mind playing tricks again?
It creaps up on you
envelopes your heart and mind
clouds your perception
the world turns green and red
and you want to dig for the truth
IT is a tricky and deceptive thing
gotta hold my horses
watch and observe
stomach flipped and lurched
heart slammed against rib cage
blood rushed to my head
wondering
thinking
perplexed
disturbed
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
intrigued
Havne't got time to post anything recently.. managed to squeeze out time to post on the cell blog about our trip and it took me to 1 am.. gosh. http://theabccell.blogspot.com/
read on someone's profile.. 当天空落泪时,懂得安慰天空的人, got me thinking for a while... profound manz..
read on someone's profile.. 当天空落泪时,懂得安慰天空的人, got me thinking for a while... profound manz..
Sunday, June 7, 2009
not through with me.
i'm so happy... finally i'm crying because i'm touched cos i sense God's presence.. tears of joy, tears of happiness if there is every a thing like that..
During worship, all i'm thinking is i wanna fall in love with jesus all over again, and if i hadn't i would want to.
and the song goes "my Closest Friend" i know i should committ all things to Him first.. Seek Him for all things and seek man for answers.. think i've been seeking man too much.
Third thing He showed me, actually He told me before my roots are not deep enough, foundation is not deep enough like my recent bout has just proved to me loud and clear. never will i let Him go, cos i need him and i love God.
God is not tru with me i know He is not, and i'm so glad he did not stop loving me nor stop moulding me.. every word He say to me is so precious and thing he point out to me i didn't wannna forget.
4th thing i wanna do, pray for my cell folks if they need after service.. and i wanna make it a personal thing to come about half an hour earlier to cell to pray, will be good if they wanna join me..
soome of us (benson, ray,ruby sylvia, candy arthur) watching Facing the giants at candy's plc, one thing in the show "god has placed you where u are to bloom, and you do't move until God says u do" so whereever god placed me, i'm going to do the best for Him, especially as ACL..
I'm so looking forward to my retreat this week inKL 8th to 12th. heard it's 6 star hotel hahha.. great.. since i always stay backpacker or 2 star hotel haha.. but since the recent bout, it'llb e wonderful and excellent to throw everything aside and soak myself in God's presence and word.. God i'm so looking fwd to it!
During worship, all i'm thinking is i wanna fall in love with jesus all over again, and if i hadn't i would want to.
and the song goes "my Closest Friend" i know i should committ all things to Him first.. Seek Him for all things and seek man for answers.. think i've been seeking man too much.
Third thing He showed me, actually He told me before my roots are not deep enough, foundation is not deep enough like my recent bout has just proved to me loud and clear. never will i let Him go, cos i need him and i love God.
God is not tru with me i know He is not, and i'm so glad he did not stop loving me nor stop moulding me.. every word He say to me is so precious and thing he point out to me i didn't wannna forget.
4th thing i wanna do, pray for my cell folks if they need after service.. and i wanna make it a personal thing to come about half an hour earlier to cell to pray, will be good if they wanna join me..
soome of us (benson, ray,ruby sylvia, candy arthur) watching Facing the giants at candy's plc, one thing in the show "god has placed you where u are to bloom, and you do't move until God says u do" so whereever god placed me, i'm going to do the best for Him, especially as ACL..
I'm so looking forward to my retreat this week inKL 8th to 12th. heard it's 6 star hotel hahha.. great.. since i always stay backpacker or 2 star hotel haha.. but since the recent bout, it'llb e wonderful and excellent to throw everything aside and soak myself in God's presence and word.. God i'm so looking fwd to it!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
shiok day.
It finally feels good to step out of the house this morning.. Finally the rain falls and the wind blows and u feel the cool wind blowing against your face. Now and then a slight drizzle, but it feels like oasis in the desert.
Read in yest ‘s devo.. need to have endurance and perserverance.. It’s in the analogy of the author trying very hard to wipe of the marks off the computer screen with a lot of effort and Joshua urged to lead Israel into the Promised Land. Don’t’ just stop outside, press on and move in once you’ve caught a glimpse of what God showed you.
I think I’m better somewhat at overcoming my fear of sparring. In which in yesterday’s class, I had so much fun 1 hour flew by just like that .. went in with a mentality, okay I’m here to just overcome my fear of sparring and whacked, if the competition team want to chiong then good for them also =) think it’s a lot better without any pressure at all hehehe.. but Thomas was so funny. The way he punch me was so light and cartoony.. think he trying very hard not to hurt me heheheh .
I think I think of the most ridiculous things when I do taekwondo.. every time I do a warm up I looked down and I’m thinking damn I need a pedicure. And when I execute a hand strike or something I look at my hand and I go, damn I need a manicure.. when master rivas was demoing something and clutch my heel I’m thinking damn , thankfully I just did my foot scrub.. so bimbotic!
Read in yest ‘s devo.. need to have endurance and perserverance.. It’s in the analogy of the author trying very hard to wipe of the marks off the computer screen with a lot of effort and Joshua urged to lead Israel into the Promised Land. Don’t’ just stop outside, press on and move in once you’ve caught a glimpse of what God showed you.
I think I’m better somewhat at overcoming my fear of sparring. In which in yesterday’s class, I had so much fun 1 hour flew by just like that .. went in with a mentality, okay I’m here to just overcome my fear of sparring and whacked, if the competition team want to chiong then good for them also =) think it’s a lot better without any pressure at all hehehe.. but Thomas was so funny. The way he punch me was so light and cartoony.. think he trying very hard not to hurt me heheheh .
I think I think of the most ridiculous things when I do taekwondo.. every time I do a warm up I looked down and I’m thinking damn I need a pedicure. And when I execute a hand strike or something I look at my hand and I go, damn I need a manicure.. when master rivas was demoing something and clutch my heel I’m thinking damn , thankfully I just did my foot scrub.. so bimbotic!
