Retreat

I guess it's time i retreat and take a couple of steps back. No point going on one way when there's nothing good swings back or when you swing out the boomerang and it doesn't come back.

debts

one thing to do this year! be debt free!! yes!

Gotta clear my $200o nus loan, 600 cc bills .. another 200 cc bills.. settle all these shit and i'm free to save! must save must save!

cny prepration

this is the first cny i'm spending it without my sisters. At least last year i still have my eldest sis, this year she go msia hols. hmm.. needs getting accustomed to. My 2 sisters are my best friend, now they are not around, don't know who to crap with, chit chat with or talk to about my day liao. msg also expensive.

It's amazing how a festive season can set everyone in a buying frenzy, things are like free, buying non stop, goodies, food, decorations, clothes, shoes, blah.. wah kauz.. me included, buying new clothes and make up hehe.. and my beauty routine takes like 1 and half almost 2 hours, hair mask, body scrub, foot soak and scrub and face mask. :p

Hope next 2 days will be all right, can be a dread facing relatives.

Ramblings

Whatever that seems to be, isn’t what they seem to be.
What it isn’t appears in a misunderstood fashion.
What you can’t get, always is more enticing
Sometimes the moment you get it, the fascination fizzes off.
Sometimes things seems to blend in with the surroundings
And escape the noticing but flittering eye of the world.
But seems to grow on you, as you look harder
Or maybe, some things grow because you want it to,
And in fact when you walk off
The truth is, it hasn’t’ changed a single bit.
And all in just a deception of the mind
How long before the eye noticed the deception of the mind
Or finally know that some things don’t’ change
And the only thing that is different is the one that perceives

Reunion dinner!

As mentioned.. my reunion dinner on 18th hehe.. my second sis going back ipoh with bro in law, eldest sis going cameron hols so we gotta have it earlier.... wat a spread!! 4 big crabs, fish, vege, fried beancurd, frog adn ic an't remmeber wat else, but it's a spread! all below except super camera shydad.. hehe .. in the end i got so freaking full i walked the 3km back from sunshine place to my home woohooohoo and with my dad who kinda worry about me walking my way back.. and had everyone else wondering if there'll be any conversation between us.. hehe

the food, my mum and eldest sis hehe

ever camera ready second sis with her camera shy husband, eldest sis and my future bro in law..

me and my second sister..

family outings are always fun... everyone got a sense of humour, we dont' fight and everybody get along fantastic with everyone.. my family is really God's blessing to me..=D

Finally!

finally the stressful week is over!

I have to say the internal grading last friday is definitely more stresssful than the STF one. In fact i worry so much aobut it i grabbed my future bro in law last thurs to help me in my sparring, i didn't become great overnight, but it certainly did quench some of my stupid anxiety for sparring.. am certainly finding back that love for tkd in sparring manz! But though santos says i'm too agressive, but i'm happy with my performance in internal..

Sat, boy am i so touched my sisters help me pack for my batam trip after my internal grading cos i got no time to :p .. they even know wat i'm going to wear and where i pack my stuff! woo hoo! but i certainly enjoy the trip, good time of catching up .. fellowship, food, fun, bible study overseas hehhehe.. all the pictures we uploaded in our cell blog, lazy to reupload here.. www.theabccell.blogspot.com . Pretty good toknow more about one another and really thank God for these folks who accept me for who i am all these years... i'm blessed to have them in my cell group =)

sun took the first ferry back to make it in time for STF grading which is not as bad as the last round.. now i'm looking forward to blue tip! yippie!! catch up with fellow tkd friends over lunch catch some sleep and finally the nice part, our reunion dinner on sunday.. yum yum.. too long.. let me post in separately hehe

exhausting..

i realised one thing, u cannot work full day, go for tkd sparring and go clubbing in the same day... in which the moment i got on the cab, i almost collasped..

Had to work as ususal i couldn't skip sparring class because grading is rnd the corner.. then after that accopmany my sis go zirca for her friends' tatoo shop 1 year anniversary, music is nice like MOS trance room, but dunno cos i'm tired or wat, quite boring...n some dance which i can't make out wat it is.. but still left only 11;30 pm..

damn. next time no clubbing on a weekday nite manz...

Re look at my resolutions.. =p

"I had a bad day" .... feel like singing to that Daniel powter song today, wake up a bit late, went out late, had to do a detour to get my mp3 player, arrive late and had stomach cramp whole day... but so happy managed to find time to go for a run 5km, at least i don't feel that sucky..

ha!! suddenly i realised having 9 resolutions is too much!! life is harsh enough, enough deadlines and things to do! SO! let me zoom into just 3 hehehhe.. *drum roll please*

1) take care of my health! (cholestrol and go to normal weight)
2) Spiritual health (read up minor prophets and do more for God tru cell gp).. lead a holy life for Him like what He say, Treat him as really your King and Lord
3) What else?! Of cos my TKD! hehe.. I'll take it slow.. prob just reach Red tip his year.. looking at the rate i handle my sparring.. hehe..

going crazy

i think i'm going crazy.. my whole head keeps thinking about sparring manz.. i wish my mind and body can move faster whenever it's the actual sparring.. i'm such a retard manz... urrgggh!! there are folks who hardly attend any class also do better than me siah.. irrtiating..

Need to go on offensive, stop hesistating and just whack manz..

busy weekend ahead.

damn.. intial draft of this entry get wiped out only after i finish typing ... sux manz..

but anyway, feel damn stressed about next week.. esp my grading! 16th will be my internal Grading and 18th my STF Grading gosh. worrying this is this time, we are tested on sparring, i bet im so stressed i'll have a mental block siah.. my sparrin absolutely sux.. i'm so nervous i always have mental blcok, but i'll deft do what i can, read up try and practise blah.. but still .. sigh. can't wait for 18th to be over. ...

i'm also taking leave on 16th to do spring cleaning. cleaning, decorating blah buying the whole hoo haa about cny is back again.. this time round im going solo.. sisters going malaysia for cny so sian. i gotta sleep alone. no!!!!!!!anyone wants to come sleep over with me? wahahhaha and reunion dinner is also on 18th.. to catch everynoe before they go msia...

17th i'm going batam with my cell for cell retreat. although i need to rush back for my grading..

i wish next week woudl be over soon... feel like taking leave.. but should save my leave for feb and march when there's no hols manz.. no more travelling for me.. should save up in this gloom..

need to remember to work out more, eat less, practise my tkd more, do my QT read up on minor prophetsrun more, though i still don't feel like sleeping early, i feel it's justa waste of time.

2009 NEw Year Resolutions...

Ooh. It’s dreary wet gloomy Monday morning.. after resting almost an entire week, the feel-so-almost-impossible work week is back. I so feel like sleeping in today, and I did, for a while, that’s why I’m late for work for 10 mins today. It’s still a pretty eventful Christmas met a bunch of new people, which let’s just say…there are other nicer folks around.. But that aside.

I feel it’s also a good time to do the age old resolution planning.. feel like reviewing the 2008 resolution again.. let’s see from http://melancholicjoy-mood.blogspot.com/2008/01/new-year-resolution.html

I made 1) get green belt 2) Driving license 3) Keep fit and lose weight. 4) Grow closer to God

Hmm.. I’ve achieved (1) , still getting (2) with my driving test in March, well, I havent’ lost much weight except probably go fitter cos I run a longer distance now. .. (4) I’ve not grown closer though, although frankly I think I ‘ve drifted sorta further from Him in fact.

I just realized the problem with them is that they are not measurable, so this year while making the 2009 resolutions I’m going to make them more measurable

1) For taekwondo, the difficulty is getting higher so I’ll not rush as fast as while I was a lower belt.. Santos says there’s a few junctures which ppl drop off.. one, while belt cos no interest, two at green cos it’s getting difficult, 3) red belt cos moving to black is getting very challenging and lastly of cos once they hit first dan or other dan. So my next milestone for 2009 is Red Tip by end of 2009 and remain consistent in my training….

2) Get my darn driving license!! $ concerns says it all! I might fail the first time though at the rate I’m still stalling the car and stuff…sigh

3) Run 18 Km ! I didn’t’ meet my 10 Km by 2008..Cos so far I only hit 8 KM.. still have like 2 days left?!!

4) Lose 5KG and 2 to 3 inches!

5) Have a consistent prayer life and QT session

6) Cover more of OT (Major and Minor Prophets books) or church history in detail / Planning or preparing for Cell materials.

7) Get more sleep! 7 hours on weekdays and 8 on Sundays.. too much health repercussions this year.. weight gain la, eye bags (which I never have in my life!) and goodness know wat else…

8) Bring down my cholesterol to below 250!else I ‘ll end up in hospital sooner or later siah..

9) Spend more time with family cos everyone’s getting married and will be leaving the house sooner or later…

Wah that’s almost like a never ending list.. still about my interests, spiritual life, physical health .. been neglecting many important things except tkd hehe.. May this year be a wonderful year!!!

christmas hols.. passed in a flash

christmas is over! hmm wat was i busy with siah...eve after noon lunch and shopping with aija who was helping me shop clubbing clothes, then night time go st james, wat started off well and interesting became super sucky.. but that aside.ended reach home by 3 liao. after waiting for hair to dry, slept almost 5 am.

then christmas day.. supposed to wake up for christmas service can't wake up.. then join candy and gang at fish and co for lunch.. then en en suggested ktv, so we went sing k together with kevin, james and lisheng.. damn they are all pretty good singers, i say christians area really blessed with good voices hahha. and ihave still yet to go over aijia's to pick up present and i was supposed to go over for vcd session =p

christmas eve!

Finally!! The holiday season is here! Even though no major plans for this season but it’s the holiday season baby! So excited cos took leave on Friday, the rest of the week no need come to work wahhaha..

Think I stil screwing up my moves in tkd or something. Besides the old injury on my right toe I pick up a new one on the left toe last week .. then yesterday sparring drill kena whack near the right knee. Big bruise there and it swell up siah. Then forget to warm up properly now my 2 calfs very “suan” what a way to have my Christmas eve.. but very happy cos yest stayed back to train on my own, then since not many ppl, I got personal attention from a lot of instructors hehe..
was talking to one of my colleague amongst all the things that we were chatting about, one of it is his take on how you choose a life partner. I've heard many theories, point of views and why they decided to settle down with someone. i have to say this is something intriguing. Instead of asking is he good enough, he said there's no such thing as a good man, but the question one should be asking is, how far can you accept or tolerate his flaws? which is a more practical point of view, you look at the person, you know all this flaws, to what extent can you accept them to see them as a life long partner?hmm..

Anyway, I totally got all my plans for this Christmas eve mixed up siah.. supposed to go maple pub and chalet with pipong I totally forget then agreed to go st james.. but I think all things can work out de hor haha.. think I meet aijia in the afternoon then say ah..
Tomm then is stay at home recuperate read books watch vcd day hehehhe

Nat Geo issue this month n tkd

Really love the Nat Geo mag issue this month.. about king herod and another article on how a health systemm educateds the untouchable caste women in india to become health workers.

The latter issue is so touching i almost cried in the train.. the pure fact that really women are treated worse than rats, after all the pain they bear.. how humans are treated in such a sub standard manner is disgusting. the leader of the women health worker, babi Sathe, how she was beaten by her husband, endure the birth pains, leprosy and being chased out of the house treated less than a rat in her life and having only a sari as her possession, to now having a second chance in life in being educated about medicine and health care. She is one of the richer women in the village now owning 2 houses, jeep etc. Quoting her one sentence she truly says it all: " I was like a stone with no soul. When i came here they gave me shape, life. I learned courage and boldness. I became human being. "It's not about being powerful or rich or famous, but the one main happiness , is to become a human being... gosh...

Anyway, just so happen i've just finished class.. and i was telling God.. Frankly i don't know what His perception of Tkd is, but i really thank God i took up taekwondo.. to be able to have an avenue to vent out your frustrations, emotions and unnecessary concerns, to know you can have a goal in life, something you are passionate about, that is one of the best feeling i have. That during the times when i'm emo, i can let it out at the target and heavy bags and lose myself in the lessons. In the class there's no such thing as you are rich or poor or popular or not, Ceo or just a admin staff, there's only a difference in belt level. I don't like to know that i can worry about useless things like relationships or upset about how some ppl treat me, but i like it that i can bash it all up in class. thank God for letting me have the chance to take tkd up.

company year end dinner

i originally wanted to take leave.. but figured.. aye.. better go for this dinner...we went to The Bistro at NUSS Guild house at suntec... french food is the theme and most of us were worried we won't be full hahaha.. but i love the candle lights though heheheh..very nice siah..

but pretty stress cos got 2 table.. one are the division heads, MD and Chairman.. the other table our respective managers and the rest of us side kicks hahah.. think it's the first time MD saw myface.. he only remember there's one girl doing bpm/ODC ah but dunno who.. hahha..
the food i have to say is not bad..


before the dishes they had peanuts, chips and garlic bread to fill us up though.. and our div heads brought their own wine .. which i have to say taste better than ones i usually have. Together with the constant refilling of water, im half full before they serve the dished though hehehe
this is the appetiser.. some salmon thing.. with olives..(marinated norwegian salmon with mirepoix vegetables, fresh herbs and pink peppercorn)
then come the pumpkin soup (harvest pumpkin soup topped with sour cream and nutmeg)

main course.. turkey cordon bleu .. im the only one that ordered this.. but i love it though.. turkey is pretty tender, then there's melted cheese and ham inside.. y um yum.. the potatoes albiet small taste great also wahhahah


the dessert.. we didn't think much about it.. but it turned out surprisingly good.. would be very gelard if it's too much... (chocolate royaltine drizzled with berry coulis)

pretty worth bearing my flu bound nose there though..