Haz and my liberal views

finallY! haz my dear friend is back.. suddenly wished she could be here more permanently... so glad to see she is enjoying her pregnancy and nope she don't waddle like a duck like she keep saying she does.. there we were in JC talking about kids and how it feels to be pregnant and here we are talkinga bout her pregnancy and feeling her stomach looking at her ultra sound... all those catching up... 4 hours fly by easily manz and i could have stayed even longer if not for the fact it's 11:30pm at night with work tomorrow heheh.. i'll definitely pop by more often happy shopping for baby clothes!

A colleague made a comment today.. i forget what triggered this conversation but i only remmebered the dumbfounding jaw dropping statement:"not like you (me alice) right, always F*** around" my jaw literally dropped and half of me just stared at him and half of me wanted to push him off the stairs.. and yes, true to lawrence's expectations i'm putting it on the blog. actualy to say i was insulted was an understatement..

i have to admit, i'm pretty open to the topic of sex and everything to do with one's sexuality and temptations and blah blah.. Friends who know me welll know i don't shy away from topics like that.. it's something that In the strictest opinion is a beautiful gift that God had given to worship Him in marriage. but i also know ppl are mis using them outside marriages.

I talk to ex colleagues, friends, gfs, guy friends, buddies about their own sexual life, one night stands, sexual experience, preference blah blah and i don't usually blink an eye about it, in fact this is not the first time i'm blogging about it, i've blogged about this topic last year on my opinions about premaritial sex also http://melancholicjoy-mood.blogspot.com/2007/09/premaritial-sex.html

I am open to the fact that ppl are doing it outside marriages, i m liberal about things ppl do, am aware what goes on in the world behind closed doors, but doesn't mean i myself am liberal enough to do it myself because i know God says it's wrong and I have no intention to go against God on it. I have decided to stand firm on this for God, but i talk about it because i know it's part of who my friends are and im not and dont' intend to be an ignorance fool.

now have i for a matter of fact become too liberal and too open to talk about it in casual conversations that i'm mistaken to have done it myself and is F***ing around? probably tat's something i need to think about.

wedding!

too many things happening too little time.. weekend major event.. my sister's wedding..of which i was a bit nervous for the dinner.. cos many things to coordinate.. music, march in, march in song, bridal montage, own montage.. will definitely post more pictures after getting the more pro shots from the camera man... but my own theme was indian style for the night!

never got a chance to properly sit down and eat though.. and boy so much clearing to do, before during and after... at the end of the night i was clearing so many ants i was seeing ants in my sleep

Stupid survey please send me back

okay .. this can be dumb.. but hey ! send me back so i can know more bout u =)

· 1. What time did you get up this morning? 8 plus supposed to be 7 plus.. :p snooze too much
2. Diamonds or pearls? Erm. Neither!!! Need and don’t like both hahaha
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema ? Quantum of solace! Company event.. free de hehe.
4. What is your favorite TV show? CSI New york!! Without a doubt.
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Bread and mIlk?? Bee hoon if I go office to have breakfast. ..
6. What is your middle name? Wah liew.. surname have.. to heck with middle name.. unless Lin Hui Yan, middle name Hui wahaha..
7. What food do you dislike? A lot! Erm french food? hehehe
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Metallica and James Blunt. heheh
9. What kind of car do you drive? Suzuki, I wish! Alamak still learning how to drive lah.
10. Favorite sandwich? Erm.. can I say I don’t like sandwich, fullstop. Something that doesn’t fill u up hehe
11. What characteristic do you despise? Social inconsiderate fools and rude customer service…
12: Favorite item of clothing? Jeans!!
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, you´d go to hmm.. this is difficult.. anywhere different from Singapore!
14. Are you an organized person? Once in a blue moon…
15: Where would you retire to? Doesn’t matter, as long as you can afford your own retirement heheh
16: What was your most recent memorable birthday? Last year’s… a lot of celebrations, and surprises from folks who I didn’t expect would celebrate…

17. What are you going to do when you finish this? Clear up the house!
18. Furthest place you are sending this? Just here in my blog.
19. Person you expect to send it back first? Tak tahu siah!
20. When is your birthday? Virgoan baby …
21. What is your shoe size? Erm dunno manz.. I usually take the display and tell them plus or minus.. hehehe
22. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My mum.
23. How many Pets? How about Virtual Pets?
24 Any new and exciting news? I’m getting married!
25. What did you want to be when you were little? Psychologist!
26. How are you today? Is the author running out of questions?????!!!!!
27: Favorite flower? Tulips, lilies, daisies, roses, carnations, any flower is usually nice!
28. What are you listening to right now? In the ayer..
29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? HOliday

30. What was the last thing you ate? Egg porridge…
31. Do you wish on stars? For wat?? Pray to God la.
32. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Hmm.. Turqoise! Cos sometimes you see me I might be green, another time I’ll be blue.
35. Favorite soft drink? Nope, nope soft drink..
36. Favorite restaurant? Eh nope. How about fave pub ;)
37. Hair color? Copper Red.
38. What was your favorite toy as a child? Some old bear…
39. Summer or Winter? Winter
41. Chocolate or Vanilla? Choc!
42. Coffee or tea ? Definitely coffee.. I’m an addict manz..
43. Do you want your friends answer? Sure! It’ll be interesting..
44. When was the last time you cried? I can’t bloody remember siah…
45. What is under your bed? Bags!
46. What did you do last night? Went for a drink at timbre…
47. What are you afraid of? Flying insects!
48. Salty or sweet? Sweet..
49. How many keys on your key ring? 3
50. How many years at your current job? 1 and half?
51. Favorite day of the week? Friday
52. Do you make friends easily? Yip .

53. Do you like finding out all this stuff about your friends? Of Cos!

Time at Timbre

Impromptu nite with my cell folks after finally finishing clearing my stupid room.. wah the layers of dust.. omg..


3 beautiful girls =) so sweet rightt.. owww..


hey.. whose hand is that??



this is after finally countless shots which mike is tired hahah .. have to reeducate the guys.. sometimes zi pai is more fun that ppl take for you heheh

Looks greedy yeah? hehe

ramblings

忽然间，有一股冲动想于华文来写我的部落阁。

我学tkd 已将近一年了，可笑的事，我老妈还在问我，为设么学啦， 女孩子家那么粗鲁不好设么的。咳， 真是不了解，这是我从小的梦想， 反正不学也是粗鲁了 有设么关系. =D

在报章读到，有人在考虑把白老虎灭掉，嗨！可怕的不是老虎， 它们只是做出他们本性的动作。 一个人去惹那只老虎，难道它们会置之不理吗？人类才是最可怕的。明明是我们闯进了动物的地盘， 我们还说它们倾入了我们的范围， 把它们干警杀绝，真是感到遗憾。

okie. enuf of writing inmandarin.. super tiring and slow to type in mandarin.. 3 hours of lesson straight siah.. tiring...i like the new korean coach.. veyr friendly and you can really tell he is trying his best despite his lousy english. and the way his eyes light up with passion when he teach, that's super inspiring.. like watching him perform the moves, today look at him do the black belt poomsae watch until i didnt' even know santos crept up to me, actually nope he didn't creep up, he openly walk up, wahahha give me ashock manz hehehe. And stupid sherie hahaha so funny. she look so young even though she is 24 the korean coach ask her how old is she, she still have the wits to say "24, am i older than you still?" hehhehe.. and poor guy he didn't even know he kena suan hahah

Had a new girl in tkd class yest.. was introducing around and santos was telling her who the other fellow germans are.. etc.. then i suddenly realise.. singaporeans are really minority there liao! watever population of chinese there are, majority are malaysians.. where are the singaporeans???

Shiok session at tkd

for a moment in time, i 've forgotten how good it feels to have a good session at tkd... how physically releasing... to know you have tried to push yrself further... to release the stress building up throughout the day, and most of all, it relieves my mind of all the whirlwind bothersome thoughts swirling through my mind..

sometimes i really think too much, oh God, help me to focus just on you, keep my mind on the things of God... "in all things, pray , and the peace of God that transcends all understanding will be upon you." Phi 4

old outdated birthday pic and ecp

Was flipping through my dismal pictures folder when i came across the pictures for my birthday with my cell and when i was updating my blog, i said will put up just too sleepy.. wah kauz.. i really damn slow.. really Thank God for this bunch of folks where i can be who i am without having to put a front.. =)

really have a great weekend.. cycling and KTV with mel, yannie and the ever so cute denise. ... Yak yak yak it's too early but everyone surprisingly woke up in time hehe. esp for mel and yannie.. who both slept at 2 plus or 3 am.. and have to reach east side by 8 plus.. bravo guys! and the best thing is they didn't complain a wee bit and have to sleep standing up on the bus.

And denise really sing not bad but keep saying very lousy.wahahah. she and mel, my chinese songs dictionary hehee... things are always fun with denise around wahhaa... and somehow singing the emo songs is the only time i see her emo hehehhe..

Emo

Emo.
thinking
disturbed
turbulence
whirlwind of thoughts

struggling
wondering
can i stop
need to stop
need to put a brake

need to get ashore
fighting against the waves
trying not to be swept away by the rushing currents

Finally Fun Time!!

Ahh enough about work, looking fwd to sat for our ecp cum ktv session. Had a great time last Fri with watching Quantum with denise, yan and charlene, Lawrence (who has more a weida look than lawrence look wahaha) and benne and after that short drink at alley bar. All of them so wonderful and cute in their own right, thank God for having nice colleagues in the companies I work in so far, definitely make life more interesting when you need it. Ah back to the ecp.. haven’t seen the sun for so long! But I so scared of being tanned.. I dunnnnwannnnt.. my freckles is going to fill up my cheeks soon manz..

Train train train.. better train more to improve my skills, wanna be a good green belt person the way a green belt holder should be!! New class schedule from 24th nov. … starts at 6:30.. so must leave on the dot at 6.. which means must come on the dot by 8:35 wah.. this is sooooo difficult =’( =’( …..nowadays my life surrounds tkd, at night b4 I sleep I also think about it, and whatever exercise I do should serve to benefit my tkd… never felt so purposeful in my workouts before hehehe…

Work…. Miss God

So bored at work… sometimes it’s not that I don’t have anything to do, it’s just sometimes you don’t get the satisfaction of doing something u know technically, by right is worthwhile doing. BPR, by right is an exciting and interesting project to do. There is not a single day that should be the same, you get to meet people from all divisions, get to learn a lot of things without directly being held responsible for the work. If it’s geared in the right direction, it can definitely help the company save money, improve process and more transparency and consistency in everyone’s work. But this company is definitely not ready for any BPR or BPM or related projects, not only did they can’t see beyond their direct job scope, BPM/BPR is lowest on their priority.

I Miss God.

I Miss God, one message from pastor calvin b4, think I really miss talking to Him, listening to Him, being close to Him. In an analogy that Jade had given, sometimes we put God in the passenger seat, or worse still in the boot, and bring Him out only when we need Him. But we should all be letting him in the driver seat of our life. Really need to review this aspect with Him more often and put aside all other miscellaneous thoughts in my head….

"extended weekend"

been trying to learn how to cook.. at 26 then u learn?! oh well better late than never hehe.. it's a skill eveyrone should know to me.. u can go anywhere (i mean in a decent city not in the jungle) and u can pretty much survive...... learning just the basics.. fried rice, fried bee hoon, cabbage, normal vege, gong bao ji ding.. mui fan.. my sis was saying.. wah nov23 u are the one getting married or pipong (my second sis) hehe.. in the words of my sis, well i cannot wait for the shit to be at the hole before i go find toilet.. wahaha..

Finally managed to hit 8 K again.. wanted to jog more and train more.. but alas.. fell sick.. too much fondue.. which reminds me... the cell pot luck was fabulous.. loads of food.. good time together.. pretty good sharing and good time of prayers... but i think i whacked the fondue a bit too much.. dont' waste mah.. nobody seems to be eating despite the anticipation of it! hehe.. cell mates say bee hooon not bad. my family proud of my virgin product.. but my dad say no wonder got left over.. too bland.. hehehe oh well....

can't wait to recover so i can get back to training!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!! 2 days w/o exercise.. my muscles are calling for help reaching out and trying to stay afloat... pushing the layers of fats aside trying to breathe..