Self Discipline and Meaning of Black Belt to me

Todya's cell.. go back and think about something that you need help to maintain the discipline in.. Mine has got to be self control of the mind.. not to let me be in control.. but God to be in Control.. if i'm in control , i'll be dead.. like jade's analogy that i always remember.. who is driving the car of your life and mind? or is God in the back seat?

Took an extract of my essay on what black belt meant to me.. it's an essay that by right we have to hand in to my instructor but I never got round.. think to be fair to those who are not in the quest.. it's hard to appreciate and understand the journey.. and I should and have been thankful for those in class who train and sweat with me.. for my close friends and family who see me put in the hours, sacrifice the time with them, and understand and give me space...

".... On a personal level, it brings to mind the hours of training that is being put in. It brings to mind the effort sacrificed in coming for training and the other constant reason that I have to give in missing up appointments with friends and loved ones. It brings to mind all the bafflement that is shown by the people around me why one is willing to spend so much money and effort in getting myself injured and “beaten up” in class.
It’s about showing that you had gone all out for the passion, to preserve in reaching the first milestone of this passion, knowing that it does not come to pass from just an ad-hoc training.

Attaining the black belt also definitely does not mean that I’ve developed to be one of the best fighter or martial artist around. On the contrary, it meant discovering myself and my abilities and developing the best of them. Different people have different abilities and talents. For me, it signifies a journey of self discovery and developing a unique passion in a way that matches my own pace and ability. There are those who would want to hurry along their pace of training in order to attain the black belt in the fastest time, but there are those who want to develop slowly so that they can really experience and go ahead when they are fully ready. For myself, the discovery of myself via the black belt is also really about knowing myself and focusing on what is best for me.

.....The black belt in Taekwondo meant that childhood dreams can be fulfilled. It gives one the self confidence in life because of the assurance that I can actually fulfill the goals that I had set out for myself.

As the saying goes, attaining a black belt does not mean the end of the journey; on the contrary, it just meant that the journey has just started. And my fun has just started. "

Black belt baby!

Finally ! Today is e last morn! 4 days in a row I ve 8am meeting, & doesn't mean my day can end early. Still go off 7 or 6 plus & I still reach home 11plus. Reason? so we can b productive & continue working from 10 onwards. Wrong. I am struggling so hard not to die e rest of day & I can't concentrate at all I think I wasted e rest of day. Ok enough complaining.*breathe* or maybe *Sleep*

I love my new black belt uniform. =) I might take some pictures and post it here soon..

Should plan a Bali trip with Rachel  should be fun.. heheh.. Want to get a laptop also.. my current pc sux siah... So wanna go for Slash (happen to like coheed and Cambria) / SingFest Day 3.. lazy / difficult to jio ppl to go watch rock concert siah... sat like run ge-tai again... morning PT, afternoon my pole class, then go back put down gym stuff wash up then 6:30 got company event fireworks, then leave earlier for cell Jul/Aug Birthday cum farewell cum Yvonne house warming cum cell update at yvonne’s place.. then after that join colleagues at Y.J.

Keep thinking about the old lady that’s beside grandma in hospital. 90 year ex-Ma Jie.. she’s a history legend on her own manz. If only we could talk to her and ask her about her life... Grandma’s visit quota of 4 ppl keep getting full (which is good!) but she only has 1 person visiting her and obviously the visitor couldn’t come all the time.. so my aunt was asking permission her quota to come up visit grandma. I wonder how it feels to reach the end of your life, single with no other relatives and family alone in the hospital bed... watching your neighbour has so many visitors...

Thank God Benson took up role of ACL =) =D I know God will do a lot through him and he definitely has the heart to serve God...=) -) nowadays thinking again whether I’ actually am fit to be cell leader after a conversation on Monday.

1 Peter

1 Peter 1: 13,15-16: Therefore , prepare your minds for action; be self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. Bust just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written "be holy becuase i am holy"

1Peter 4: 7 : The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self controlled so that you can pray.

1Peter 5: 8 : Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith..."

week...

where did the last 10 days fly to? I'm not sure. My days seems extra long and my nights seems to fly by super fast.

it was twilight with aijia, jiashi and ah mei on sun. we watched Eclipse and New moon on dvd together, so it's good to continue =) unfortunately it was sun so everyone had to rush home soon after.. Weekdays was busy training .. so most of weekdays are at tkd. which makes my night zoom by.. then it was looking forward to weekends at Y.J which last fri went with sheri and her mum.. damn funny and happening siah her mom, lurve hanging out with her :) act she got a strong voice when she sings :) Sat went with pong till the third set. even better night then the last time i went with her. Crowd was amazing, J.M was amazing, great and friendly and even had fun with a gp of decent strangers behind me. Sun went with pong to FF and she signed up with me. so had kakhi now on sundays.

Crazy and fantastic weekend which i'm still reeling from, unfortunately it was marred by someone who sent me something negative. *breathe*

Grading this friday. it's the last 100meters of the marathon.. jia you! *breathe* *Breathe* *breathe*..

and yes!! i passed my STF GRADING!!! +D =D =D =D =D !!!

taekwondo, JM, Cell.

life sometimes is like yr hair, before you noe it, it has crept up on you. (lame! but true!)

in last week's cell lesson, e pastor speaking tru e instructional video mentioned that one should not have a spirit of entitlement.. that you feel that actually you deserve quite a few things in life .. but problem comes when actually you don't actually get it.. like for example, you feel you deserve a better boss, work enviroment, affection from friends, that pay rise, or that good service in the restaurant..then naturally we'll get upset when we don't get it.. We'll definitely be happier in life if we don't come to expect anything or feel we should deserve something and thank God for whatever that He has blessed us with..I say that's spot on manz...I guess i should have carried this mentality.. then probably I won't have felt so down then..


I can't believe I didn't touch my computer AT ALL the entire weekend from Friday night onwards!! what a record for me.. oh welll doubt i have time.. Friday was at training and YJ, then early sat morning i had PT, went visit ah ma with iris, eunice and peter (very far!) and then met benson and jade at CQ for dinner and drinks at YJ again.

P.T was shiok.. but i was late for like almost half an hour :( so bad siah.. He say my training has reached a plateau and body getting used to my tkd training, so that's why I can't lose any more wt easily, sugggested I wake up and run before i go to work..that's like asking for the moon =( he asked me to do 100 situps every day , i have done it. but ask me to wake up early..tak boleh lah :p

i can't wait for 23rd to come that's when i'm done for grading.. I'm so lethargic recently i can't get my interest up to go for training.. i also dunno why..

Fantastic sat.

Had a fantastic sat manz..!!

Finally done with my Grading.. not sure if i pass.. but i felt i should be able to since i didnt make any major mistakes.. =) see how ah.. but it felt darn gd to be done with it and feel that you are inching closer to your goal... then waited a surpisingly few minutes for my bus with eunice (which is a miracle for me) then germany won 4-0.. and of cos the highlight of it all is i finally manage to catch J M

things i (still).dont understand:

things i (still).dont understand:

don't understand why i shld bother to answer "i'm fine" to someone's "how r u " greeting when i noe they r nt expecting otherwise

don't understand what some girls r trying to show when they wear low cut but when i look down, all i see are e number of bones on their ribs*roll eyes*

don't understand why people r willing to be squashed up for 30 mins at the mrt door just so they can get out easily for 3 secs.

don't understand why people r so scared to look at a couple pda-ing when they r not afraid of pp looking @ them.