Tired

Fighting a battle alone thst is meant to be fought together is just too tiring. . Esp when partner in combat refuse to see the common goal n want to shrink backto the trenchhole that was dug.

Hanging on

Hanging by a thin line yet again... I hate this feeling. . Why did it always have to be this way?

I feel alone n lonelier than ever.. never felt more unwanted... betrayed. ..

I came crashing from heaven to hell in less than a week. The things that i was thrown in the face to handle alone n carelessly thrown to the side like an unwanted ragged doll. thought I was in heaven last 2 months... they are just but an illusion. .. how dumb of me. ..

!!

I can't believe it's happening again!!! If it happen again im not going to give in to lies n empty promises again!

Pissed

Knew it was too gd to be true

Phoebe

More pics of our cutie pie.

Phoebe

I love this kid my niece to death manz

Phoebe

I love this kid my niece to death manz

Calvin n hobbes

Cute! but then again.. if the kids nowadays really feel this way.. that's a bit sad that they will lose their innocence and passion so early..

Female Genital Mutilation

For whatever reason, i started surfing You tube for a very interesting video on Cicadia by Sir David Attenborough on Discovery. As it goes for recommended and related videos, suddenly i landed on Female Circumsion or more suitably known as Female Genital Mutilation. So i decided to google it for an brief explanation in Wiki:


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Female_genital_mutilation

I have no idea why they make female go through this. It's like cutting off the testicles of the male and calling it circumcision.

I can understand if a male goes through the male circumcision which at least have been scientifically proven to be of positive health effects or help some male when they suffer from a specific skin disease because of an infection from the bacteria in the extra skin.

But for a female, you are not just removing extra skin, but you are removing the clitoris and minora (look at the pic in wiki for explanation). In short, you are removing the genitals leaving only a small hole for fluids. even if you manage to get pregnant, you got to cut it back open in order to give birth.

For what purpose is this operation for? that a female is tainted if they don't do it, prevent the male doing things that are not traditionally allowed? And of all these values and concepts, why does the change have to be imposed on the female? For some, they are frowned upon if you give birth not being "circumcised".

This is pure amputation, mutilation and lowering the perception of females in the society. If there were values that are heavily frowned upon in a traditional society, it's typically blamed on the women.

Adultery? it's the women's fault for tempting the male. SOlution: Stone the women.
Lust by men? It's the women's fault again. Solution: Female got to cover up.
Sex outside marriage or "unclean": women's fault. Solution: Cut out their genitals.

Utterly ridiculous


 

Trying

Trying hard not to miss him

Millennia

Walking a round millennial walk alone waiting for Xmas dinner to be up is actually quite stifling, this place brings back a lot of painful memories......

Tkd

Going back tkd heavy bags was therapeutic, esp since Mr Rivas classes are always interesting.

It feels deja vu, personal life went back to where I was 2 years ago when I stop tkd, so did my stamina. Mr R had to ask whether or not I had been exercising.

Where did the last 2 years go to Lord? They say time flies when u are having fun. I did have fun the last two years, but like the saying goes also, all gd things come to an end esp if they are like real flower, awesome while they bloom, but u know no matter how much u preserve, it 'll wither at the end.

Need to get my stamina back, panting like a stupid pig. Maybe aim for sec Dan? Explore a few other things and realized I still like tkd, friendly culture at jhk, and full range sparring.

Swings

I don't like the fact that I can for once feel remotely more normal, and the next I'll be tearing non stop in the middle of no where

hurt

As much as i said that it won't matter, there is no difference but there is.


As much as i said that i won't tear, i still did.

As much as i said that it won't hurt but it did.

As much as my mind said for the long term it's good but my heart disagree.

Again

I got this feeling of hopelessness again, this is not helping