restless again.. feeling of uneasiness .. what's lies in the future.. pray for peace of God to be upon me...

WHole week down!! no training and workout because of my nose..
To add salt to wound, I had to have food poisoning of sort through the weekend...

Come tomorrow.. flu or no flu, i'm going for my boxing class..

Anyway.. watch Bourne Legacy with Mr. on Friday.. ahhh.. Jeremy Renner.. *dreams* Love him for Hawk Eye in Avengers...so glad he finally have his leading character *yay!*

down and out

miss training last week cos of stupid cramps.. this week the flu cycle starts..

from itchy nose on saturday night to sneezing on sunday to full blown fever and sore throat on Monday. 

By tuesday the flu became just running nose..

By wednesday it reduced to just blocked nose..

When will it clear... :( 

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Each Friday, weekend or public holidays that it didn't happen, my heart died a little each time

import

I understand the rationale for bringing in foreigners. sure there are economic benefits. however, the ministers administering the policies should show that they care how the overwhelming foreigners are having a negative social impact on their very own citizens.

instead of asking us to integrate them, they should integrate into local culture.

like only bringing in ppl that know how to speak English.


social courtesy. I believe Singaporeans are not the most kiasu ones now.

night

there s something mystical about the silence of the night. its moments like this when you are all alone, the tv and radio are off, the world has fallen asleep that you feel especially vulnerable.

these are the moments when you tell yourself and God that you really need Him.

these are the moments when anger is replaced by sadness and the aching void in your heart.

these are the moments when your thoughts went from violence to wanting to cry in the arms of the person waiting to be comforted though you know it won't happen.

ageing

you hit a certain point in your life where you rather stay within the comfort of your room (or two in my case) then be out clubbing.

change

fire

need to occupy my time so I can stop thinking. insecurity and despair growing. lord let your refiners fire burn in me and cleanse this heart of mine, renew my mind and create that steadfast unwavering spirit in me.

alone

I should get used to living without him

fat !

stomach getting so big! sux! went jogging about 4plus km yesterday, went brisk walk 5km today. tom got training. Fri go gym. hopefully can squeeze a gym on Sat. need to get back to pre holiday weight by end July!

nice

its nice to have someone who appreciates your effort:) even if its just verbally :)

can't

I can't even take care of myself properly, how can I take care of others.

amazed

I'm always amazed with drummers who worship at the same time as they play. SImply not easy. Shows skills and the heart to worship God.

restless

feel so restless, like waiting for something to happen, or hoping something will happen. feel tired by 9pm everyday. . slept by 10. or maybe I should make something happen.

feel I don't belong anywhere now. never know what to say to anyone already.

still haven't post my blog on the US trip, which I wrote on the long plane ride back.

ah!

time has finally come, can't believe I actually am finally off!