swollen hand

think can't see.. wth.. punch the bag and got the hand rly swollen and blue black.. this is what happen when you happen to be thinking about someone that pisses you off as you vent on the bags and not concentrating on yr techniques..

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Realise i'm such a creature of habit.. i use the same body foam for last 11 years.. would only buy 1 type of tibit, eat the same bao from the same stall before training (until the guy say for me "一个叉烧包对吗?"), drink the same drink from the same stall (the guy also say for me "milo 冷的，加珍珠? ") and follow the same band for the last 10 years..

no wonder my sisters say i'm like an open book..

weekend..

thoroughly enjoyed pastor rick howard's session on friday.. i was v sleepy and i pushed 2 dinners appointment to listen to him teach on book of Haggai and it was definitely worth it..

What was yr priority in life? and you could be toiling for Him but it will still be for naught.. You focus on the wrong things in life and there are issues in your life that you haven't iron out with God and whatever you brought home to Him, He might blow it away.. What is the one area in your life that God will say " you might have done a lot of wonderful things.. but that one area..."

Anyway on a separate nota .already did wat i can. put forth e qn. put no expectations.. if it actually does happen.. it's a bonus...

Thanks to Arik for his effort.. running around to help me with my pc.. it's the thought and effort that counts.. patient enough to i think spend 1 hour just to let me make up my mind about the casing.. can't wait for it.. =)

Candida...

I never knew I could and would miss someone so much.. even though 2 years would fly by.. but I still can't help it.

Without realising it, it's been 10 years at least.. you have always been my sane voice.. the one that is objective and shook me back away when my emotional state went heywire.. the one that always dare to say what needs to be said, even if it might not be the nicest to hear sometimes.

You touch ppl's lives and made an impact on others without you realising it. You always say it's hard for you to socialise and that you are quite an introvert.. but you, most often than not, are our life and soul of the party. Your feminist movement, your love for environment, animals (esp sharks and cats) definitely let us think about you everytime we see a shark or a cat.

You never try to do what's popular, but you try to do what's right. Most often than not, you follow what the Spirit leads you to say and do and the passion that arises really influences ppl to follow likewise.

2 years I'm sure will pass soon if we busy ourselves in our lives. My friend, don't stop walking with the Lord, even as i try to let Him handle my insanity, Look to Him often, for He is our Sovereign Lord, our Friend, Abba Father and all that will ever Be.

We'll definitely be praying for you here..

it's time.

okay.. time to move on manz...

Kelvin Soh / Suzanne and Weekend

Psalms 27:4-6 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. 5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. 6 Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD.”

Stir it up in our hearts lord, a passion for Your Name.

I should dedicate my prayer and devotional this week to just praising God.. and for once stop talking about my issues and how I feel.. or maybe because I’ve been living my weeks too much for myself and a motivation that I have. Lord, let me seek Your face daily and gaze at Your beauty...

park here a good devotional to remind myself of: http://www.crosswalk.com/devotionals/daily%20disciples%20devotional/11580402/


Good to hear new testimonies from Kelvin Soh and his wife Suzanna... God bless them in their work that they can reach out to the non Christians easily with his music that bridge the gap easily. It's not easy to share that you have owed so much and that you have dabbled in mediums etc to a general public.. but it's a good testimony which kelvin soh has very nicely supported his wife with his side of the story in her whole issue.. He was sharing about how they met and got together too.. one funny part.. he went " there is a very important thing i want you all to listen to.. *pause for effect* that is if you follow God, suitors will follow you" *faint* ..anyway it kinda brings to a reminder the stark contrast what I’m doing (or not doing ) to share the good news?

Pole class was kinda painful esp when i knock my knee and was balancing with like one arm... I miss going for tkd classes in the weekdays :( can’t wait for week of 23rd to come when I resume training. And Arik on reservist so no PT in the weekend also... *groan*

But otherwise, Great weekend! Finally caught up with Nicky and Rach. Bali here we come, Rachel!

Lady Antebellum - Need you now

this song is really stuck in my head since sat night/sun morning..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4


Need You Now Lyrics

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Assembled PC

Even though it has not even been bought.. but I'm already excited about my new PC.. okay I'm not getting laptop liao.. getting PC.. My PT has kindly helped me assemble. He really helpful to his clients siah.. his other client need to rent a room he also went down with him to fix agent, another client hangover he went his house pull him up.. alamak.. really one kind. no wonder his life always so busy hahaha.. but thankfully he is there.. he worm in and out of the sim lim confusing maze of IT shops i also blur.. i only know i go pick the casing i like, the rest its up to him :p but finally I can play GTA and NFS on my pc liao! YEAH!

Fish n Co

today is fun.. my sentiments echo yvonne's.. we hardly meet up after cell.. but it's a good time.. we talk very long.. amazing women can occupy their time with just their mouth.. (hmm sounds a bit wrong) .. anyway.. it was really fun and great with her..time really flies and the live band there was pretty good.. end up her(well ours) conclusion.. band start early (like 7:30pm), no need drink alcohol and not too loud (they are an acoustic band) .. and the voice not bad, additional point for me is near my office.... think the band name is occular.. funny i never knew fish & co got live band.. omg.. so many birthday parties.. like 8 of them, and it's not even weekend lor.. alamak.. anyway. Yvonne give me a good idea.. since my mindkeep drifting when i pray, maybe i should pray out loud.. good since I sleep alone nowadays..

Resting from Tkd next two weeks.. party to heal my leg partly to spend more time at home.. last month has been busy training for most of my weekdays and weekends are spent celebrating at Y.J.. pausing for 2 weeks to stay at home during weekdays more..

Self Discipline and Meaning of Black Belt to me

Todya's cell.. go back and think about something that you need help to maintain the discipline in.. Mine has got to be self control of the mind.. not to let me be in control.. but God to be in Control.. if i'm in control , i'll be dead.. like jade's analogy that i always remember.. who is driving the car of your life and mind? or is God in the back seat?

Took an extract of my essay on what black belt meant to me.. it's an essay that by right we have to hand in to my instructor but I never got round.. think to be fair to those who are not in the quest.. it's hard to appreciate and understand the journey.. and I should and have been thankful for those in class who train and sweat with me.. for my close friends and family who see me put in the hours, sacrifice the time with them, and understand and give me space...

".... On a personal level, it brings to mind the hours of training that is being put in. It brings to mind the effort sacrificed in coming for training and the other constant reason that I have to give in missing up appointments with friends and loved ones. It brings to mind all the bafflement that is shown by the people around me why one is willing to spend so much money and effort in getting myself injured and “beaten up” in class.
It’s about showing that you had gone all out for the passion, to preserve in reaching the first milestone of this passion, knowing that it does not come to pass from just an ad-hoc training.

Attaining the black belt also definitely does not mean that I’ve developed to be one of the best fighter or martial artist around. On the contrary, it meant discovering myself and my abilities and developing the best of them. Different people have different abilities and talents. For me, it signifies a journey of self discovery and developing a unique passion in a way that matches my own pace and ability. There are those who would want to hurry along their pace of training in order to attain the black belt in the fastest time, but there are those who want to develop slowly so that they can really experience and go ahead when they are fully ready. For myself, the discovery of myself via the black belt is also really about knowing myself and focusing on what is best for me.

.....The black belt in Taekwondo meant that childhood dreams can be fulfilled. It gives one the self confidence in life because of the assurance that I can actually fulfill the goals that I had set out for myself.

As the saying goes, attaining a black belt does not mean the end of the journey; on the contrary, it just meant that the journey has just started. And my fun has just started. "

Black belt baby!

Finally ! Today is e last morn! 4 days in a row I ve 8am meeting, & doesn't mean my day can end early. Still go off 7 or 6 plus & I still reach home 11plus. Reason? so we can b productive & continue working from 10 onwards. Wrong. I am struggling so hard not to die e rest of day & I can't concentrate at all I think I wasted e rest of day. Ok enough complaining.*breathe* or maybe *Sleep*

I love my new black belt uniform. =) I might take some pictures and post it here soon..

Should plan a Bali trip with Rachel  should be fun.. heheh.. Want to get a laptop also.. my current pc sux siah... So wanna go for Slash (happen to like coheed and Cambria) / SingFest Day 3.. lazy / difficult to jio ppl to go watch rock concert siah... sat like run ge-tai again... morning PT, afternoon my pole class, then go back put down gym stuff wash up then 6:30 got company event fireworks, then leave earlier for cell Jul/Aug Birthday cum farewell cum Yvonne house warming cum cell update at yvonne’s place.. then after that join colleagues at Y.J.

Keep thinking about the old lady that’s beside grandma in hospital. 90 year ex-Ma Jie.. she’s a history legend on her own manz. If only we could talk to her and ask her about her life... Grandma’s visit quota of 4 ppl keep getting full (which is good!) but she only has 1 person visiting her and obviously the visitor couldn’t come all the time.. so my aunt was asking permission her quota to come up visit grandma. I wonder how it feels to reach the end of your life, single with no other relatives and family alone in the hospital bed... watching your neighbour has so many visitors...

Thank God Benson took up role of ACL =) =D I know God will do a lot through him and he definitely has the heart to serve God...=) -) nowadays thinking again whether I’ actually am fit to be cell leader after a conversation on Monday.

1 Peter

1 Peter 1: 13,15-16: Therefore , prepare your minds for action; be self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. Bust just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written "be holy becuase i am holy"

1Peter 4: 7 : The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self controlled so that you can pray.

1Peter 5: 8 : Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith..."

week...

where did the last 10 days fly to? I'm not sure. My days seems extra long and my nights seems to fly by super fast.

it was twilight with aijia, jiashi and ah mei on sun. we watched Eclipse and New moon on dvd together, so it's good to continue =) unfortunately it was sun so everyone had to rush home soon after.. Weekdays was busy training .. so most of weekdays are at tkd. which makes my night zoom by.. then it was looking forward to weekends at Y.J which last fri went with sheri and her mum.. damn funny and happening siah her mom, lurve hanging out with her :) act she got a strong voice when she sings :) Sat went with pong till the third set. even better night then the last time i went with her. Crowd was amazing, J.M was amazing, great and friendly and even had fun with a gp of decent strangers behind me. Sun went with pong to FF and she signed up with me. so had kakhi now on sundays.

Crazy and fantastic weekend which i'm still reeling from, unfortunately it was marred by someone who sent me something negative. *breathe*

Grading this friday. it's the last 100meters of the marathon.. jia you! *breathe* *Breathe* *breathe*..

and yes!! i passed my STF GRADING!!! +D =D =D =D =D !!!

taekwondo, JM, Cell.

life sometimes is like yr hair, before you noe it, it has crept up on you. (lame! but true!)

in last week's cell lesson, e pastor speaking tru e instructional video mentioned that one should not have a spirit of entitlement.. that you feel that actually you deserve quite a few things in life .. but problem comes when actually you don't actually get it.. like for example, you feel you deserve a better boss, work enviroment, affection from friends, that pay rise, or that good service in the restaurant..then naturally we'll get upset when we don't get it.. We'll definitely be happier in life if we don't come to expect anything or feel we should deserve something and thank God for whatever that He has blessed us with..I say that's spot on manz...I guess i should have carried this mentality.. then probably I won't have felt so down then..


I can't believe I didn't touch my computer AT ALL the entire weekend from Friday night onwards!! what a record for me.. oh welll doubt i have time.. Friday was at training and YJ, then early sat morning i had PT, went visit ah ma with iris, eunice and peter (very far!) and then met benson and jade at CQ for dinner and drinks at YJ again.

P.T was shiok.. but i was late for like almost half an hour :( so bad siah.. He say my training has reached a plateau and body getting used to my tkd training, so that's why I can't lose any more wt easily, sugggested I wake up and run before i go to work..that's like asking for the moon =( he asked me to do 100 situps every day , i have done it. but ask me to wake up early..tak boleh lah :p

i can't wait for 23rd to come that's when i'm done for grading.. I'm so lethargic recently i can't get my interest up to go for training.. i also dunno why..

Fantastic sat.

Had a fantastic sat manz..!!

Finally done with my Grading.. not sure if i pass.. but i felt i should be able to since i didnt make any major mistakes.. =) see how ah.. but it felt darn gd to be done with it and feel that you are inching closer to your goal... then waited a surpisingly few minutes for my bus with eunice (which is a miracle for me) then germany won 4-0.. and of cos the highlight of it all is i finally manage to catch J M

things i (still).dont understand:

things i (still).dont understand:

don't understand why i shld bother to answer "i'm fine" to someone's "how r u " greeting when i noe they r nt expecting otherwise

don't understand what some girls r trying to show when they wear low cut but when i look down, all i see are e number of bones on their ribs*roll eyes*

don't understand why people r willing to be squashed up for 30 mins at the mrt door just so they can get out easily for 3 secs.

don't understand why people r so scared to look at a couple pda-ing when they r not afraid of pp looking @ them.