I'll ask them to eat their foot up manz.

Beauty is like a stage performance, you spend years practising, honing everything to perform for people in that circumstance and show.

premaritial sex

I have friends who told me about ppl sleeping with a person on their first 'date' or night out together. Well, i have to say this person is not the only one i know. Others i know before him do that often enough also. Now one might say, so what? It's very common wat. what's the big deal? or give comments like, you sua gu ah? I have to say a increasing pile of incidents like that is pretty mind bogs my mind recently.

now looking at wat's common in the world nowadays. It's just an open society, feelings are by impulse and what's more important is my feelings and satisfying myself. Who holds on to virginity nowadays? the act is purely instinctal and persona happiness is more important than wat we have been drilled into for what seems like no apparent reason. In current society,there seems to be no big deal to it already. Plus the fact that one can say "we are all consenting adults" , "we know wat we are doing". To some, the only limit is as long as the partner don't get aids or pregnant. i have to say on some point of view, in this society, what's wrong with having sex with another person, if we dont' get into trouble and we enjoy the moment? Isn't it what we are built to be? especially if for some, they are going to marry the person anyway, does a signature on a paper determine when we can do it withthe person i love?

now, sometimes call me traditional, dumb or livign in the past. It simply never fails to amaze me how "open", in all sense" people have come to be. How could one possibly sleep with someone you barely know. Based on what? Drunkedness of that moment and the dolling up one can do at that moment in time. And to whose benefit? And does one really don't bother too much about it? I sincerely that all these is going to catch up on them sooner or later . I've seen cases when it do. God has stated clearly that sex out of marriage is wrong. and God is certainly no old dumb fool sitting in the corner of the universe not knowing a single thing. He certainly is aware of the consequences physically, emotionally, spritually or psychologically. But we in our moment of impulse lust has chosen not to look at it. Indulgence is pleasurable no doubt, but temporal nontheless. most of the times, not only does it not solve anything, it heaps more problem. God does not say No to premarital sex for no apparent reason no matter what era we are in. It's amatter whether we understand things thats all.

Now where u stand is up to the individual. As one can see, either side you have yr own justifications. All i say as long as u can stand before God clear and pure in life, or for non-christians conscience clear. it's an indivdual choice.

Friends?

I' have to say i'm disappointed with my friends around me. Im easily a friend to others, but how many can i say likewise that they are a friend to you? Who can i count on when i'm down? WHo can i trust with my secrets and not be laughed at? how many friends i know are willing to take time to spend with me and hear me confide? I think not a lot. In fact 2 of what i consider my dear friends keep giving me excuses when i asked them out to celebrate my birthday. In fact they keep saying they have work to do etc other appointments. Personally, it's all a matter of priority and i'm certainly not their priority. Another person whom i consider my friend, i was willing to hear the person confide in the problems, but when i'm done and i sent out a msg all i get is "no comments" and though was asked what's the problem but when i highlight my problem, all i get is silence and no reply. what the hell. And to think i treat this person as a good friend, someone i can share excitements and downs with. I guess i was dead wrong. It is really hard to find someone to share and DON"T END UP THEY SHARE THEIR PROB WITHOUT LISTENING TO MINE. They just remember they them themselves and u end up feeling more fed up than ever. Either that or they just brush you off saying "aiyah it's like that one lah", or "it's common" or "suan le loh". The point is now how big my problem is, it could be a damn small issue. but the point is i need a listening ear and your sincerity as a friend. dammit.

So then, what am i left with? Is it because I'm not willing to take the first step and trust someone with my problems or is it really cos ppl don't bother anymore.

i jus tknow i'm damn pissed, dead disappointed, depressed and given up hope on my friends.

EMO

feel like shit. disillusioned, lost my footing, swayed by ppl and circumstances. helpless, irritated and trapped. Depressed and sarcastic.

In the deepest of the down.

Life..

Threading on a fine line in life, going on a roller coaster ride. Riding on high, feeling victorious like she's conquered the world. That she can overcome all emotions and circumstances. Instantaneously the next moment, life halted to an eerie halt, devoid of ups and downs. But you can feel the tension building, anticipating somethng to happen. suddenly, it whack you straight in the face, throwing you off guard.

Feel GOod

我忽然间又开始爱上华文。对我而言，一个能把整句话缩成4 个字的而 听起来非常美妙的，就只有华文。最近，开始新的一份工作， 能拿到《我报》。 真觉得很好读。对于我这一个华文不太及格却又很想进步我的程度的人，是个很好的帮助。不但有的学生字，而且有些报章还很细心的有英文翻译。 真细心！

okay, enough of writting in Mandarin. As much as i would love to be articulate and fluent in them, it's an uphill struggle. But typing in mandarin really helps to know my hanyu pinyin and hence improve my pronunciation. hehe. ..

Did something unusual at work today. In the middle of work, i suddenly had developed a runny nose so decided to go out of the office for walk and bathe myself in the sun. As i was walking down Tanjong pagar area, it suddenly feels really good. It's really cooling and the wind is lightly fingering my cheeks and hair. I sat down at a park bench and watch the world frenzily walk by. . For a moment, I'm trapped in a space of time of my own. It doesn't matter there might be work to do, it doesn't matter what situation i'm in, it's just a moment of peace, between me myself and God.

do our best

We are saved not just to wait to go heaven, but we are saved to in turn reach out to others about the good news. This is the gist of a statement i heard the pastor preach today. which is true.. how many of us just go to church on Sunday attend service go home and feel like we've done our job? And how many times we've thought that those around us are just being sunday christians?
I for one are guilty of both. The former is when i'm low and far away from God. The latter is when I thought i'm close to God. Act both are when i'm not very near God. If we are close to God, we won't be thinking either ways.

Sometimes i think i've done my job that's good enough, but it's not enough just to go to church, if we really love God, we'd want to do our best for him and to please him. to share the good news to others who don't know him. tell them that God Almighty reached out to them first and be known to them to want to love them.

God help me do wat He wants to do.

Lamentations

These few days, i'm in an ultra bad mood. I'm not in the mood to be funny or hang around people already. I 've always thought that I'm very sociable and have a sense of humour. Put with me any type of ppl and i can carry on a conversation.. Alas the magic has failed with people who are stil kiddish.. I am simply beyond that frequency to be able to click with these ppl anymore... people who are actually my age but then still behave and think like a 18 or 19 year old is beyond me.. who are they to think that they ahve the rights to simply critise other people or the right to choose that they are superior to others! my foot!!

So many arrogant idiots in the work enviornment! wah liew! it's only a department that has the finally say! do they ahve to be freaking arrogant and ignore ppl like that?? I mean if people is friendly towards you what makes you think you have the damn right to not give a damn and not reply.. If someone invites you for lunch, what makes you think you have the damn right to reject simply because you don't feel like!

stupid fools, talk about being a "Family" company, my foot! it's full of selfish i care about myself cliquish ppl!!.. and i have utterly incapable managers!.. they might know how to do their work, but they don't know how to lead and manage!! if they dont' even know what to do, they expect me to do miracles?? damn the increment and bonus had better be damn good. every day count down to the minutes tolunch then count down to 6 pm.. am i ever going to learn any thing at all?

i feel so far from my friends also.. Sometimes i wonder at the end of the day, who do i click with?

Slackers

aiyo.. sometimes i wonder why would anyone want to employ anyone and give them so little things to do...

the stupid thing is, they employ me for more costs.. but i'm doing like 10% of what i used to be doing in my previous job.. now i'm so thankfully the company didn't ban this blog site.. or a matter of fact msn..

thankfully i got this naturally solemn face haha.. i can be blogging or msning or doing something damn crappy but ppl would still think i'm working very hard.. well they had better give me something to do before i lose my momentum..

Chionging and all

Continuing the note on chionging.. there are 2 particular group of ppl i can't stand when it' comes to ppl who chiong..

first kind, those who think they go chionging is very got "sey".. so they keep telling ppl about the MOS they go, the zouk they go blah blah, and for the younger ones, zouk is typicaly their favourite place they like.. then they would brag about how much they can drink how many jugs they order.. wah liew.. for the older ones they would sound damn sua goo.. personally i think go clubbing go clubbing lah.. wat's the big deal.. chey..

Why do ppl go chiong, club or pub anyway.. music. company, dance and drinks.. right? is it something to brag about anyway?

second kind.. they have chiong a lot in their lifetime.. then u talk about a particular time u enjoyed with your friends, they would tell you "Chey, been there done that.. wat's the big deal?"

wat the hell.

Krueger oh Krueger

Finally wake up from half day of slumber to do something .. sometimes sleeping in is really a waste of time .. before you know it, half the day is gone.. sigh...

Yesterday night went Rouge again, only to realise that John Molina and gang are no longer there. Damn! i gotta hunt them down again.. stupid ppl can't stay in one place for decent number of time manz.. been trying to follow them from Man U bar, to china bar to Momo to finally Rouge.. now they moved on again to Arena but have supposedly left that place also.. wah liew.. tired leh.. can they at least have a simple website or Blog to update their fans about where they are or not..

Anyway, the place i think lost their biz by 70% without them.. it was a far cry from then when john and gang is performing.. so we were pretty unsatified and head on down to MOS hip hop room to continue partying the night away.. suprisingly there are more chinese than malays.. ...
some how um.. i stil like st james.. MOS like more army guys who just book out on sat go one like that.. me and yas decide sept our birthdays we shall go st james to celebrate .. :)

It's pretty funny when we were having breakfast at Mc after MOS closes when lao ma called at 5 plus am and ask how come still so noisy?? hahaha..

anyway.. veyr happy at least i did my fair share of work out.. dance the night away!! hhaha

bored....

Too Freaking bored in the office with nothing to do.. :(

Insights to the ISrael nations' history

Need to remember the fasinating pictures that I had seen in the photograph exhibtion of Israel by David Rubinger and Paul Goldman. first time i see such emotions and passions just in the pictures.. capturing of survivors of holocaust, celebration after the creation of nation 1948, settling from "illegal Immigrants" to nations to having the women in the army. ..

Additional comments from David's website about the above picture:

"What I would like to believe is a typical image of the Israeli Defense Force: There isn't one soldier in this line who is standing in the same position as another. Everything uniform about an army is missing. That was typical of the army of the '50's and '60's. No saluting. No Prussian drill. No bullshit. But it wasn't a bad army, by any means. One of my editors, a former US Marine officer, once visited Israel and commented, after seeing a few soldiers in the street, "They're about the sloppiest looking soldiers I've ever seen. But they sure can fight!"

Comments frm david's site: "Five years after the 1967 war in Sinai, I returned with colleagues to have a look at the battlefield. The wind had blown away the sand, revealing a macabre memento of the war. The hand of an Egyptian soldier who had found his grave in the dunes. Next to it was his helmet. His forefinger was pointing to heaven as though in admonition. No More War. But Sadat had arrived ten years too late for him."

二十来岁的危机

有人说人到了中年时期会有忧郁症， 中年危机设么的。我看我应该是有二十来岁的危机。其实 这是一个让人充满希望与赵气勃勃的时候。而我，不知为何的，却感觉到疲累。想做一些喜欢的，却又不知道是设么。虽然工作上也做得不错，但还是没满足感。 虽然还蛮喜欢单身的生活，也觉得人缘还不差，看到周沼的人都设立自己的家庭，就让我觉得为何我没有。

可能我心里这一刻，就像是向我的blog Name 说指的，Melancholic Joy, 藏着一个悲伤的喜悦。

Walking the dog.

Sometimes a person really needs to get out of their environment and have a change, be it change of job or whatever, especially if you are doing well.

With a new job in hand, it's back to ground zero when I need the help of others, to lead me. It's like a man walking his dog, the man knows where to go, but nontheless let the dog lead the way anyhow even though the dog might be walking aimlessly. I'm like the dog now.

Metro and Vain Men

I wonder how many people actually do bother to spend a lot of money on facials and what not.. At the max, it'll be about what, couple of hundreds every other month, isn't it? And i'm talking about vain girls even. I bought one clinque at what some folks might think is cheap of $80 and I already heart pain.

And there're articles about men who spend 1000 bucks on facials eveyr 3 months?? Thankfully there're much of them around.. else they make me feel like a man .. ;P

Ideas .. Ummm

Umm.. I wonder what would people put in their blog anyway, do they blabble on about what, they eat, what they do.. who they meet etc? *Yawn* ... Y would ppl care anyway? Now, my life isn't an adventure, nor am i narcisstic enough to keep taking Kawai pictures (or at least at attempt to be Kawaii) of myself .. Looks like i got to try harder.. any idea? :)

Music!

I love Breaking Benjamin and I never fail to wonder why they are not as big as the others like My chemical Romance who never fail to reach number 1 here in sg... So here it is those of you who love BB also, (and it's not BB Back btw) Cheers!

First Blog

Okay, it's already 2007 and blogging has even reached our ministers and I've just started my first blog.. call me a jurassic but well.. tada! here i am joining the crowd FInally!! Look out for postings soon :D :D