ahhhH!!

God, i need to take care of my health, help me watch my words and my heart and take the anger and negativity out from me..

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Rushed assignment till 2 am on sat and yest... think need to stay clear of pc these 2 days.. waste too much electricity plus need to get out from sitting on my butt.. though i a bit tak boleh tahan went jogging.. got target to reach.. think i gain weight liao.. must lose back plus for the sake of my rocket high cholesterol and... all the weddings that i'll be attending next year..

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Grading is coming, cannot rest.. need to practise harder... got higher expectations..


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shiok.. 10 to 4 old testament survey. going to the torah class, 5 - 6:30 after that.. book of numbers.. i'll be thinking like an ancietn israeli in no time :p

Routine, work out and other MA.

so happy, my gym session last marked a proper return to exercise routine, at least the cardio part. Even though i've still been going gym during this rest period of mine to tone up and build strenght, but cardio is still an imporant part of any exercise routine.

While i m giving myself a break from lessons next 2 weeks again, i'll probably be working out at gym more to tone and build strength, run more for cardio and build stamina and explore drills to build up my agility for sparring. I'm so not agile and so slow in my sparring i need to do something about it. And i need to lose weight, no longer solely just to look good, but i don't think i can do any jumping kick properly nor can i spar effortlessly with my current weight. Press on !

IF only i can find someone to work out with me, to spur me on and work out together in the crazy routine i've planned out for myself so i don't become de-motivated or at least to give tips on the agility and speed.... cos i'm still clueless on how to build this part up.

Anyway, really hope to reach Black belt soon.. then at least i've reached a milestone, and i can explore WIng chun, jujitsu &/Or Kapap/krav maga..

swim swim swim

finally i get to exercise! i don't know how ppl live a sedentary lifestyle for long.. i can feel my fats accumulating and fluffing up like a bread fluffing up from the yeast. sheeze.. almost 3 weeks..

Yesterday already had insomnia.. dunno why, maybe from lack of exercise body too tense, or too much pent up unused energy from work or probably listen too much of craig david's insomnia..

"Because i can't sleep til you're next to me No i can't live without you no more Oh i stay up til you're next to me Til this house feels like it did before Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah "

oh yah, got distracted. what was i talking about? oh yah, swimming.. finally get to work out, doesnt matter it spoil my hair at least i'm moving!

Ramblings..

So many random things!! Feel like buying a watch! Saw the esprit Square button in Wo bao today so nice!!

Tired of china service crew who can’t speak English..

Read in this morning’s devotional, God loves to decorate and change. If you allow him to stay in your heart, He is bound to decorate and make changes in You. I like the way the author says it.

I m so proud of my own discipline this week 4days in a row, wake up earlier every morning, manage to exercise bathe and do my morning devotional every day before I go work.. this on top of my usual tkd class and other training for tkd.. now the only thing to discipline is my food intake..

Which reminds me need to find a solution.. ir each home at almost 11pm on tkd days, work ends at 6 and rush down immediately for 6:30class .. usually I have dinner at like 10 or 11, which is so not healthy and fattening.. hmm..

I’m so happy that nudging unhappy feeling in my heart is growing more faint as the days go by. If I’ve prayed abt it and God says no, then so be it.

jogging

went for my standard 5km run although damn slow.. but good to complete it cos stamina laggng from all the hols.. realised jogging is a really good thing to do , although i may not thorooughly enjoy it, but here's why i like to jog..

1) help to build up stamina for tkd
2) burn some fats on my stomache
3) it's cheap! in fact free!
4) not limited to any closing hours
5) helps to release stress both emotionally and physically
6) and the best thing of all i just discovered , i can have a pretty good prayer time with God, it's a personal time with God where since i'm alone and need to keep my mind of my tiredness, i'll talk to HIm.. so today run for 45 mins talk to him for 45 mins break my own record. but Thank God for that time.. =)