shit! i've gained weight! weeks of taking note of my food intake and exercise gone down the train with just 1 and half week of resting from exercise cos of my heel and flu.. shucks!!!
Come monday, i need to lose it all back again.. jia you!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Committ
Seems i really need to commit my mind and thoughts to God, maybe it's spiritual warfare that my tots went wild before and during mission trip? or maybe it's my insufficient leaning on Him that my tots went wild?
in any case, Thank God I'm saved and it justs shows, I need Him.
in any case, Thank God I'm saved and it justs shows, I need Him.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
失望， 情绪化，mission trip
finally mission trip is over..
the ppl in my cell are great.. ready to fullfill God's calling and use their giftings and strength to the max.. it was a wonderful trip, despite major changes, but all things work out good for those who love Him, in face the changes are even better cos it frees up even more resources for each event..
home visitation is good, managed to know a few more families, ppl are really nice friendly and hospitable.. gosh.. think some of them dun really wanna cook, but avail themselves sorry guys, i really lost in the kitchen one.. better stick to wat i do better, talking to strangers :p too many wonderful things from the cell, better post in our cell blog instead.. oh yah. have to add.. THE STARS ARE BEAUTITFUL!!! WHOLE SKY OF THEM, I'VE FULLFILLED MY DREAM OF GAZING AT A NIGHT OF STARS. . yippie! =D
在好事之中唯一的污点， 就是我这个周末非常情绪化。事实上， 虽然有很多好事，可是我一点都不高兴。也很难仔细地说为什么。是因为我那没安全感的性格又在作祟还是，这礼拜觉得对人和朋友非常失望， 还是我又是想太多， 就觉得一切的烦恼和顾虑都忽然变得庞大。 俗语说，靠山山倒， 靠人人跑， 靠神最好。 真觉得，我不高兴时，难道真的要直接说出口才会有人知道，还是要我大声嚷嚷才有人发觉吗？ 还是我一直尽量这样关心我的朋友，而就会有一种期待有人也会为我这样做。
可是人，总会是让人失望。
the ppl in my cell are great.. ready to fullfill God's calling and use their giftings and strength to the max.. it was a wonderful trip, despite major changes, but all things work out good for those who love Him, in face the changes are even better cos it frees up even more resources for each event..
home visitation is good, managed to know a few more families, ppl are really nice friendly and hospitable.. gosh.. think some of them dun really wanna cook, but avail themselves sorry guys, i really lost in the kitchen one.. better stick to wat i do better, talking to strangers :p too many wonderful things from the cell, better post in our cell blog instead.. oh yah. have to add.. THE STARS ARE BEAUTITFUL!!! WHOLE SKY OF THEM, I'VE FULLFILLED MY DREAM OF GAZING AT A NIGHT OF STARS. . yippie! =D
在好事之中唯一的污点， 就是我这个周末非常情绪化。事实上， 虽然有很多好事，可是我一点都不高兴。也很难仔细地说为什么。是因为我那没安全感的性格又在作祟还是，这礼拜觉得对人和朋友非常失望， 还是我又是想太多， 就觉得一切的烦恼和顾虑都忽然变得庞大。 俗语说，靠山山倒， 靠人人跑， 靠神最好。 真觉得，我不高兴时，难道真的要直接说出口才会有人知道，还是要我大声嚷嚷才有人发觉吗？ 还是我一直尽量这样关心我的朋友，而就会有一种期待有人也会为我这样做。
可是人，总会是让人失望。
Friday, July 24, 2009
restless sleep, acupuncture, jamiroquai , bintan..
Can’t really sleep well these few days, keep having a lot of restless dreams. The previous night I had a gun fight in my dream with ppl jumping off the building, my mum and I had H1N1.. etc. yesterday dunno what I dreamt forget liao but I think also action packed siah, then woke up wet cos starting raining at 4 plus and my bed is under the window.. -_-|||
Ahh the wonders of acupuncture.. not completely well yet, it did release a considerable amount of pain in my heal after the first session! Amazing!! TCM Rocks!! I bet the GP will just give me pain killer or something lor \0_0/
Oh yah.. I’m so in love with Jamiroquai all over again!! I’m going seek out his albums and hope they are cheaper now! Hehehe
Haven’t been talking to God much these few days and everytime it happens my insecurities will start to surface, really thankful God saved me, else I’m definitely a much worse off person that I am now. Tom is bintan trip, pray everyone will be safe and that God will use us, no matter how weak we are, for His work there.
In our weakness, may His strength be seen.
Ahh the wonders of acupuncture.. not completely well yet, it did release a considerable amount of pain in my heal after the first session! Amazing!! TCM Rocks!! I bet the GP will just give me pain killer or something lor \0_0/
Oh yah.. I’m so in love with Jamiroquai all over again!! I’m going seek out his albums and hope they are cheaper now! Hehehe
Haven’t been talking to God much these few days and everytime it happens my insecurities will start to surface, really thankful God saved me, else I’m definitely a much worse off person that I am now. Tom is bintan trip, pray everyone will be safe and that God will use us, no matter how weak we are, for His work there.
In our weakness, may His strength be seen.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Bready!
finally! grading is over! i can get back to training for the sake of enjoying tkd itself like bags , self defense and sparring.. hehe .. red tip here i come!
Mum just came from KL with my auntie her sis, and bought us all a couple of "bread" hp chain.. my sis liked tis act but she gave it to me knowing i would like it.. hehe. i shall call it Bready! hahahha so cute right?!
my new hair cut and me bored in a place i dont' want to say where.. LOL!
Mum just came from KL with my auntie her sis, and bought us all a couple of "bread" hp chain.. my sis liked tis act but she gave it to me knowing i would like it.. hehe. i shall call it Bready! hahahha so cute right?!
my new hair cut and me bored in a place i dont' want to say where.. LOL!
Friday, July 17, 2009
tragedies, grading. haircut.. travelling.
Whole lot of tragedy this week
Yet another airline crash, this time an Iranian airline.
Yet another muslim terrorist threat, this time against the Han Chinese in XinJiang
Yet another bombing attack in Jakarta, this time against Marriot and Ritz Carlton
Israel soldiers admitting that civilians are used as shields in the attack
And these are only those that I remembered only happy news is, Singapore is out of a recession, at least growth this last month.
It’s grading weekend again, been practicing my back hook and spinning back hook. No chance of double promo already, just want to pass. I just want to improve my sparring, close the gap between mind and body.
Busy like hell recently, busy training, Short term mission trip for our cell coming up, my own batam trip with friends, organizing birthday celebrations, organizing testimonies for video filiming, going to bring my parents to clarke quay hehe..
Just cut my hair this week.. new look new image.. happy about it.. =)D
Yet another airline crash, this time an Iranian airline.
Yet another muslim terrorist threat, this time against the Han Chinese in XinJiang
Yet another bombing attack in Jakarta, this time against Marriot and Ritz Carlton
Israel soldiers admitting that civilians are used as shields in the attack
And these are only those that I remembered only happy news is, Singapore is out of a recession, at least growth this last month.
It’s grading weekend again, been practicing my back hook and spinning back hook. No chance of double promo already, just want to pass. I just want to improve my sparring, close the gap between mind and body.
Busy like hell recently, busy training, Short term mission trip for our cell coming up, my own batam trip with friends, organizing birthday celebrations, organizing testimonies for video filiming, going to bring my parents to clarke quay hehe..
Just cut my hair this week.. new look new image.. happy about it.. =)D
Friday, July 10, 2009
Morning Jog
Actually woke up at 6am to go jogging before coming to work.. SHIOK! Happy with the temporary discipline haha. Actually wanted to jog yesterday, but meeting over-run so no time to run.. plus that one slice of my sis’s birthday cake :p
Jogging is always a good time for me to pray, the longer u run the longer u pray, which is good esp if it’s early in the morning.. Takes yr mind of the tiredness anyway.
This is my neighbourhood in the morning.. love the dew hanging on the trees up on the hill and the neighbourhood down below at the “valley” ..
And our multi purpose carpark haha. Where ppl go jogging, taichi, sword and fan practicing, boxing, blading, cycling, bbq-ing, qi-going, hanging , out chit chatting, hanging of their clothes and making out (to the audience of all the blocks all around hehe)
It's actually very big, it stretches from the foreground right to where the tree is at the far end of the picture ..
On a side note,
Ps Wayne says our faith has to be contagious, I’m not sure if mine is, I don’t think so though, but I pray that one day I will…
Jogging is always a good time for me to pray, the longer u run the longer u pray, which is good esp if it’s early in the morning.. Takes yr mind of the tiredness anyway.
This is my neighbourhood in the morning.. love the dew hanging on the trees up on the hill and the neighbourhood down below at the “valley” ..
And our multi purpose carpark haha. Where ppl go jogging, taichi, sword and fan practicing, boxing, blading, cycling, bbq-ing, qi-going, hanging , out chit chatting, hanging of their clothes and making out (to the audience of all the blocks all around hehe)
It's actually very big, it stretches from the foreground right to where the tree is at the far end of the picture ..
On a side note,
Ps Wayne says our faith has to be contagious, I’m not sure if mine is, I don’t think so though, but I pray that one day I will…
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Michael Jackson
As much as i love MJ, his magic, his inspiration to the new generation artistes, but to the point where the media has been talking non stop about his will, his autopsy, his children , seriously give that man and his kids a break.
Having said that, I can't say i'm the greatest fan, i have only the HIStory album and i'm one of those that's MJ fans are rolling their eyes on because i'm only going to grab his album after he passed away, but it's always great to remember a great artiste that once lived right? Newspaper reports that the "tributes" popping all over town are doing the dead a great disrespect cos they only wanted to cash in on the event, but if it's a win- win situation why not? the Fans get to feast on MJ songs and the organisers get some publicity.
Anyway to side track.. i need a pair of good shoes, heals are hurting like hell..
caught a quote in an email, it's not that you save too little but you spend too much.
Having said that, I can't say i'm the greatest fan, i have only the HIStory album and i'm one of those that's MJ fans are rolling their eyes on because i'm only going to grab his album after he passed away, but it's always great to remember a great artiste that once lived right? Newspaper reports that the "tributes" popping all over town are doing the dead a great disrespect cos they only wanted to cash in on the event, but if it's a win- win situation why not? the Fans get to feast on MJ songs and the organisers get some publicity.
Anyway to side track.. i need a pair of good shoes, heals are hurting like hell..
caught a quote in an email, it's not that you save too little but you spend too much.
Monday, July 6, 2009
pizzas, transformers, durian feast , german sausages., beer..
whole weekend is burst my diet day haha. last week eat pancake.. starting on friday we had durian feast.. loads of durians.. and it was wiped out when we reach at 10pm to buy after pnp.. sheeze.. but it's still good those packet ones.. ruby bought loads of rambutans and mangosteens and they are suprisingly nice.. hehe reach home at 1130 kena 'suan" by dad liao. cos reaching home late everyday..
early in the morning sat go candys place, all right 1130 am is not very early but woke up early to go gym first.. reached there starving thankfully candida treated pizzas.. yum yum.. curry beef hehe..oh yah we were there to discuss on indo trip details hahaha
went watch tranformers.. i love both but i think i like part 1.. there are more sub plots but i like the action teh bombing the robots tranformation etc.. and of cos soundtrack..ali was funny ah.. show haven't start already finish the snacks and our show ended later than expected TJ and ZG had to roam around city hall first searching for broteiz.. but it's great to catch up with them, can't believe it's been 10 years manz... sigh hahhah.. looking fwd to batam trip with them.. =D
early in the morning sat go candys place, all right 1130 am is not very early but woke up early to go gym first.. reached there starving thankfully candida treated pizzas.. yum yum.. curry beef hehe..oh yah we were there to discuss on indo trip details hahaha
went watch tranformers.. i love both but i think i like part 1.. there are more sub plots but i like the action teh bombing the robots tranformation etc.. and of cos soundtrack..ali was funny ah.. show haven't start already finish the snacks and our show ended later than expected TJ and ZG had to roam around city hall first searching for broteiz.. but it's great to catch up with them, can't believe it's been 10 years manz... sigh hahhah.. looking fwd to batam trip with them.. =D
Friday, July 3, 2009
house party at steph's
Steph and me! so going to miss her in class, we were all in the same belt level.. my clique now left with Sherie and me..
Teresa the latino-australian-now-staying-in-singapore lady with steph and me. She was sharing about the latino parties back home when she grew up, boy! made me wanna attend one, dance the whole night away party non stop, fantastic food. hmmmm..maybe i should find a latino hahah
Some of the folks are really nice and friendly, like these two who is super new to singapore (whose names slipped my mind completely :p )
hehehe we were commenting on what's the same same but different part and i commented on my fake tatoo so i pointed to jerry and told them he got a real one hahaha.. so up goes the shirt and there goes the camera hahah
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
back!
finally back! both online @ my blog and in office! been too busy and tired from lack of sleep to really post anything or watever.. first day back @ work after a 4 day course met with thunderstorm.. in the end had to ask Denise to come rescue me.. to think she happily commented to recep that she heng come early never kena wet.. paiseh manz.. sorry denise!
A thought came to my mind . .. spritual walk is like taekwondo, you got to keep working on it keep training , you were good once doesnt mean you are good forever..
i just realised, you really can't write a blog when you are exhausted manz.. it shows in your speech!
anyway to cut a long story short (i had a longer posting but decided to cut the crap) exhaustion starts from last friday through to tues, movies with haz, lasik followup in the morning dentist appointment, orchard shopping for fake tattoo w aijia, house party, all night partying till morning with stephanie and jerry, church in the morning, staying up to watch MJ Tribute till late, tkd training till late, midnight revision for my shipping course ..
it's crazy manz.. then had a great mini celebration for eugene for his 4th Dan, training today, fri church and durian feasting, movies and dinner on sat and doing my hair/face..
no wonder my mum call me Man-go (both cos i love mango and pronounce separately in mandarin as busy dog)
but then, who the hell cares what i was doing and what i'm going to do right? LOL!
A thought came to my mind . .. spritual walk is like taekwondo, you got to keep working on it keep training , you were good once doesnt mean you are good forever..
i just realised, you really can't write a blog when you are exhausted manz.. it shows in your speech!
anyway to cut a long story short (i had a longer posting but decided to cut the crap) exhaustion starts from last friday through to tues, movies with haz, lasik followup in the morning dentist appointment, orchard shopping for fake tattoo w aijia, house party, all night partying till morning with stephanie and jerry, church in the morning, staying up to watch MJ Tribute till late, tkd training till late, midnight revision for my shipping course ..
it's crazy manz.. then had a great mini celebration for eugene for his 4th Dan, training today, fri church and durian feasting, movies and dinner on sat and doing my hair/face..
no wonder my mum call me Man-go (both cos i love mango and pronounce separately in mandarin as busy dog)
but then, who the hell cares what i was doing and what i'm going to do right? LOL!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Disturbed
mind playing tricks again?
It creaps up on you
envelopes your heart and mind
clouds your perception
the world turns green and red
and you want to dig for the truth
IT is a tricky and deceptive thing
gotta hold my horses
watch and observe
stomach flipped and lurched
heart slammed against rib cage
blood rushed to my head
wondering
thinking
perplexed
disturbed
It creaps up on you
envelopes your heart and mind
clouds your perception
the world turns green and red
and you want to dig for the truth
IT is a tricky and deceptive thing
gotta hold my horses
watch and observe
stomach flipped and lurched
heart slammed against rib cage
blood rushed to my head
wondering
thinking
perplexed
disturbed
Thursday, June 18, 2009
intrigued
Havne't got time to post anything recently.. managed to squeeze out time to post on the cell blog about our trip and it took me to 1 am.. gosh. http://theabccell.blogspot.com/
read on someone's profile.. 当天空落泪时,懂得安慰天空的人, got me thinking for a while... profound manz..
read on someone's profile.. 当天空落泪时,懂得安慰天空的人, got me thinking for a while... profound manz..
Sunday, June 7, 2009
not through with me.
i'm so happy... finally i'm crying because i'm touched cos i sense God's presence.. tears of joy, tears of happiness if there is every a thing like that..
During worship, all i'm thinking is i wanna fall in love with jesus all over again, and if i hadn't i would want to.
and the song goes "my Closest Friend" i know i should committ all things to Him first.. Seek Him for all things and seek man for answers.. think i've been seeking man too much.
Third thing He showed me, actually He told me before my roots are not deep enough, foundation is not deep enough like my recent bout has just proved to me loud and clear. never will i let Him go, cos i need him and i love God.
God is not tru with me i know He is not, and i'm so glad he did not stop loving me nor stop moulding me.. every word He say to me is so precious and thing he point out to me i didn't wannna forget.
4th thing i wanna do, pray for my cell folks if they need after service.. and i wanna make it a personal thing to come about half an hour earlier to cell to pray, will be good if they wanna join me..
soome of us (benson, ray,ruby sylvia, candy arthur) watching Facing the giants at candy's plc, one thing in the show "god has placed you where u are to bloom, and you do't move until God says u do" so whereever god placed me, i'm going to do the best for Him, especially as ACL..
I'm so looking forward to my retreat this week inKL 8th to 12th. heard it's 6 star hotel hahha.. great.. since i always stay backpacker or 2 star hotel haha.. but since the recent bout, it'llb e wonderful and excellent to throw everything aside and soak myself in God's presence and word.. God i'm so looking fwd to it!
During worship, all i'm thinking is i wanna fall in love with jesus all over again, and if i hadn't i would want to.
and the song goes "my Closest Friend" i know i should committ all things to Him first.. Seek Him for all things and seek man for answers.. think i've been seeking man too much.
Third thing He showed me, actually He told me before my roots are not deep enough, foundation is not deep enough like my recent bout has just proved to me loud and clear. never will i let Him go, cos i need him and i love God.
God is not tru with me i know He is not, and i'm so glad he did not stop loving me nor stop moulding me.. every word He say to me is so precious and thing he point out to me i didn't wannna forget.
4th thing i wanna do, pray for my cell folks if they need after service.. and i wanna make it a personal thing to come about half an hour earlier to cell to pray, will be good if they wanna join me..
soome of us (benson, ray,ruby sylvia, candy arthur) watching Facing the giants at candy's plc, one thing in the show "god has placed you where u are to bloom, and you do't move until God says u do" so whereever god placed me, i'm going to do the best for Him, especially as ACL..
I'm so looking forward to my retreat this week inKL 8th to 12th. heard it's 6 star hotel hahha.. great.. since i always stay backpacker or 2 star hotel haha.. but since the recent bout, it'llb e wonderful and excellent to throw everything aside and soak myself in God's presence and word.. God i'm so looking fwd to it!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
shiok day.
It finally feels good to step out of the house this morning.. Finally the rain falls and the wind blows and u feel the cool wind blowing against your face. Now and then a slight drizzle, but it feels like oasis in the desert.
Read in yest ‘s devo.. need to have endurance and perserverance.. It’s in the analogy of the author trying very hard to wipe of the marks off the computer screen with a lot of effort and Joshua urged to lead Israel into the Promised Land. Don’t’ just stop outside, press on and move in once you’ve caught a glimpse of what God showed you.
I think I’m better somewhat at overcoming my fear of sparring. In which in yesterday’s class, I had so much fun 1 hour flew by just like that .. went in with a mentality, okay I’m here to just overcome my fear of sparring and whacked, if the competition team want to chiong then good for them also =) think it’s a lot better without any pressure at all hehehe.. but Thomas was so funny. The way he punch me was so light and cartoony.. think he trying very hard not to hurt me heheheh .
I think I think of the most ridiculous things when I do taekwondo.. every time I do a warm up I looked down and I’m thinking damn I need a pedicure. And when I execute a hand strike or something I look at my hand and I go, damn I need a manicure.. when master rivas was demoing something and clutch my heel I’m thinking damn , thankfully I just did my foot scrub.. so bimbotic!
Read in yest ‘s devo.. need to have endurance and perserverance.. It’s in the analogy of the author trying very hard to wipe of the marks off the computer screen with a lot of effort and Joshua urged to lead Israel into the Promised Land. Don’t’ just stop outside, press on and move in once you’ve caught a glimpse of what God showed you.
I think I’m better somewhat at overcoming my fear of sparring. In which in yesterday’s class, I had so much fun 1 hour flew by just like that .. went in with a mentality, okay I’m here to just overcome my fear of sparring and whacked, if the competition team want to chiong then good for them also =) think it’s a lot better without any pressure at all hehehe.. but Thomas was so funny. The way he punch me was so light and cartoony.. think he trying very hard not to hurt me heheheh .
I think I think of the most ridiculous things when I do taekwondo.. every time I do a warm up I looked down and I’m thinking damn I need a pedicure. And when I execute a hand strike or something I look at my hand and I go, damn I need a manicure.. when master rivas was demoing something and clutch my heel I’m thinking damn , thankfully I just did my foot scrub.. so bimbotic!
