Friends?

I' have to say i'm disappointed with my friends around me. Im easily a friend to others, but how many can i say likewise that they are a friend to you? Who can i count on when i'm down? WHo can i trust with my secrets and not be laughed at? how many friends i know are willing to take time to spend with me and hear me confide? I think not a lot. In fact 2 of what i consider my dear friends keep giving me excuses when i asked them out to celebrate my birthday. In fact they keep saying they have work to do etc other appointments. Personally, it's all a matter of priority and i'm certainly not their priority. Another person whom i consider my friend, i was willing to hear the person confide in the problems, but when i'm done and i sent out a msg all i get is "no comments" and though was asked what's the problem but when i highlight my problem, all i get is silence and no reply. what the hell. And to think i treat this person as a good friend, someone i can share excitements and downs with. I guess i was dead wrong. It is really hard to find someone to share and DON"T END UP THEY SHARE THEIR PROB WITHOUT LISTENING TO MINE. They just remember they them themselves and u end up feeling more fed up than ever. Either that or they just brush you off saying "aiyah it's like that one lah", or "it's common" or "suan le loh". The point is now how big my problem is, it could be a damn small issue. but the point is i need a listening ear and your sincerity as a friend. dammit.

So then, what am i left with? Is it because I'm not willing to take the first step and trust someone with my problems or is it really cos ppl don't bother anymore.

i jus tknow i'm damn pissed, dead disappointed, depressed and given up hope on my friends.