Completed... my room-mate married..

finally it's completed! frankly, i think we still haven't fully digest the fact that iris has gotten married and has moved out.. the day that we've been planning and getting stressed on was over and it felt so surreal.. well.. partly also she still has tonnes of things at our home.. ha.. this week will be the week we will all try to adjust..

lost yet another room mate.. no one to yak to after work.. feels abit wierd .. anyway.. gotta try and adjust.. and on the up side. i can start to plan to decorate my room.. and expand my cupboard territory..

All the best for both my sister's marriage..

Faith and Grading

God told sarah that she ll be pregnant & she laughed..she didn t believe God 4 e impossible . Frankly if I were her, I would think e same way. In fact I might tell God r u kidding me? ..this story was spoken to me twice last week. & it dawned on me dat I AM like sarah. I did lack faith in God in a lot of things & God is telling me to trust him in them.

In an analogy given in e book Run with Horses, a person was dining with a close friend & attention was mainly one another except e waiter whom ey would converse with to place their orders. In an ideal scenario, God shld be e one whom we are engaging most often with. However most often than not, e close friend is actually ourselves & God is simply e waiter with whom we talk to now & then to give orders thank him abit or even remember his name. Who actually is in e driving seat of our car?

I need to trust God more in what he can do & stop treating Him as e waiter of my life. Start talking to him more than simply about him.

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on a side note... helping my sister's wedding this week.. trying to squeeze time in to train more esp since Mr rivas drop a bombshell say ask me try for july grading period... Will try my best to make it these two weeks or so..

Health Check

i realised... i don't have much pictures in my blog.. maybe i really should take more pictures hor.. but then.. alot of pics i have are those that my frens tag me on FB de.. which if ppl who are reading this have my FB, then no point right? but anyway what the heck right, my blog mah haha.. but these 2 shots are reawlly nice.. they are my fave.. taken at jade's wedding..




went for health screening. spent 3 and half hours there siah.. waste time.. sitting there from 7 to 1030 siah.. woke up at 5.. felt the day has gone by beforei even reach office...

Before anyone continue, make sure you've finished whatever food that you happen to be eating... :p :p :p LOL

Now, what's worse than doing a secretion examination? Doing a secretion examination on someone who just had diahorrea.. :p

Anyway. one of the things to check was a pelvic ultrasound.. which requires your damn bladder to be full.. So i happily drank like 10 cups of water at one shot.. waiting for it to reach the bladder.. then.... diaster strike.. stomachache.. so i have let evryeone out and back to square one.. sian!!

then gotta drink another 10 cups of water.. but still not full enough.. so i gotta sit outside the room... and .. waiiiitttttt.. wait for the magic feeling to come way down there..1 freaking hour siah.. bigest waste of time.. although heading to work is not the best exciting altnerative.... but still .. oh well..

finally resuming my personal training this sat.. gosh. it's been 1 month since i saw Arik.. damn! see if i can go back training next week.. yeah! resuming my exercise! with or without the pain!

weekend...

Did something i've not done in years.... swimming.. come to think of it, i've done lasik for ayear and i've not swam since then.. damn.. time flies! and i've not gone since i taken up tkd...wanted to get used to deep pool..but still scared of water.. the way i was holding to the wall had the lifeguards staring at me most of the time.. oh well. guess that's better right, knowing someone is looking out for me hehe

yvonne's wedding over! can't believe yvonne is now mrs tan.. she still so youngish and chirpy and childlike hehee.. she really pretty pretty that day.. and figure v good actually! hehhe.. benjamin was sweating furiously the whole day siah.. and kudos to him..! he played and sang .. not an easy feat!!! *applause* *applause* .. and i love the live jazz band at the dinner.. even though en en tot it was cd even after 2 hours into the dinner *faint* hahahha

was tiring.. but still fun.. =)

It's over!

Yeah!! finally grading is over!!! UP next! Black belt grading! damn there's going to be intensive training, it'll be nerve wrecking but yet tantalising and so full of excitement and anticipation!

Let my legs heal in time pls!

Things i don’t understand....

Things i don’t understand....
Why do ppl spend hundreds and thousands of dollars on an expensive bag when it doesn’t even have the basic function of a zip to give security to your belongings inside? It’s like building a nice fanciful bungalow in the heart of orchard road and not building a door for it....

Saw a man who’s derailed and off in his mind, shouting to no one in particular vulgarities and a chunk of incomprehensible sentences in Hokkien.. No doubt he had attracted a lot of curious stares... but as i look at him, I’m wondering what did he go through in life that he had become emotionally unstable and unable to let go all his burdens.. As I look at him.. I felt really sad for him...

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Punch the bags till my hand bleed.. but enjoy the adrenaline..

Tom grading!! Focus!! focus on grading this weekend! no time on anything else now, work is already distracting enough to say the least.. It'll be a good weekend.. mother's day weekend (even though not doing much), sauna, some workout, then celebrate friend birthday and meet some friends from overseas..

no exercise!

I'm getting very frustrated & repressed. so pent up abt e fact I can t work out much, I can only settle for boring crunch & ball-works.

I so wanna practise my 360, jumping & spinning kicks! I wanna be able to kick e target & bag so hard I bleed. I miss getting pushed to e ultimate limit by mr rivas in class! I wanna practise my sparring & do watever I wan! miss that adrenaline & feelgd thing.

I so miss working out 3 , 4 hrs non stop , miss pushing myself & sweating it all out..miss having my PT sessions, miss spending hours @ e gym. miss attending all the classes...

sigh. for now I can t sit,stand or walk too long w/0 feeling painful . :( :( :(

Lessons on Faith and from "Enchanted"

"it's not enough to just believe that God exists!" " You got to believe also in God's attributes that come along with it!" these are the words that were booming off pastor richard today at the sermon.. Which is right also, we believe He exists, but sometimes we don't believe enough of his power and ability, that's why we get upset for so long, we panic and we worry.. though that's human tendency to do just those, but to do it for extended period of time speaks of lack of faith on our part.

Ps Richard's simple explanation of heaven: "You don't believe in GOd thats why you dont believe in Heaven. I believe in God, and God must live somewhere right??" He said them in raised tones and raised eye brow, as though saying "Duh! It's so simple, didnt you get that b4?"

I believe God placed me here for a reason,and i know He loves me enough to hear my prayers and want the best for me.. just pray that if he wants me to be where i am, give me the strength and patience to tolerate and take whatever the situation is now..

And i shall now complain anymore about the issue i've been complaining about to the ppl around me, cos i know God has heard me, and is in control..

was watching Enchanted starring Patrick Dempsey and James Marsden on Channel 5 @ Pong's place. Though it's a brainless entertaining show about how this princess drop from fairy tale to modern world with his "Prince Charming" after her and realised that her price charming is not the True love but the modern world guy..

But admist this brainless show i have a takehome. 1) Sometimes r/s and love are better kept easy and less complicated. 2) The fairy tale characters have a damn good character we can learn from.. they don't really know negative emotions like angry and they move on with life with optimisim and cheer..

Guess that's a really good philosophy of life to pick up from..

Retreat

So lookig forward to june retreat..

Month of may!

Just came back from bintan trip, pretty good trip... good to see familiar faces and be able to minister to them...or at least let them know that we are not hit and run... It was a village and there are no street lights, so the sky are littered with stars..beautiful on its own already.. so happen there’s a blackout in the area. So the whole street was absolute darkness... i looked out from the house and wonder why it’s still bright outside... i went out and looked up.. it was actually the moon.. amazing how bright and beautiful the moon actually is, and it’s not even full moon... Too much of city lights have overcome its beauty...Like our body and soul, too much of artificial beauty can sometimes ruin the original beauty that God had created in us...

Anyway.. busy again(oh well.. what’s new, so folks, a little patience while i let it out).. Grandma in hospital with virus infection which is dangerous considering her heart is already only half the usual rate.. low blood pressure and weaklegs.. i hope it won’t be as serious as Ps David yeo’s... . And my g.ma is stubborn enough not to want a maid . My sis has very generously said she can stay with her at the new home, but was flatly rejected anyhow.. and i doubt she want to live with us

Training today and preparing for tom’s lesson, sub-ing Raymond tom.. fri drinks session (yeah!) sat noon meeting joy (which we’ve been trying to fix for ages), sat night is our church 60th anniversary at suntec (another yeah!), then watch iron man with cell mates possibly (*another yeah!*) sun church and then cell birthday lunch (after much hooha finally finalised *whew*)

Then there’s grading next weekend... i’ve paused my PT sessions liao told my trainer i need to retain whatever leg i have for my grading... so next week would mainly be trying to gear up for grading.. Sat is Yvonne’s hen night! (triple yeah! ) we still have a quarter whisky left. =) I’m still deciding whether to go aaron kwok’s concert....

Anyway, pausing tkd training after grading (to save $ to fix my leg + take a break before training for black belt (YEAHHH!!) Watching IP Man with Denise and gang (yeah!) and meeting LF and hp gang in may also.. (another yeah!) =) also meeting Pastor scott for catch up also.. and not forgetting the YAYP event in end may...

Ah.. and in the midst of all these..... top of priority for May, FINALISE AND HELP MY SIS’S WEDDING!

As much as may is exciting.. I’m looking fwd to retreat in June to take a break=( =)

New hairdo

Taking a break and taking my new hair style.:)

Frenz and Leg

On the way up from my lowest point. so although not fully up there yet, but still lots to thank God for nontheless. really need to run on God's spirit and strenght. God conforted me, so that i can in turn comfort others. thing is, time is very limited for me. i Like socialisng, making new friends. Thing is, making new friends are reaaallly easy, but maintaining a friendship is not. takes time, which i might not have..i would love to care so much for a lot of my friends both from church and out of church... but really limited of me and my time to get around..sorry my friends for those whom i have neglected..and at the current moment..i think i already neglected my family.. need to take more effort to keep connected to the family cos sisters are moving out/ have moved out.. not like b4, keepingin touch is really easy...so when u need to put extra priority on family in time to come, something / someone has got to be sacrificed...

As for myself, i've learnt to rely on God only for confort.. cos truth is, if u expect someone to be there for you, most likely u will be disappointed..even if you are married or attached, if u have to keep relying on yr partner, sooner or later, you'll wear the person out..

anyway, finally get round doing something about my heal injury...cos think i aggravated it during gym training.. can barely walk on saturday... plus old toe injury now my leg looks like that..

Twilight marathon

Had a great time at aijia s place on sat:) nt much into proclaiming stuff on fb. But girls, you guys were great.

Suprisingly I enjoyed Twilight (after our Twilight marathon :) )although New Moon was like huh? Wth? I can C why girls went crazy over robert pattison, although I find bella s dad attractive. Thing is I think stephanie meyers created 2 really great character in bella & edward cullen & I like r.pat s protrayal of edward.

Edward's fascination of bella is very classically egoistic. Save for e fragrance in e blood, she intrigued him cos he couldn t read her mind? & she looked really fragile that he feels protective of her? That is so egoistic act & it s e classic theory that people r always more fascinated with folks who seems mysterious & hard to grasp & e need to protect & pull out yr manliness to protect e weaker female sex. Urgh.

Anyway having said that, lll still look out for eclipse. :

On a side note, it's been so long since i eat a lot of really 'unhealthy" stuff like pizza.. the 2 slice of pizza with wings and chips as nice as it was, turned my stomach inside out.. skipped dinner, breakfast and lunch after that.. :P

qing ming

its qing ming morning. just so happen im on leave on this easter mon. so just accompany mum to go cemetery to pay respects.

I ve always found e columbarium & cemetery area very peaceful & beautiful. it's one of e area where you still see a lot of greenery & flat land everywhere.
your pace of walking slows down &-puts you in a pensive mowd.

even e building at e columbarium are named after flowers like Eugenia, Dafodil, peony. the thing though about the columbarium.. sometimes in the same slot, besides the deceased, there's an empty slot for the partner, i find it very sadistic, as though it beckoning to the living spouse to come join them soon..

going to cemetery also puts you to think about yr funeral . if I were still healthy when I die, I would donate all organs out to e living & donate e remaining for science research or whatever. I believe e living need it more than e ground that i'm to be buried in. my funeral wake should also be 2 days only. whoever wanna come would have come . anything longer would be 2 expensive & tiring on e living.. And the songs... no more soppy super sad ones.. it should be joyous rock songs or christian praise music, cos i'm going to see Jesus and my grandma =) it'll a time of celebrartion for me..


Anyway enough of this topic.. very popular and nice 唐诗(Tang Poems) to wrap things up..

<清明 > 杜 牧

清明时节雨纷纷，
路上行人欲断魂。
借问酒家何处有，
牧童遥指杏花村

Translation:
It drizzles endless during the rainy season on Mourning day
Travelers along the road look gloomy and miserable.
When I ask a shepherd boy where I can find a tavern,
He points at a distant hamlet nestling amidst apricot blossoms.

this and that

die, cant seem to stop eating these few days. might just gain back the weight i lost at FF. My trainer is so going to screw me. oh yah. i'm just banned from alcohol siah...

boo hoo.. ricky martin is gay , thankfully there's still enrique

beginning andn picking up devo time again. and God reminded to pray sometimes in the weirdest moment.anyhow.. TRust in HIm with ALL your HEart, and lean not on your understanding....

another shocking news, ris low join 987 as a radio dj siah. OMG! what is georgina thinking of? .just because she brings with her e controversy? people might tune in initially out of curiosity , but she is definitely painful to listen to. she 1) boring 2) not witty nor funny 3> she can't continue any conversation that e dj starts 4> and obvionsly, her command of language. what values is the 987 trying to inculcate especially since e main bulk of 987's listeners are youth & there already is a rising debate about e poor command of english amongst e youth.

bad choice even for a publicity stunt.