looking fwd to ladies night and going for watch night and CQ for NY's eve party .. plus tom's bday celebration and going shopping with mum on friday and our potluck cum movie session on sat.. it's a week of celebration siah! it's time i party, since my mood was pretty bland and bad during xmas eve and xmas itself, not that it's a lot better now. but still, i should get out!
And i shall try very hard not to look at my bank balance meanwhile..
which reminds me, i should really take some time to talk to God more..
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Update
merry christmas to you....
Finally , I have a chance to blog. As busy as I have been, e last week has been enjoyable. Since almost 2 weeks ago from company's dinner @ one fullerton followed by harry's bar, to zi peh's funeral wake e whole week. Then last friday was christmas dinner with denise & gang then watching midnight show princess & e frog with toby. Preparation of bintan trip & e trip itself & other things that happen along e way.
Slept till 1:30pm today then work out @ gym for 2 hours then walk half an hour to west mall to buy gifts. Damn it felt good to have a great work out. Peaceful steamboat dinner @ home w family.
Restless, so much on my mind.
Finally , I have a chance to blog. As busy as I have been, e last week has been enjoyable. Since almost 2 weeks ago from company's dinner @ one fullerton followed by harry's bar, to zi peh's funeral wake e whole week. Then last friday was christmas dinner with denise & gang then watching midnight show princess & e frog with toby. Preparation of bintan trip & e trip itself & other things that happen along e way.
Slept till 1:30pm today then work out @ gym for 2 hours then walk half an hour to west mall to buy gifts. Damn it felt good to have a great work out. Peaceful steamboat dinner @ home w family.
Restless, so much on my mind.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
This week
really shocked on mon to hear that zi peh had passed away. first instinct was to kick myself in the a** really bad cos we should have gone down to see him on sunday but we didn't. I know my sis felt really bad about it too.. so many things in life should have done, ppl you should have treated better when they are alive. it's a cliche statement, but u miss smething only when you lost it bt then it's too late. i had to keep stoping myself from thinkin back on when he was close to our family,he has always been.....
hung out with a couple of folks, one of which i just happen to only know recently. fantastic character and so easy to hang out with.
AFter next week, i'll buck up on training again. ...
hung out with a couple of folks, one of which i just happen to only know recently. fantastic character and so easy to hang out with.
AFter next week, i'll buck up on training again. ...
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Foreign Talent
Sometimes I wonder if an MNC decides to draw out from a company and decides to set up a new plant somewhere else, is it really the locals that takes a bad hit?
It might not be, being based in this MNC for a few weeks, looking around less than 50% of the staff on this floor are Singaporeans. Foreign talent? I doubt so. I don’t’ think all of these jobs are not doable by locals. More and more Singaporeans are becoming expats and foreign talent overseas. Sometimes, foreign might not be good.
Having a foreign company set up office in Singapore and yet hire non Singaporeans? Locals don’t benefit and we have so many non Singaporeans who aren’t really interested in integrating into the lifestyle of Singapore taking up PRs, what extreme benefits does it bring?
It might not be, being based in this MNC for a few weeks, looking around less than 50% of the staff on this floor are Singaporeans. Foreign talent? I doubt so. I don’t’ think all of these jobs are not doable by locals. More and more Singaporeans are becoming expats and foreign talent overseas. Sometimes, foreign might not be good.
Having a foreign company set up office in Singapore and yet hire non Singaporeans? Locals don’t benefit and we have so many non Singaporeans who aren’t really interested in integrating into the lifestyle of Singapore taking up PRs, what extreme benefits does it bring?
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
Devo
saw this in crosswalk.. very apt for me, esp since im always busy..
To stay spiritually minded during the holidays, we need to keep our eyes focused on the Lord and include Him in our thoughts. Instead of talking to ourselves, we need to start talking to Him and then give Him the time to talk back. The enemy will use every scheme he can against us to distract us from maintaining a walk with the Lord. It has been said, "If the devil cannot make you bad, he will make you busy." To combat the temptations to over commit in your time and finances, we must stay in the Word of God to renew our minds and to surrender to His will over our natural-born desires. Through the Holy Spirit, we can overcome and live a life pleasing to God that brings peace in the midst of chaos.
My father frequently said, "When your output exceeds your intake, your upkeep is your downfall." It is too easy to fall down in the holiday seasons. Joy to the world begins with each of us individually. Joy cannot come without the conscious awareness of the Lord's promised presence wherever we go and whatever we do. By allowing our thoughts to think about God in the daily routines of life, we allow the Lord to have the ability to move through our actions. Only then can we truly maintain the Spirit of Christmas and sing the song, "Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me."
To stay spiritually minded during the holidays, we need to keep our eyes focused on the Lord and include Him in our thoughts. Instead of talking to ourselves, we need to start talking to Him and then give Him the time to talk back. The enemy will use every scheme he can against us to distract us from maintaining a walk with the Lord. It has been said, "If the devil cannot make you bad, he will make you busy." To combat the temptations to over commit in your time and finances, we must stay in the Word of God to renew our minds and to surrender to His will over our natural-born desires. Through the Holy Spirit, we can overcome and live a life pleasing to God that brings peace in the midst of chaos.
My father frequently said, "When your output exceeds your intake, your upkeep is your downfall." It is too easy to fall down in the holiday seasons. Joy to the world begins with each of us individually. Joy cannot come without the conscious awareness of the Lord's promised presence wherever we go and whatever we do. By allowing our thoughts to think about God in the daily routines of life, we allow the Lord to have the ability to move through our actions. Only then can we truly maintain the Spirit of Christmas and sing the song, "Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me."
Friday, November 27, 2009
It's all about Him
cell had great attendance today... looks like thurs is a good day ..
today's cell is on moses debating with God at the bush fire incident.. spoke to me today. I really feel inadequate to lead the cell next year.. i'm not doing fantastic spirtually this year, im no longer sensitive to ppl.. have i lost my compassion cos i lost my passion for Christ?
Im doubting my ability.. i can crap but to speak words that edify ppl in christ i doubt myself.. i can't lead events and i dont meet ppl up enough... but i guess today God says, it's not about you. it's about Him all along, it's about what He can do.. i guess i'm like moses, still have to ask him for His name and nature.. His power...
aye.. really pray i can rely on him and focus more of what He can do.
It's never about me, it's always about Him. .....
today's cell is on moses debating with God at the bush fire incident.. spoke to me today. I really feel inadequate to lead the cell next year.. i'm not doing fantastic spirtually this year, im no longer sensitive to ppl.. have i lost my compassion cos i lost my passion for Christ?
Im doubting my ability.. i can crap but to speak words that edify ppl in christ i doubt myself.. i can't lead events and i dont meet ppl up enough... but i guess today God says, it's not about you. it's about Him all along, it's about what He can do.. i guess i'm like moses, still have to ask him for His name and nature.. His power...
aye.. really pray i can rely on him and focus more of what He can do.
It's never about me, it's always about Him. .....
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Updates
finally fingers start working again.. =)
Bali was nice.. wish i brought my mum though... i should remember to put down my itinearay one day lest i froget.. but today lazy :P
seems recently been more distrubed, but God says im not reaady. and all i wanna do is focus on Him and buildup my spritual life. To focus on God and rmembre Him in everything i do.
Should speak words that edify others only and words are important even God says so and i really need to have my life show and glorify HIm.
but it's not easy though. God give me the strength and build up my faith.
Bali was nice.. wish i brought my mum though... i should remember to put down my itinearay one day lest i froget.. but today lazy :P
seems recently been more distrubed, but God says im not reaady. and all i wanna do is focus on Him and buildup my spritual life. To focus on God and rmembre Him in everything i do.
Should speak words that edify others only and words are important even God says so and i really need to have my life show and glorify HIm.
but it's not easy though. God give me the strength and build up my faith.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
updates
had a bad day, phone dropped into my bowl of curry.. gotta get a new one.. missed my friend cos i was late and wait 3 hours in returncos of mis comm.
gotta blog more but lazy and super busy.. finally i dont need to watch the clock crawl at work..lurv it so far..
back in pil on wed to take stuff.. was fun toking to denise again.. gonna miss the whole bunch at work.. look fwd to seeing them again for dec celebrations =)
bali was nice and beautiful. should update more on it for a memorial sake.. next time wanna bring my mum there.. she would be fun =D =D
gotta blog more but lazy and super busy.. finally i dont need to watch the clock crawl at work..lurv it so far..
back in pil on wed to take stuff.. was fun toking to denise again.. gonna miss the whole bunch at work.. look fwd to seeing them again for dec celebrations =)
bali was nice and beautiful. should update more on it for a memorial sake.. next time wanna bring my mum there.. she would be fun =D =D
Monday, November 9, 2009
Bintan, SGH, Tragedy
Back from Bintan! i have to say this trip is unexpectedly pretty good. it's smaller gp this time and i say we really bonded more this trip esp in the unexpected fantastic prayer and worship session.. God is amazing and good! Good to go there again and know them more again.. going back in dec for their christmas celebrations..
WIll update about this in our cell blog! benson's birthday up next!
Cell prayed for Zi peh..really appreciate it.. i went SGH with family the moment i land back from bintan.. he is so pessimistic.. and really pray very hard he will make it this round................. so heartbreaking to see a goood man like him reduced to his current state..
Another heartbreak thing.. came back and heard from Bro in law of YET another family tragedy.. besides the list below that already disturbs me, a father because of loan shark debts, set the house on fire to burn his kids to death and then went on to jump down to his death from his flat.... oh manz.. what's going on in the world today..
Finally .. the change is done. an end to the current and a new beginning.. a way that God has paved. Pray He guide me in the path ahead.
WIll update about this in our cell blog! benson's birthday up next!
Cell prayed for Zi peh..really appreciate it.. i went SGH with family the moment i land back from bintan.. he is so pessimistic.. and really pray very hard he will make it this round................. so heartbreaking to see a goood man like him reduced to his current state..
Another heartbreak thing.. came back and heard from Bro in law of YET another family tragedy.. besides the list below that already disturbs me, a father because of loan shark debts, set the house on fire to burn his kids to death and then went on to jump down to his death from his flat.... oh manz.. what's going on in the world today..
Finally .. the change is done. an end to the current and a new beginning.. a way that God has paved. Pray He guide me in the path ahead.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Lament
i'm not a hunter, patience is not my strength.
I simply can't sit still ......and wait........
And the waiting is driving me hair pulling crazy
but yet i got to keep my cool
I felt like i'm being pulled in both directions
can't go fwd and i dont feel like going backwards
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so sad.. so many family tragedies.. recently
first it was the mother who jumped to death in front of the family when the father had an affair. then it was the father who raped the daughter, earlier on was the father attacking the wife in front of the son with parang, another one the mother killed the autistic son, then now the father threw acid killing the wife and blinding the teenage daughter.
so heart wrenching to see tragedies like that. It's not even the usual squabbles, it's pure hatred in the family, that could spill over to death and serious injury. What was meant as a safe haven and a source of love and protection became hell on earth....
I can only thank God that i got an excellent family...... my heart goes out to those in these family tragedies...
I simply can't sit still ......and wait........
And the waiting is driving me hair pulling crazy
but yet i got to keep my cool
I felt like i'm being pulled in both directions
can't go fwd and i dont feel like going backwards
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so sad.. so many family tragedies.. recently
first it was the mother who jumped to death in front of the family when the father had an affair. then it was the father who raped the daughter, earlier on was the father attacking the wife in front of the son with parang, another one the mother killed the autistic son, then now the father threw acid killing the wife and blinding the teenage daughter.
so heart wrenching to see tragedies like that. It's not even the usual squabbles, it's pure hatred in the family, that could spill over to death and serious injury. What was meant as a safe haven and a source of love and protection became hell on earth....
I can only thank God that i got an excellent family...... my heart goes out to those in these family tragedies...
Monday, November 2, 2009
halloween, Birthday,
met nicole for lunch at my favourite turkish food on sat bef she flies back melbourne.. it's been 4 years since i last saw her. omg. so long ago. nothing changed but her speech is gettin gmore and more accented. it's just her English.. Hohohoh!!
Then went costume shopping.. poured cats and dogs, thankfully we still in the shop choosing our costume.. in the end after 2 hour plus of choosing.. settled for a tribal look while candida went for the bloody witch look since there werent any jap girl uniform left..dinner celebrating candy's and Rx's birthday at Blue mountain in Iluma.. Zirca and attica is super long queue ah!! btw the time finish queing sure need entry charge.. so we went china one instead since there's free entry and no queue as yet.. heheheh
Then went costume shopping.. poured cats and dogs, thankfully we still in the shop choosing our costume.. in the end after 2 hour plus of choosing.. settled for a tribal look while candida went for the bloody witch look since there werent any jap girl uniform left..dinner celebrating candy's and Rx's birthday at Blue mountain in Iluma.. Zirca and attica is super long queue ah!! btw the time finish queing sure need entry charge.. so we went china one instead since there's free entry and no queue as yet.. heheheh
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Project X, Walk and photography class
finally completed my assignment and grading!! now im officially certified BPR practioner and red belt!! whew!!
Went watch Project X at esplanade on monday, darn cool!funk tap with hip hop and beat box on techno, latin, hip hop rockmusic..brough teresa and her son with the finace for somelocalfood.. too bad allthey are interested is alcohol cos they say "actually i can't be bothered bout food" then i dunno why they come singpore ..amazing.. 5 more mins to peformance and they still go order 1 pint each to drink.. and durin gdinner they drank8 cans in 1 hour just between 2 of them..
http://www.rawmetal.com.au/page.php?pid=141
attended a free intro photography class by gid... so trying totake some pics, not artistic at all.but playng around with off focus,action and reflexions..
took a long walk from dover singapore poly back home gombak.. took 2 hours to walk home..but feel really gd..fun.. and peaceful..maybe should try walking from buona vista..
miss these nice angsana, flame of the forest trees,
Huge, quiet, majestic and unassuming. Tolerant and generous of the life growing and dependants,
but yet strong enough to even break down the concrete pavement.
I wanna be like one of these trees also. Looks beautiful and unassuming, generous but yet strong in character also.
Went watch Project X at esplanade on monday, darn cool!funk tap with hip hop and beat box on techno, latin, hip hop rockmusic..brough teresa and her son with the finace for somelocalfood.. too bad allthey are interested is alcohol cos they say "actually i can't be bothered bout food" then i dunno why they come singpore ..amazing.. 5 more mins to peformance and they still go order 1 pint each to drink.. and durin gdinner they drank8 cans in 1 hour just between 2 of them..
http://www.rawmetal.com.au/page.php?pid=141
attended a free intro photography class by gid... so trying totake some pics, not artistic at all.but playng around with off focus,action and reflexions..
took a long walk from dover singapore poly back home gombak.. took 2 hours to walk home..but feel really gd..fun.. and peaceful..maybe should try walking from buona vista..
miss these nice angsana, flame of the forest trees,
Huge, quiet, majestic and unassuming. Tolerant and generous of the life growing and dependants,
but yet strong enough to even break down the concrete pavement.
I wanna be like one of these trees also. Looks beautiful and unassuming, generous but yet strong in character also.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Great weekend.
great party at chinaone last sat.. rachel's presence really make things a lot better when she came though =) Reach home at 6am just as my dad is getting ready to leave for work.. much to his anger.. the rest of the family are so worried history would repeat itself they didnt sleep either.. received msg at 1plus am.. phone calls at 2 am plus. phone calls at 5 am plus again also.
great worship service on sun. Loads to catch up with God and loads of things to seek forgiveness for. But thank God for his mercy and love. Now time, to get back on track. To fill my mind with His words and spirit and not the things of the world. To speak words that edify other's spirit and not just worldly encouragement.
Not by my strength but His strength. In my weakness may His glory be seen.
great worship service on sun. Loads to catch up with God and loads of things to seek forgiveness for. But thank God for his mercy and love. Now time, to get back on track. To fill my mind with His words and spirit and not the things of the world. To speak words that edify other's spirit and not just worldly encouragement.
Not by my strength but His strength. In my weakness may His glory be seen.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Female superficiality or Wealth is just a byproduct
More than a couple of times, we see a beautiful lady with a man with at best, average looks, but is rich, the usual statement is that the lady is after the guy's money. Afterall, what else can there be if the guy has no looks?
On the flip side, sometimes the fellow is rich cos of their ability, confidence and hard work. And with talents and confidence, they can get to where they are financially. (I'm not talking about folks who are rich cos they inherit things from parents) To cut the long crap short, they can possibly attract the beautiful girls cos they are confident, smart and possibly know how to treat a girl decent. And they are rich simply cos of those same qualities..
On the flip side, sometimes the fellow is rich cos of their ability, confidence and hard work. And with talents and confidence, they can get to where they are financially. (I'm not talking about folks who are rich cos they inherit things from parents) To cut the long crap short, they can possibly attract the beautiful girls cos they are confident, smart and possibly know how to treat a girl decent. And they are rich simply cos of those same qualities..
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sloppy
okay.. i can't stand guys who don't even have the decency to comb their hair!
Saw a guy this morning whose hair looked like he just woke up (and it's not a deliberate ruffled style)..
MY theory is how much does a guy need to do to at least look presentable?
1) Make up ? NOpe
2) Clothes? What choice do they have for office wear???? Simple if you just want to look neat and presentable, no need flashy.
3) shoes ? (they all look the same to me *yawn* )
4) bags? Okay this one is tricky, at office they still carry the bag they carry in uni or poly.. sux..
5) that leaves with hair only.. save for skin and body built which takes time to build up.. they only have hair to do up properly cos clothes and shoes and bags are easy.... but yet.. there are still lazy bums who don't bother to even spend 30 secs to comb their hair.. DUH!
If only everyone is like mr smart dressed in mrt. Hair styled check, facial hair trimed and designed, check. nice clothes and unique shoes? check. Agnes B bag. Check.
not to say that there should be an over focus on appearance, but you really got to look like you care or give a damn.. cos the body is yours , u dont take care, who can?
Compare that to a normal lady (one who bother) morning routine.
1) Toner, moisturiser
2) wait 10 min for skin to absorb
3) Make up( eye shadow, mascara blah, foundation, powerder, blusher etc)
4) choose clothes (simple? dressy? classy? flashy? sexy? professional?)
5) Find a bag to go with clothes ( can't clash in design and colour)
6) Choose jewelllery.. (and make sure they match, not clashing design)
7) style your hair
8) choose a shoe tat match too..
now tell me, is it so hard for a guy to at least comb his bloody hair!
Saw a guy this morning whose hair looked like he just woke up (and it's not a deliberate ruffled style)..
MY theory is how much does a guy need to do to at least look presentable?
1) Make up ? NOpe
2) Clothes? What choice do they have for office wear???? Simple if you just want to look neat and presentable, no need flashy.
3) shoes ? (they all look the same to me *yawn* )
4) bags? Okay this one is tricky, at office they still carry the bag they carry in uni or poly.. sux..
5) that leaves with hair only.. save for skin and body built which takes time to build up.. they only have hair to do up properly cos clothes and shoes and bags are easy.... but yet.. there are still lazy bums who don't bother to even spend 30 secs to comb their hair.. DUH!
If only everyone is like mr smart dressed in mrt. Hair styled check, facial hair trimed and designed, check. nice clothes and unique shoes? check. Agnes B bag. Check.
not to say that there should be an over focus on appearance, but you really got to look like you care or give a damn.. cos the body is yours , u dont take care, who can?
Compare that to a normal lady (one who bother) morning routine.
1) Toner, moisturiser
2) wait 10 min for skin to absorb
3) Make up( eye shadow, mascara blah, foundation, powerder, blusher etc)
4) choose clothes (simple? dressy? classy? flashy? sexy? professional?)
5) Find a bag to go with clothes ( can't clash in design and colour)
6) Choose jewelllery.. (and make sure they match, not clashing design)
7) style your hair
8) choose a shoe tat match too..
now tell me, is it so hard for a guy to at least comb his bloody hair!
Monday, October 12, 2009
ahhhH!!
God, i need to take care of my health, help me watch my words and my heart and take the anger and negativity out from me..
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Rushed assignment till 2 am on sat and yest... think need to stay clear of pc these 2 days.. waste too much electricity plus need to get out from sitting on my butt.. though i a bit tak boleh tahan went jogging.. got target to reach.. think i gain weight liao.. must lose back plus for the sake of my rocket high cholesterol and... all the weddings that i'll be attending next year..
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Grading is coming, cannot rest.. need to practise harder... got higher expectations..
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shiok.. 10 to 4 old testament survey. going to the torah class, 5 - 6:30 after that.. book of numbers.. i'll be thinking like an ancietn israeli in no time :p
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Rushed assignment till 2 am on sat and yest... think need to stay clear of pc these 2 days.. waste too much electricity plus need to get out from sitting on my butt.. though i a bit tak boleh tahan went jogging.. got target to reach.. think i gain weight liao.. must lose back plus for the sake of my rocket high cholesterol and... all the weddings that i'll be attending next year..
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Grading is coming, cannot rest.. need to practise harder... got higher expectations..
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shiok.. 10 to 4 old testament survey. going to the torah class, 5 - 6:30 after that.. book of numbers.. i'll be thinking like an ancietn israeli in no time :p
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
then and now
finally finish the BPR course!! but there are 2 difficult assignments to do... actually it's all doable if you appraoch like a school assignment project... but everybody in the course is a professional, and so are their damn reports.. fit for a management's reading manz... so the benchmark just shot up.. sigh..
came across old photos..can'thelp but do a comparision of me then and me now..wahahha
came across old photos..can'thelp but do a comparision of me then and me now..wahahha
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Lament
okay, lamenting session... cant help it..gotta lament one way or another, some time or another.. better here than bore someone face to face with it.
no surprise, but tired of being busy (half of it is cos of tkd although i usually enjoyed training and classes). if i didnt' cancel my appointment yest with mike, my week will look like that.
Mon training, tues training, wed mike, thurs discipling course, fri cell or class, sat OTS course then housewarming then mid autumn celebration..
surpisingly i'm quite looking fwd to the 2 course.. esp the OTS one, been waiting half a year for it.. the discipling one i signed up without hesistating dunno y.
Have anyone felt alone despite being around ppl and socialising all the time? This feeling seems to be getting quite acute recently. I feel alone, not lonely but alone despite being with ppl all the time. people that you thought u click with suddenly felt like a different frequency altogether now..Feels tiring to keep reaching out all the time but yet, if i dont' i feel guilty for not doing so. After my grading, i should take a one whole week off appointments including training and probably take a few days off work.. sounds good to me..
no surprise, but tired of being busy (half of it is cos of tkd although i usually enjoyed training and classes). if i didnt' cancel my appointment yest with mike, my week will look like that.
Mon training, tues training, wed mike, thurs discipling course, fri cell or class, sat OTS course then housewarming then mid autumn celebration..
surpisingly i'm quite looking fwd to the 2 course.. esp the OTS one, been waiting half a year for it.. the discipling one i signed up without hesistating dunno y.
Have anyone felt alone despite being around ppl and socialising all the time? This feeling seems to be getting quite acute recently. I feel alone, not lonely but alone despite being with ppl all the time. people that you thought u click with suddenly felt like a different frequency altogether now..Feels tiring to keep reaching out all the time but yet, if i dont' i feel guilty for not doing so. After my grading, i should take a one whole week off appointments including training and probably take a few days off work.. sounds good to me..
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
2 Things to be happy about =)
yeah.. got a belated birthday gift from VF. Johnny depp illustrated biography! =D=D=D .. yummy .. something unexpected
Any i got my hard disc finallY!! after delaying a few months cos no budget!! might not be the best performing one, but i feel it's gorgeous, my fave colour.. =) i can finally store wat ever i want how ever i want.. yeah!
Legs hurting from training, stil not happy with my own standard.. but not much mroe time to spare..
oct busy with church, on course on thurs night and sat 10 to 4.. cell changing to fri, which is very tight for me cos weekday is already exhasutingly busy for me liao.. =(
Any i got my hard disc finallY!! after delaying a few months cos no budget!! might not be the best performing one, but i feel it's gorgeous, my fave colour.. =) i can finally store wat ever i want how ever i want.. yeah!
Legs hurting from training, stil not happy with my own standard.. but not much mroe time to spare..
oct busy with church, on course on thurs night and sat 10 to 4.. cell changing to fri, which is very tight for me cos weekday is already exhasutingly busy for me liao.. =(
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Burnout...
"everyday it's You i live for, everyday , i'll follow after You"
don't burnt out , burn on for God.
it's good to be back in the house of the Lord... took this time to come before God to renew my spirit , ask for forgiveness, and try to get back to the routine. His forgivenss and love is sweet.. and there's no other place i want to be but in the house of the Lord.
Sermon is so ept for everyone, but i feel its really the right timing for me . really 2 busy, but also duno how to cut down my activities..how to put god first in the busyness... need Godto help me with it..
don't burnt out , burn on for God.
it's good to be back in the house of the Lord... took this time to come before God to renew my spirit , ask for forgiveness, and try to get back to the routine. His forgivenss and love is sweet.. and there's no other place i want to be but in the house of the Lord.
Sermon is so ept for everyone, but i feel its really the right timing for me . really 2 busy, but also duno how to cut down my activities..how to put god first in the busyness... need Godto help me with it..
Saturday, September 26, 2009
bt timah and bday pressies
ate so much on friday with cell bday celebration siah .. thankfully went bt timah early this morning hike for 3 hours to walk everything off (at least i hope :p ) see a lot of nice creatures.. most beautiful is this purple butterfly and also this bird with this long tail.. looks black, but oly under sunlight u can see glimpse of metallic blue.. unfortunately didnt' get to take pics of these 2.. cos i only got my lousy 2mp hp camera haha .. 
love towering trees =D
JD DVD from my cell mates!! =)
Coffee and coffee maker from my colleagues..
love all these that are given.. Crabtree from rachel, gift voucher from kean, earrings from ash and LF, alice in wonderland card pouch from aijia, perfume and bracelete from colleagues, and VS from someone in church whose name my sis forget!
Thanks everyone again!
love towering trees =D
JD DVD from my cell mates!! =)
Coffee and coffee maker from my colleagues..
love all these that are given.. Crabtree from rachel, gift voucher from kean, earrings from ash and LF, alice in wonderland card pouch from aijia, perfume and bracelete from colleagues, and VS from someone in church whose name my sis forget!
Thanks everyone again!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Birthday weekend..
Ah woke up completely forgotten that I need to go work today, thankfully my mum n sis gave me morning call. Tues blue!
Birthday weekend! And thankfully got long holiday, don’t need to take leave wahaha… Went with sheri the previous week to celebrate her birthday at the Turkish restaurant Alaturka. Fantastic food, great company and great ambience =)
Current colleagues are so sweet to take the effort to brain storm pressies for me and took the effort to jio for lunch for my bday.. and they got the gifts I really liked =) maybe should post some pics soon.. first batch of wishes that I find a partner soon.
Got a surprise call at midnight from a friend to start the great day, was nice of him to call and be the first to wish for the day.
Lunch with aijia, whose birthday is 2 days apart from mine also, her mum treated us for the lunch at nydc.. and again the wishes for this year that we find our partner soon. Ah dui!
Tea “party” at Tea chapter, drank the whole afternoon of tea with my ex colleagues, be guai a bit and drink something healthy, detox =P but so paiseh cos I forget to get a gift for Kean and charmayne whose birthday is in Aug.. stupid me.
Then night was Villa Bali with Rachel, martin and nicky, so sweet of them to celebrate my bday even though we just knew each other.. lurv and miss that place manz.. i really "guai" can, only drink mango juice and 1 burbon coke(yah it's ONLY Burbon coke, not long island!) went to nicky’s place to eat the cake she baked and pretended it’s a birthday cake for me hahaha.. the lassi tea or Indian tea she made is really nice even though I don’t’ typically drink tea..
Sun was helping my sis move house.. so sad.. 1 less to crap to when I go home.. liao. Then it was steamboat at her place for dinner.. then while I was “sparring” with my bro in law halfway, they sprang on me the surprise cake.. And here goes the birthday wish of hope I find my partner soon thingy also
Monday, the day of cleaning up after the exodus, and helping my mum to clear up and reorganize the house.. w/o my sis, got more house work to do liao.. *yawns* Then tkd seminar at night, spinning hook kick, 360 kick.. gosh! Fun!! But difficult!
Birthday weekend! And thankfully got long holiday, don’t need to take leave wahaha… Went with sheri the previous week to celebrate her birthday at the Turkish restaurant Alaturka. Fantastic food, great company and great ambience =)
Current colleagues are so sweet to take the effort to brain storm pressies for me and took the effort to jio for lunch for my bday.. and they got the gifts I really liked =) maybe should post some pics soon.. first batch of wishes that I find a partner soon.
Got a surprise call at midnight from a friend to start the great day, was nice of him to call and be the first to wish for the day.
Lunch with aijia, whose birthday is 2 days apart from mine also, her mum treated us for the lunch at nydc.. and again the wishes for this year that we find our partner soon. Ah dui!
Tea “party” at Tea chapter, drank the whole afternoon of tea with my ex colleagues, be guai a bit and drink something healthy, detox =P but so paiseh cos I forget to get a gift for Kean and charmayne whose birthday is in Aug.. stupid me.
Then night was Villa Bali with Rachel, martin and nicky, so sweet of them to celebrate my bday even though we just knew each other.. lurv and miss that place manz.. i really "guai" can, only drink mango juice and 1 burbon coke(yah it's ONLY Burbon coke, not long island!) went to nicky’s place to eat the cake she baked and pretended it’s a birthday cake for me hahaha.. the lassi tea or Indian tea she made is really nice even though I don’t’ typically drink tea..
Sun was helping my sis move house.. so sad.. 1 less to crap to when I go home.. liao. Then it was steamboat at her place for dinner.. then while I was “sparring” with my bro in law halfway, they sprang on me the surprise cake.. And here goes the birthday wish of hope I find my partner soon thingy also
Monday, the day of cleaning up after the exodus, and helping my mum to clear up and reorganize the house.. w/o my sis, got more house work to do liao.. *yawns* Then tkd seminar at night, spinning hook kick, 360 kick.. gosh! Fun!! But difficult!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Am I?
pouring out on my sis yest. felt a lot better now.. .. though my cell mates are really great with me about it. but told her i feel stuck but if i share with my christian friends, might not be a good incident to be frank about.. share with non christian outside friends, they will think it's no big deal in the first place.. she so funny, say best share with her " half christian-half wild person" haha. which is true..
she didn't berate me nor immediately go judgemental on me.. she didnt go at length at how bad it is, not because she didn't think there was anything wrong, but she knows i already know it's not right and beating myself up over it. but learn the lesson and get it over..
she said maybe it's not just i didn't had dinner.. but usually ppl get drunk more easily when they are in a lousy mood or nt happy..
now am i?
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Monday's bags was fun.. really pushed to the limit.. which is great!! conditioning was hilarious and tiring at the same time.. i'm so glad mr rivas is back at the helm of things for these 2 classes =D ^_^
one of the move is us doing a 'burpee" but after landing in the push up positon, we gotta squat into a low squat horse stance.. after doing it which push the hell out of us he sheepishly said he got the idea from kung fu panda.. hahahhahh!!! *flips*
she didn't berate me nor immediately go judgemental on me.. she didnt go at length at how bad it is, not because she didn't think there was anything wrong, but she knows i already know it's not right and beating myself up over it. but learn the lesson and get it over..
she said maybe it's not just i didn't had dinner.. but usually ppl get drunk more easily when they are in a lousy mood or nt happy..
now am i?
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Monday's bags was fun.. really pushed to the limit.. which is great!! conditioning was hilarious and tiring at the same time.. i'm so glad mr rivas is back at the helm of things for these 2 classes =D ^_^
one of the move is us doing a 'burpee" but after landing in the push up positon, we gotta squat into a low squat horse stance.. after doing it which push the hell out of us he sheepishly said he got the idea from kung fu panda.. hahahhahh!!! *flips*
Sunday, September 13, 2009
应该乖了
seriously.. i'm going to swear off clubbing for the rest of the year.. and i would try not to touch alcohol at all till end of the year.. God is so going to kill me.. the trouble i land myself into gets bigger and bigger.. 是时候检点一点，乖一点了。
Thursday, September 10, 2009
09.09.09
09.09.09
Beautiful date to get hitched and hence was so happy for Jade! Congrats girl!!! They looked and sound good together and I know they are really each other’s good friend and partner =) So happy to hear good news.. then on her lunch, lin hui’s colleague was sharing how him and his partner managed to survive a 3 year LDR and now they have been together for 5 years.. then read on Alvin’s blog and his touching entry on an expression of love for Amanda.. so sweet! *Cries, takes out tissue paper* =D
Went home to sleep for 20 mins and after that went joo chiat with mum and sis to pick up her curtains.. but me was so late my sis picked up already.. so just had the mee-goreng which is unfortunately not available. Sigh!! Went to their night market and curtain shopping.. so nice the curtains!! Malays had beautiful taste when it comes to decorating their homes manz! So hot I bought a batik fan :P
Sigh.. dont' wish to think too much about my sis moving out.. impact of it havent' sink in yet.. my best friend is moving out.... ..
me pretending to be a 公主after my sis said all the curtains made the whole place looked like palace wahahhaa ..
After that was excellent also manz.. met up with Rachel (which is superb) and know her friend Nicky.. both of them are really fun folks to hang out with.. very open and easy going.. had a great party at Dbl O ladies night! hehe.. Twice in a row someone in the group mentioned that I’m the first Singaporean they meet that work hard and party hard.. haha.. once was by Nicky (who is a brit) and by Crystal( I think) a Philippino girl.. either just too bad they have boring Singaporeans around them or Singaporeans are really boring! I think it’s just the former, at least I hope so :p
Beautiful date to get hitched and hence was so happy for Jade! Congrats girl!!! They looked and sound good together and I know they are really each other’s good friend and partner =) So happy to hear good news.. then on her lunch, lin hui’s colleague was sharing how him and his partner managed to survive a 3 year LDR and now they have been together for 5 years.. then read on Alvin’s blog and his touching entry on an expression of love for Amanda.. so sweet! *Cries, takes out tissue paper* =D
Went home to sleep for 20 mins and after that went joo chiat with mum and sis to pick up her curtains.. but me was so late my sis picked up already.. so just had the mee-goreng which is unfortunately not available. Sigh!! Went to their night market and curtain shopping.. so nice the curtains!! Malays had beautiful taste when it comes to decorating their homes manz! So hot I bought a batik fan :P
Sigh.. dont' wish to think too much about my sis moving out.. impact of it havent' sink in yet.. my best friend is moving out.... ..
me pretending to be a 公主after my sis said all the curtains made the whole place looked like palace wahahhaa ..
After that was excellent also manz.. met up with Rachel (which is superb) and know her friend Nicky.. both of them are really fun folks to hang out with.. very open and easy going.. had a great party at Dbl O ladies night! hehe.. Twice in a row someone in the group mentioned that I’m the first Singaporean they meet that work hard and party hard.. haha.. once was by Nicky (who is a brit) and by Crystal( I think) a Philippino girl.. either just too bad they have boring Singaporeans around them or Singaporeans are really boring! I think it’s just the former, at least I hope so :p
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Not Good
My mood is so tied to my training nowadays, and that is so not good.. now for the whole night and morning my mood is screwed because Mr Rivas aint teaching the bags anymore and the class is so not satisfying.... damnz
Found a school that teaches both kapap and BJJ.. i so wanna try both.. it'll be such a good complementary to my tkd training.. but so expensive.. 20/h.. 2 classes on sat.. that'll be 160 a month.. that means i'll be spending 300 bucks a month on just martial arts training.. hmm maybe i should tolerate and wait till i get my black belt in tkd first.. 1 more year.. aiseh aiseh.. jiayou.. i see a glimpse of the goal liao..
Found a school that teaches both kapap and BJJ.. i so wanna try both.. it'll be such a good complementary to my tkd training.. but so expensive.. 20/h.. 2 classes on sat.. that'll be 160 a month.. that means i'll be spending 300 bucks a month on just martial arts training.. hmm maybe i should tolerate and wait till i get my black belt in tkd first.. 1 more year.. aiseh aiseh.. jiayou.. i see a glimpse of the goal liao..
Monday, September 7, 2009
Kachar!
Kachar!! It was board Breaking seminar yesterday! It was fun! But I sux!! Wahahah… the punching and kicking with somebody holding one was easier.. but the one of the floor I can only do it after the second try. Sigh!
Palm strike, reverse punch, spinning back hook, back thrust, strike boards strke tiles. Fun! Can’t wait for the next one.. wish I could do it every month manz..
Left the place with bruised and bleeding knuckles.. :P and Mr Rivas damn funny , let me keep the board with my blood on it as “souvenir” hahahha..
On a separate note.. sermon was great.. simple and easy to understand.. Time of Transition.. A time when you are most vulnerable and likely to give up, but God is preparing you to bring you to the destination.. When you feel like giving up, don’t’ give up! The King still has a last move!! Amen! Don’t give up on cell ministry and future for me \^_^/
Palm strike, reverse punch, spinning back hook, back thrust, strike boards strke tiles. Fun! Can’t wait for the next one.. wish I could do it every month manz..
Left the place with bruised and bleeding knuckles.. :P and Mr Rivas damn funny , let me keep the board with my blood on it as “souvenir” hahahha..
On a separate note.. sermon was great.. simple and easy to understand.. Time of Transition.. A time when you are most vulnerable and likely to give up, but God is preparing you to bring you to the destination.. When you feel like giving up, don’t’ give up! The King still has a last move!! Amen! Don’t give up on cell ministry and future for me \^_^/
Friday, September 4, 2009
happiness
so happy and yet i'm so not happy..
So happy because i had my first (think might be d last) session (4got what's it's called, private session, private tutor , one on one?) with Mr Rivas.. something that oly the BBP students have.. my hardworkingness have paid off! and he asked on a day when i happen to lament to liangpin(fellow belt mate) that so sad hardly get taught under him liao because he seems to take fewer classes in bugis than before. and voila! got my wish granted heheh. corrected my Tulgok and my footwork for the hook kick family.. yippie.
So happy because i had my first (think might be d last) session (4got what's it's called, private session, private tutor , one on one?) with Mr Rivas.. something that oly the BBP students have.. my hardworkingness have paid off! and he asked on a day when i happen to lament to liangpin(fellow belt mate) that so sad hardly get taught under him liao because he seems to take fewer classes in bugis than before. and voila! got my wish granted heheh. corrected my Tulgok and my footwork for the hook kick family.. yippie.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Somalia in Nat Geo
Okay, time for something serious.. Every other featured issue in Nat Geo always gets me feeling emotional. In the latest issue, the editor and photographer made a very big risk to go into Somalia to do a feature.. In ground zero of the violence and chaos, most of the folks have left Mogadishu. However in a quote by the 15 yr old boy who stayed said: " I don't want to flee our own country. I don't want to be a refugee. We're ready to die here." When asked if he remembered the times when life is better, the boy again said "I don't remember any"
These are very heart breaking and fist wrenching statements. Peace in our country should not be taken for granted. And admist my grumbles about ppl from a particular country that i particularly dislike, at least i don't have half my friends dead from a bomb. With no stable government, no jobs, the boy featured earns only 2 or 3 bucks from selling the fish he caught while the extremists group which reined in the area offer him 150 bucks every month. No wonder there are so many extremists from the really under-developed countries.
What's interesting is the comparision with Somalialand. (hmm i didn't even know there's a difference between Somalia and Somalialand). The latter on the other hand with not much international aid manged to build a more stable (albeit still not successful) country.
Maybe i should study more about this tulmultous area..
On a stupid side note tracking away from the topic.. i forget to zip up this morning!! HOpefully nobody is awake enough to notice anything and thankfully I'm not wearing red colour inside.. else the traffice might just stop for me.. :p
These are very heart breaking and fist wrenching statements. Peace in our country should not be taken for granted. And admist my grumbles about ppl from a particular country that i particularly dislike, at least i don't have half my friends dead from a bomb. With no stable government, no jobs, the boy featured earns only 2 or 3 bucks from selling the fish he caught while the extremists group which reined in the area offer him 150 bucks every month. No wonder there are so many extremists from the really under-developed countries.
What's interesting is the comparision with Somalialand. (hmm i didn't even know there's a difference between Somalia and Somalialand). The latter on the other hand with not much international aid manged to build a more stable (albeit still not successful) country.
Maybe i should study more about this tulmultous area..
On a stupid side note tracking away from the topic.. i forget to zip up this morning!! HOpefully nobody is awake enough to notice anything and thankfully I'm not wearing red colour inside.. else the traffice might just stop for me.. :p
Monday, August 31, 2009
Party pics, Quote, down and out
"Do not be rash with your mouth,
And let not your heart utter anything hastily before God
For God is in heaven and you on earth, Therefore let your words be few
For a dream comes through much activity
and a fool's voice is known by his many words" Ecc 5:2-3
These are the words that leapt out at me as I skimmed through ecc, proverbs and malachi during my sat insomnia night.
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Had gastric flu/food poisioning in the later half of the week, lost of water had me losing 2 kg in 1 and half days.. never felt so weak before.. concussed out the whole day.. no wonder some folks say they rather not go through all the pain to lose that 2 kg.. i concurr that manz.
But recover in time for a birthday celebration on saturday.. great fellow someone really mature for his age..
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oh yeah.. picture's from stephanie's party.. miss her.. great girl manz..
Yuri and me ^_-
Stare mode! ^_%
Rachel, steph and me.
Teresa, me, steph, rachel and the german guy with unpronouncable and unspellable name :p
And let not your heart utter anything hastily before God
For God is in heaven and you on earth, Therefore let your words be few
For a dream comes through much activity
and a fool's voice is known by his many words" Ecc 5:2-3
These are the words that leapt out at me as I skimmed through ecc, proverbs and malachi during my sat insomnia night.
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Had gastric flu/food poisioning in the later half of the week, lost of water had me losing 2 kg in 1 and half days.. never felt so weak before.. concussed out the whole day.. no wonder some folks say they rather not go through all the pain to lose that 2 kg.. i concurr that manz.
But recover in time for a birthday celebration on saturday.. great fellow someone really mature for his age..
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oh yeah.. picture's from stephanie's party.. miss her.. great girl manz..
Yuri and me ^_-
Stare mode! ^_%
Rachel, steph and me.
Teresa, me, steph, rachel and the german guy with unpronouncable and unspellable name :p
Sunday, August 23, 2009
hort park, steph's party, HOlocaust and Sugihara
Really beautiful place in HortPark At night, good place to go to just chill out and have a bit of peace.. Thankfully the rain come just after the dinner.. though ruining our plans to go for a drink.. which is good cos it's a workday th next day!
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Fantastic party at steph's yesterday, crowd is smaller, but then the people are nicer this time round.. but so sad that steph's is leaving soon :( :( :(
caught up more with teresa, who i will ask to teach me spanish soon! and the detoit (dunn how to spell nor pronounce his name!) the german guy who got GPS in his head and sweet enough to bend down and help me wear my shoes.. both of them was so worried i wont' take it cos i had like so much alchohol (5 Sangreas, 2 whisky straight and not even on the rocks, and 1 beer at china one)
Rachel and yuri is really nice also .. rachel's another nice french that i coe to like in that short night and so is yuri, whose english is wonderful for a japanese .. will post some pics when i got it from Steph.
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oh and i've tried.. contemplated it, but i dont feel anything.
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watched a whole afternoon on d holocaust. first the auswitch series on BBC knowledge and straight after History Channel Feature on Sugihara. Although ikeep readng up on holocaust , you'll never stop being horrified and sad about it all. And what Sugihara did, Going against his government and approving all the visas that he can so that the jews of luthanasia can get out, the impact of its its really touching.. And he had to leave the post and leave a harsh life after that cos of what he did.
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Fantastic party at steph's yesterday, crowd is smaller, but then the people are nicer this time round.. but so sad that steph's is leaving soon :( :( :(
caught up more with teresa, who i will ask to teach me spanish soon! and the detoit (dunn how to spell nor pronounce his name!) the german guy who got GPS in his head and sweet enough to bend down and help me wear my shoes.. both of them was so worried i wont' take it cos i had like so much alchohol (5 Sangreas, 2 whisky straight and not even on the rocks, and 1 beer at china one)
Rachel and yuri is really nice also .. rachel's another nice french that i coe to like in that short night and so is yuri, whose english is wonderful for a japanese .. will post some pics when i got it from Steph.
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oh and i've tried.. contemplated it, but i dont feel anything.
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watched a whole afternoon on d holocaust. first the auswitch series on BBC knowledge and straight after History Channel Feature on Sugihara. Although ikeep readng up on holocaust , you'll never stop being horrified and sad about it all. And what Sugihara did, Going against his government and approving all the visas that he can so that the jews of luthanasia can get out, the impact of its its really touching.. And he had to leave the post and leave a harsh life after that cos of what he did.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Restlessness, business again!
I have this increasing restlessness within me.
Restlessness physically , Feel like doing more in tkd and training
Restlessness in upgrading, Really should upgrade myself in BPM and PM
Restless at work,
Restlessness in personal life
Training only on monday and wed this week.. tues went home recuperate after bags class. HOrtepark/southern bridge walk on thurs today, tom might go trianing or go home to prepare for lesson.. Sat cell in the morning (see if i can squeeze in gym), afternoon lunch with them, dinner with aijia, jiashi and ah mei(Yeah!), steph's farewell party.. next week also jammed packed.. maybe should stop jamming my weekday w training but always got the urge to go down and train whenever i have free days..
Need to sleep more. (pig pig is sure going to roll her eyes at me on this) Immune system is crap.. some fluish person sat beside me on the train and i got the bug again! Should check out TCM, western medicine is crap!!! TCM and accupunture! yeah yeah yeah!!
Restlessness physically , Feel like doing more in tkd and training
Restlessness in upgrading, Really should upgrade myself in BPM and PM
Restless at work,
Restlessness in personal life
Training only on monday and wed this week.. tues went home recuperate after bags class. HOrtepark/southern bridge walk on thurs today, tom might go trianing or go home to prepare for lesson.. Sat cell in the morning (see if i can squeeze in gym), afternoon lunch with them, dinner with aijia, jiashi and ah mei(Yeah!), steph's farewell party.. next week also jammed packed.. maybe should stop jamming my weekday w training but always got the urge to go down and train whenever i have free days..
Need to sleep more. (pig pig is sure going to roll her eyes at me on this) Immune system is crap.. some fluish person sat beside me on the train and i got the bug again! Should check out TCM, western medicine is crap!!! TCM and accupunture! yeah yeah yeah!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
LKY, Partner, Gene Simmons
Pissed off by what our LKY said, that there’s no need for new citizens to know English. That’s bad. What happen to his policy of English as first language to unite the people? What ‘s going to happen to the non-Chinese when stalls and service folks starts to understand only Mandarin? Citizens would be dying to flock out of the country and they start to wonder why citizens are craving to fly out of here. Enuf said.
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Need to fast internet this week at home. Already jammed packed with things to do whole week if i log on, i won't have time for God already.
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I fear finding a partner that I have to stick to for life. I’ve come to realize that when you face a person long enough you start to see more and more of their faults. And even if you try to ignore the faults, it comes to a point when all you can see is their faults. If it happens to acquaintances/friends how much more disastrous would it be if it’s the person you married and have to stick to for life? Now I come to know why people would divorce.
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There’s a 2 page article in Today about the Gene Simmons from K.I.S.S. I have to say it’s really interesting and it let me see that heavily made up singer in a more normal light. Although I don’t like his idea that girls doll themselves up just so men can shag them, but otherwise he has really surprising values despite being in the biggest rock and roll band. Especially on what he taught his kids that he doesn’t allow them to smoke, get drunk and take drugs and absolutely not to break their mum’s heart. That’s really neat coming from a guy like that. And the comment about willingly jumping in front of truck to save their kids.. reminds me of Johnny depp (whom I m having a major craze all over again now). It’s one of the best things, esp since he would have seen how drugs and drinks can ruin somebody’s life, with his experience in the entertainment biz.
Having said that, I have quite a few folks around me behaving like desperados that really ought to be shagged by men just so they can stop irritating the hell out of me with their desperation while acting like they are not.
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Need to fast internet this week at home. Already jammed packed with things to do whole week if i log on, i won't have time for God already.
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I fear finding a partner that I have to stick to for life. I’ve come to realize that when you face a person long enough you start to see more and more of their faults. And even if you try to ignore the faults, it comes to a point when all you can see is their faults. If it happens to acquaintances/friends how much more disastrous would it be if it’s the person you married and have to stick to for life? Now I come to know why people would divorce.
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There’s a 2 page article in Today about the Gene Simmons from K.I.S.S. I have to say it’s really interesting and it let me see that heavily made up singer in a more normal light. Although I don’t like his idea that girls doll themselves up just so men can shag them, but otherwise he has really surprising values despite being in the biggest rock and roll band. Especially on what he taught his kids that he doesn’t allow them to smoke, get drunk and take drugs and absolutely not to break their mum’s heart. That’s really neat coming from a guy like that. And the comment about willingly jumping in front of truck to save their kids.. reminds me of Johnny depp (whom I m having a major craze all over again now). It’s one of the best things, esp since he would have seen how drugs and drinks can ruin somebody’s life, with his experience in the entertainment biz.
Having said that, I have quite a few folks around me behaving like desperados that really ought to be shagged by men just so they can stop irritating the hell out of me with their desperation while acting like they are not.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Dreams...
Gosh.. woke up feeling like I’m in the middle of a battlefield and I had to wreck my brain and think where the hell I am, when I’m still smack in bed. I could still remember half my action packed movie-dream pretty vividly though.
Initially I was watching as a third party, was in the car with someone whose face I can’t remember nor know of. And I watched a lady of whom supposedly is an acquaintance, go up the steps of what looks like a building of a museum. It was pouring heavily and after the lady stepped in, another guy went in after her with the intent of abducting or causing harm. it's there so apparently on his expression. Next thing I remembered, the guy in the car, Mr Faceless and I had to rush in to rescue the lady. Suddenly, all of us are in the jeep and Mr faceless was frantically driving the jeep backwards and all at the same time we were firing shots at the enemies at the same time. Adrenaline was pumping and panic rising as though we were in the movies.
We couldn’t outdrive them and hence decide to ditch the car. Mr faceless at this anxious moment plucked out 2 bags very much like a parachute bag and activated a button and Viola! We are able to float up the sky like the characters in the movie “UP”. Thankfully we are able to float up to the rooftop of the buildings just in time to avoid the pursuit of the enemies. However, the enemies noticed us up there and we had to escape from the rooftop. I looked down from the rooftop of the building knowing that I had to jump off the building not knowing if the floating gadget can really hold up, with the stomach rising up to my throat and chest constricting in panic in my dream, I jumped floated and flew in the air for a moment . and then……. The alarm went off… *Damn*
Initially I was watching as a third party, was in the car with someone whose face I can’t remember nor know of. And I watched a lady of whom supposedly is an acquaintance, go up the steps of what looks like a building of a museum. It was pouring heavily and after the lady stepped in, another guy went in after her with the intent of abducting or causing harm. it's there so apparently on his expression. Next thing I remembered, the guy in the car, Mr Faceless and I had to rush in to rescue the lady. Suddenly, all of us are in the jeep and Mr faceless was frantically driving the jeep backwards and all at the same time we were firing shots at the enemies at the same time. Adrenaline was pumping and panic rising as though we were in the movies.
We couldn’t outdrive them and hence decide to ditch the car. Mr faceless at this anxious moment plucked out 2 bags very much like a parachute bag and activated a button and Viola! We are able to float up the sky like the characters in the movie “UP”. Thankfully we are able to float up to the rooftop of the buildings just in time to avoid the pursuit of the enemies. However, the enemies noticed us up there and we had to escape from the rooftop. I looked down from the rooftop of the building knowing that I had to jump off the building not knowing if the floating gadget can really hold up, with the stomach rising up to my throat and chest constricting in panic in my dream, I jumped floated and flew in the air for a moment . and then……. The alarm went off… *Damn*
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
extended hols!
lalala...hols over! okay i shouldn't be so excited.. but figured for a change i shall not be gloomy about it cos there's enuf ppl being gloomy about end of hols hahahha! ^_^
i never do much for the hols though, prayer and power on friday night. but had a great shopping with ruby . . and i bought my first 2 pairs of bikini haha .. should head out to the beach with it soon hehehe .. sun was great.. had a birthday celebration with a bunch of folks whose company i enjoy :) and participate in the sis's proposal suprise hahha .. Then it was church meeting at conrad.. food was great .. i simply went in 3 quarts and tshirt, but some of the youth dress like they really going wedding lunch manz.. *faint*.. then someone say oh that's their usual style.. wah liew.. so much effort for usual style. hahah..
I was in such a holiday mood though i finally brought out my tequila and contreau to start making my own tequila sunrise.. yippie!!! but i think the concoction yest a bit too strong a bit mabok before i sleep siah :p was bugging peter my BIL to buy some lychee or peach liquer or something next trip back so i can make some magaritta hahha.. shiok.
but lazy me! 3 days holidays and i didnt' do my face mask, hair mask, didnt get a chance to exercise, didnt do manicure and didnt' do my accupuncture .. *wasted*!!
i never do much for the hols though, prayer and power on friday night. but had a great shopping with ruby . . and i bought my first 2 pairs of bikini haha .. should head out to the beach with it soon hehehe .. sun was great.. had a birthday celebration with a bunch of folks whose company i enjoy :) and participate in the sis's proposal suprise hahha .. Then it was church meeting at conrad.. food was great .. i simply went in 3 quarts and tshirt, but some of the youth dress like they really going wedding lunch manz.. *faint*.. then someone say oh that's their usual style.. wah liew.. so much effort for usual style. hahah..
I was in such a holiday mood though i finally brought out my tequila and contreau to start making my own tequila sunrise.. yippie!!! but i think the concoction yest a bit too strong a bit mabok before i sleep siah :p was bugging peter my BIL to buy some lychee or peach liquer or something next trip back so i can make some magaritta hahha.. shiok.
but lazy me! 3 days holidays and i didnt' do my face mask, hair mask, didnt get a chance to exercise, didnt do manicure and didnt' do my accupuncture .. *wasted*!!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
back to work
After 2 consecutive weekend of traveling I so wanna nua and rest.. Monday training, Tuesday watch public enemies, wed training and birthday celebration, thurs training. Fri so far free else go down bugis for quick grab of something.. The rest of the holiday weekend I’m so not going to plan for anything else.. I so need to rest manz. Otherwise my mum going to kill me at the rate I keep disappearing from home. But then there’s still something occurring no matter how much I want to keep it free… sat cell cum paint Eunice room, sun ktv , mon leader’s meeting.
Have to say I’m losing steam at work, enuf said.
Just finished Public enemies but that's another entry ")
Have to say I’m losing steam at work, enuf said.
Just finished Public enemies but that's another entry ")
batam hols!
Had a great holiday at batam last weekend.. okay granted the programs planned aren’t anything fantastic but the company was great and they are a bunch of great ppl, fun , humourous and super easy going.
ZG forever funny with his occasional injections of funny jokes and humour.. Piru whom we see only the first time, but super sweet girl and easy to talk to. Alvin aka our Ali forever talking about sleep and food and ironically don’t’ want to get any more tanned. LF and her interest in massages splurges hahahha
It’s our first holiday together after knowing each other so long since JC (okay granted we lost contact for a few years :p ) but it’s a good time together before Ali leaves for US for 1 and half a year.
Going to post some pictures soon.
ZG forever funny with his occasional injections of funny jokes and humour.. Piru whom we see only the first time, but super sweet girl and easy to talk to. Alvin aka our Ali forever talking about sleep and food and ironically don’t’ want to get any more tanned. LF and her interest in massages splurges hahahha
It’s our first holiday together after knowing each other so long since JC (okay granted we lost contact for a few years :p ) but it’s a good time together before Ali leaves for US for 1 and half a year.
Going to post some pictures soon.
Friday, July 31, 2009
gain weight
shit! i've gained weight! weeks of taking note of my food intake and exercise gone down the train with just 1 and half week of resting from exercise cos of my heel and flu.. shucks!!!
Come monday, i need to lose it all back again.. jia you!
Come monday, i need to lose it all back again.. jia you!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Committ
Seems i really need to commit my mind and thoughts to God, maybe it's spiritual warfare that my tots went wild before and during mission trip? or maybe it's my insufficient leaning on Him that my tots went wild?
in any case, Thank God I'm saved and it justs shows, I need Him.
in any case, Thank God I'm saved and it justs shows, I need Him.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
失望， 情绪化，mission trip
finally mission trip is over..
the ppl in my cell are great.. ready to fullfill God's calling and use their giftings and strength to the max.. it was a wonderful trip, despite major changes, but all things work out good for those who love Him, in face the changes are even better cos it frees up even more resources for each event..
home visitation is good, managed to know a few more families, ppl are really nice friendly and hospitable.. gosh.. think some of them dun really wanna cook, but avail themselves sorry guys, i really lost in the kitchen one.. better stick to wat i do better, talking to strangers :p too many wonderful things from the cell, better post in our cell blog instead.. oh yah. have to add.. THE STARS ARE BEAUTITFUL!!! WHOLE SKY OF THEM, I'VE FULLFILLED MY DREAM OF GAZING AT A NIGHT OF STARS. . yippie! =D
在好事之中唯一的污点， 就是我这个周末非常情绪化。事实上， 虽然有很多好事，可是我一点都不高兴。也很难仔细地说为什么。是因为我那没安全感的性格又在作祟还是，这礼拜觉得对人和朋友非常失望， 还是我又是想太多， 就觉得一切的烦恼和顾虑都忽然变得庞大。 俗语说，靠山山倒， 靠人人跑， 靠神最好。 真觉得，我不高兴时，难道真的要直接说出口才会有人知道，还是要我大声嚷嚷才有人发觉吗？ 还是我一直尽量这样关心我的朋友，而就会有一种期待有人也会为我这样做。
可是人，总会是让人失望。
the ppl in my cell are great.. ready to fullfill God's calling and use their giftings and strength to the max.. it was a wonderful trip, despite major changes, but all things work out good for those who love Him, in face the changes are even better cos it frees up even more resources for each event..
home visitation is good, managed to know a few more families, ppl are really nice friendly and hospitable.. gosh.. think some of them dun really wanna cook, but avail themselves sorry guys, i really lost in the kitchen one.. better stick to wat i do better, talking to strangers :p too many wonderful things from the cell, better post in our cell blog instead.. oh yah. have to add.. THE STARS ARE BEAUTITFUL!!! WHOLE SKY OF THEM, I'VE FULLFILLED MY DREAM OF GAZING AT A NIGHT OF STARS. . yippie! =D
在好事之中唯一的污点， 就是我这个周末非常情绪化。事实上， 虽然有很多好事，可是我一点都不高兴。也很难仔细地说为什么。是因为我那没安全感的性格又在作祟还是，这礼拜觉得对人和朋友非常失望， 还是我又是想太多， 就觉得一切的烦恼和顾虑都忽然变得庞大。 俗语说，靠山山倒， 靠人人跑， 靠神最好。 真觉得，我不高兴时，难道真的要直接说出口才会有人知道，还是要我大声嚷嚷才有人发觉吗？ 还是我一直尽量这样关心我的朋友，而就会有一种期待有人也会为我这样做。
可是人，总会是让人失望。
Friday, July 24, 2009
restless sleep, acupuncture, jamiroquai , bintan..
Can’t really sleep well these few days, keep having a lot of restless dreams. The previous night I had a gun fight in my dream with ppl jumping off the building, my mum and I had H1N1.. etc. yesterday dunno what I dreamt forget liao but I think also action packed siah, then woke up wet cos starting raining at 4 plus and my bed is under the window.. -_-|||
Ahh the wonders of acupuncture.. not completely well yet, it did release a considerable amount of pain in my heal after the first session! Amazing!! TCM Rocks!! I bet the GP will just give me pain killer or something lor \0_0/
Oh yah.. I’m so in love with Jamiroquai all over again!! I’m going seek out his albums and hope they are cheaper now! Hehehe
Haven’t been talking to God much these few days and everytime it happens my insecurities will start to surface, really thankful God saved me, else I’m definitely a much worse off person that I am now. Tom is bintan trip, pray everyone will be safe and that God will use us, no matter how weak we are, for His work there.
In our weakness, may His strength be seen.
Ahh the wonders of acupuncture.. not completely well yet, it did release a considerable amount of pain in my heal after the first session! Amazing!! TCM Rocks!! I bet the GP will just give me pain killer or something lor \0_0/
Oh yah.. I’m so in love with Jamiroquai all over again!! I’m going seek out his albums and hope they are cheaper now! Hehehe
Haven’t been talking to God much these few days and everytime it happens my insecurities will start to surface, really thankful God saved me, else I’m definitely a much worse off person that I am now. Tom is bintan trip, pray everyone will be safe and that God will use us, no matter how weak we are, for His work there.
In our weakness, may His strength be seen.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Bready!
finally! grading is over! i can get back to training for the sake of enjoying tkd itself like bags , self defense and sparring.. hehe .. red tip here i come!
Mum just came from KL with my auntie her sis, and bought us all a couple of "bread" hp chain.. my sis liked tis act but she gave it to me knowing i would like it.. hehe. i shall call it Bready! hahahha so cute right?!
my new hair cut and me bored in a place i dont' want to say where.. LOL!
Mum just came from KL with my auntie her sis, and bought us all a couple of "bread" hp chain.. my sis liked tis act but she gave it to me knowing i would like it.. hehe. i shall call it Bready! hahahha so cute right?!
my new hair cut and me bored in a place i dont' want to say where.. LOL!
Friday, July 17, 2009
tragedies, grading. haircut.. travelling.
Whole lot of tragedy this week
Yet another airline crash, this time an Iranian airline.
Yet another muslim terrorist threat, this time against the Han Chinese in XinJiang
Yet another bombing attack in Jakarta, this time against Marriot and Ritz Carlton
Israel soldiers admitting that civilians are used as shields in the attack
And these are only those that I remembered only happy news is, Singapore is out of a recession, at least growth this last month.
It’s grading weekend again, been practicing my back hook and spinning back hook. No chance of double promo already, just want to pass. I just want to improve my sparring, close the gap between mind and body.
Busy like hell recently, busy training, Short term mission trip for our cell coming up, my own batam trip with friends, organizing birthday celebrations, organizing testimonies for video filiming, going to bring my parents to clarke quay hehe..
Just cut my hair this week.. new look new image.. happy about it.. =)D
Yet another airline crash, this time an Iranian airline.
Yet another muslim terrorist threat, this time against the Han Chinese in XinJiang
Yet another bombing attack in Jakarta, this time against Marriot and Ritz Carlton
Israel soldiers admitting that civilians are used as shields in the attack
And these are only those that I remembered only happy news is, Singapore is out of a recession, at least growth this last month.
It’s grading weekend again, been practicing my back hook and spinning back hook. No chance of double promo already, just want to pass. I just want to improve my sparring, close the gap between mind and body.
Busy like hell recently, busy training, Short term mission trip for our cell coming up, my own batam trip with friends, organizing birthday celebrations, organizing testimonies for video filiming, going to bring my parents to clarke quay hehe..
Just cut my hair this week.. new look new image.. happy about it.. =)D
Friday, July 10, 2009
Morning Jog
Actually woke up at 6am to go jogging before coming to work.. SHIOK! Happy with the temporary discipline haha. Actually wanted to jog yesterday, but meeting over-run so no time to run.. plus that one slice of my sis’s birthday cake :p
Jogging is always a good time for me to pray, the longer u run the longer u pray, which is good esp if it’s early in the morning.. Takes yr mind of the tiredness anyway.
This is my neighbourhood in the morning.. love the dew hanging on the trees up on the hill and the neighbourhood down below at the “valley” ..
And our multi purpose carpark haha. Where ppl go jogging, taichi, sword and fan practicing, boxing, blading, cycling, bbq-ing, qi-going, hanging , out chit chatting, hanging of their clothes and making out (to the audience of all the blocks all around hehe)
It's actually very big, it stretches from the foreground right to where the tree is at the far end of the picture ..
On a side note,
Ps Wayne says our faith has to be contagious, I’m not sure if mine is, I don’t think so though, but I pray that one day I will…
Jogging is always a good time for me to pray, the longer u run the longer u pray, which is good esp if it’s early in the morning.. Takes yr mind of the tiredness anyway.
This is my neighbourhood in the morning.. love the dew hanging on the trees up on the hill and the neighbourhood down below at the “valley” ..
And our multi purpose carpark haha. Where ppl go jogging, taichi, sword and fan practicing, boxing, blading, cycling, bbq-ing, qi-going, hanging , out chit chatting, hanging of their clothes and making out (to the audience of all the blocks all around hehe)
It's actually very big, it stretches from the foreground right to where the tree is at the far end of the picture ..
On a side note,
Ps Wayne says our faith has to be contagious, I’m not sure if mine is, I don’t think so though, but I pray that one day I will…
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Michael Jackson
As much as i love MJ, his magic, his inspiration to the new generation artistes, but to the point where the media has been talking non stop about his will, his autopsy, his children , seriously give that man and his kids a break.
Having said that, I can't say i'm the greatest fan, i have only the HIStory album and i'm one of those that's MJ fans are rolling their eyes on because i'm only going to grab his album after he passed away, but it's always great to remember a great artiste that once lived right? Newspaper reports that the "tributes" popping all over town are doing the dead a great disrespect cos they only wanted to cash in on the event, but if it's a win- win situation why not? the Fans get to feast on MJ songs and the organisers get some publicity.
Anyway to side track.. i need a pair of good shoes, heals are hurting like hell..
caught a quote in an email, it's not that you save too little but you spend too much.
Having said that, I can't say i'm the greatest fan, i have only the HIStory album and i'm one of those that's MJ fans are rolling their eyes on because i'm only going to grab his album after he passed away, but it's always great to remember a great artiste that once lived right? Newspaper reports that the "tributes" popping all over town are doing the dead a great disrespect cos they only wanted to cash in on the event, but if it's a win- win situation why not? the Fans get to feast on MJ songs and the organisers get some publicity.
Anyway to side track.. i need a pair of good shoes, heals are hurting like hell..
caught a quote in an email, it's not that you save too little but you spend too much.
Monday, July 6, 2009
pizzas, transformers, durian feast , german sausages., beer..
whole weekend is burst my diet day haha. last week eat pancake.. starting on friday we had durian feast.. loads of durians.. and it was wiped out when we reach at 10pm to buy after pnp.. sheeze.. but it's still good those packet ones.. ruby bought loads of rambutans and mangosteens and they are suprisingly nice.. hehe reach home at 1130 kena 'suan" by dad liao. cos reaching home late everyday..
early in the morning sat go candys place, all right 1130 am is not very early but woke up early to go gym first.. reached there starving thankfully candida treated pizzas.. yum yum.. curry beef hehe..oh yah we were there to discuss on indo trip details hahaha
went watch tranformers.. i love both but i think i like part 1.. there are more sub plots but i like the action teh bombing the robots tranformation etc.. and of cos soundtrack..ali was funny ah.. show haven't start already finish the snacks and our show ended later than expected TJ and ZG had to roam around city hall first searching for broteiz.. but it's great to catch up with them, can't believe it's been 10 years manz... sigh hahhah.. looking fwd to batam trip with them.. =D
early in the morning sat go candys place, all right 1130 am is not very early but woke up early to go gym first.. reached there starving thankfully candida treated pizzas.. yum yum.. curry beef hehe..oh yah we were there to discuss on indo trip details hahaha
went watch tranformers.. i love both but i think i like part 1.. there are more sub plots but i like the action teh bombing the robots tranformation etc.. and of cos soundtrack..ali was funny ah.. show haven't start already finish the snacks and our show ended later than expected TJ and ZG had to roam around city hall first searching for broteiz.. but it's great to catch up with them, can't believe it's been 10 years manz... sigh hahhah.. looking fwd to batam trip with them.. =D
Friday, July 3, 2009
house party at steph's
Steph and me! so going to miss her in class, we were all in the same belt level.. my clique now left with Sherie and me..
Teresa the latino-australian-now-staying-in-singapore lady with steph and me. She was sharing about the latino parties back home when she grew up, boy! made me wanna attend one, dance the whole night away party non stop, fantastic food. hmmmm..maybe i should find a latino hahah
Some of the folks are really nice and friendly, like these two who is super new to singapore (whose names slipped my mind completely :p )
hehehe we were commenting on what's the same same but different part and i commented on my fake tatoo so i pointed to jerry and told them he got a real one hahaha.. so up goes the shirt and there goes the camera hahah
