Retreat

I guess it's time i retreat and take a couple of steps back. No point going on one way when there's nothing good swings back or when you swing out the boomerang and it doesn't come back.

debts

one thing to do this year! be debt free!! yes!

Gotta clear my $200o nus loan, 600 cc bills .. another 200 cc bills.. settle all these shit and i'm free to save! must save must save!

cny prepration

this is the first cny i'm spending it without my sisters. At least last year i still have my eldest sis, this year she go msia hols. hmm.. needs getting accustomed to. My 2 sisters are my best friend, now they are not around, don't know who to crap with, chit chat with or talk to about my day liao. msg also expensive.

It's amazing how a festive season can set everyone in a buying frenzy, things are like free, buying non stop, goodies, food, decorations, clothes, shoes, blah.. wah kauz.. me included, buying new clothes and make up hehe.. and my beauty routine takes like 1 and half almost 2 hours, hair mask, body scrub, foot soak and scrub and face mask. :p

Hope next 2 days will be all right, can be a dread facing relatives.

Ramblings

Whatever that seems to be, isn’t what they seem to be.
What it isn’t appears in a misunderstood fashion.
What you can’t get, always is more enticing
Sometimes the moment you get it, the fascination fizzes off.
Sometimes things seems to blend in with the surroundings
And escape the noticing but flittering eye of the world.
But seems to grow on you, as you look harder
Or maybe, some things grow because you want it to,
And in fact when you walk off
The truth is, it hasn’t’ changed a single bit.
And all in just a deception of the mind
How long before the eye noticed the deception of the mind
Or finally know that some things don’t’ change
And the only thing that is different is the one that perceives

Reunion dinner!

As mentioned.. my reunion dinner on 18th hehe.. my second sis going back ipoh with bro in law, eldest sis going cameron hols so we gotta have it earlier.... wat a spread!! 4 big crabs, fish, vege, fried beancurd, frog adn ic an't remmeber wat else, but it's a spread! all below except super camera shydad.. hehe .. in the end i got so freaking full i walked the 3km back from sunshine place to my home woohooohoo and with my dad who kinda worry about me walking my way back.. and had everyone else wondering if there'll be any conversation between us.. hehe

the food, my mum and eldest sis hehe

ever camera ready second sis with her camera shy husband, eldest sis and my future bro in law..

me and my second sister..

family outings are always fun... everyone got a sense of humour, we dont' fight and everybody get along fantastic with everyone.. my family is really God's blessing to me..=D

Finally!

finally the stressful week is over!

I have to say the internal grading last friday is definitely more stresssful than the STF one. In fact i worry so much aobut it i grabbed my future bro in law last thurs to help me in my sparring, i didn't become great overnight, but it certainly did quench some of my stupid anxiety for sparring.. am certainly finding back that love for tkd in sparring manz! But though santos says i'm too agressive, but i'm happy with my performance in internal..

Sat, boy am i so touched my sisters help me pack for my batam trip after my internal grading cos i got no time to :p .. they even know wat i'm going to wear and where i pack my stuff! woo hoo! but i certainly enjoy the trip, good time of catching up .. fellowship, food, fun, bible study overseas hehhehe.. all the pictures we uploaded in our cell blog, lazy to reupload here.. www.theabccell.blogspot.com . Pretty good toknow more about one another and really thank God for these folks who accept me for who i am all these years... i'm blessed to have them in my cell group =)

sun took the first ferry back to make it in time for STF grading which is not as bad as the last round.. now i'm looking forward to blue tip! yippie!! catch up with fellow tkd friends over lunch catch some sleep and finally the nice part, our reunion dinner on sunday.. yum yum.. too long.. let me post in separately hehe

exhausting..

i realised one thing, u cannot work full day, go for tkd sparring and go clubbing in the same day... in which the moment i got on the cab, i almost collasped..

Had to work as ususal i couldn't skip sparring class because grading is rnd the corner.. then after that accopmany my sis go zirca for her friends' tatoo shop 1 year anniversary, music is nice like MOS trance room, but dunno cos i'm tired or wat, quite boring...n some dance which i can't make out wat it is.. but still left only 11;30 pm..

damn. next time no clubbing on a weekday nite manz...

Re look at my resolutions.. =p

"I had a bad day" .... feel like singing to that Daniel powter song today, wake up a bit late, went out late, had to do a detour to get my mp3 player, arrive late and had stomach cramp whole day... but so happy managed to find time to go for a run 5km, at least i don't feel that sucky..

ha!! suddenly i realised having 9 resolutions is too much!! life is harsh enough, enough deadlines and things to do! SO! let me zoom into just 3 hehehhe.. *drum roll please*

1) take care of my health! (cholestrol and go to normal weight)
2) Spiritual health (read up minor prophets and do more for God tru cell gp).. lead a holy life for Him like what He say, Treat him as really your King and Lord
3) What else?! Of cos my TKD! hehe.. I'll take it slow.. prob just reach Red tip his year.. looking at the rate i handle my sparring.. hehe..

going crazy

i think i'm going crazy.. my whole head keeps thinking about sparring manz.. i wish my mind and body can move faster whenever it's the actual sparring.. i'm such a retard manz... urrgggh!! there are folks who hardly attend any class also do better than me siah.. irrtiating..

Need to go on offensive, stop hesistating and just whack manz..

busy weekend ahead.

damn.. intial draft of this entry get wiped out only after i finish typing ... sux manz..

but anyway, feel damn stressed about next week.. esp my grading! 16th will be my internal Grading and 18th my STF Grading gosh. worrying this is this time, we are tested on sparring, i bet im so stressed i'll have a mental block siah.. my sparrin absolutely sux.. i'm so nervous i always have mental blcok, but i'll deft do what i can, read up try and practise blah.. but still .. sigh. can't wait for 18th to be over. ...

i'm also taking leave on 16th to do spring cleaning. cleaning, decorating blah buying the whole hoo haa about cny is back again.. this time round im going solo.. sisters going malaysia for cny so sian. i gotta sleep alone. no!!!!!!!anyone wants to come sleep over with me? wahahhaha and reunion dinner is also on 18th.. to catch everynoe before they go msia...

17th i'm going batam with my cell for cell retreat. although i need to rush back for my grading..

i wish next week woudl be over soon... feel like taking leave.. but should save my leave for feb and march when there's no hols manz.. no more travelling for me.. should save up in this gloom..

need to remember to work out more, eat less, practise my tkd more, do my QT read up on minor prophetsrun more, though i still don't feel like sleeping early, i feel it's justa waste of time.